mentally unstable

I'm seriously not in the mood for books. Maybe for now...and i hope it is. cuz I already bought CLEO last week, 3 other mags; Utopia, Remaja n 17teen today and a 500 pages novel. I was in the mood when I bought them...really in the mood. I always in the mood when it comes to reading. but that was then. Oh what is happening to me?

I have some plans before the year 2004 ends;
1. searching for real me-->myself, myfriends, mylife, myfuture
2. try to plan some activities to forget abt the coming SPM results.
3. work out work out and work out. I really into chocs and foods nowadays. GEMOK!

today, i ate at Puteri Bongsu again after joining the aquarobic class. Then off to kedai and work on my doll. And it seems like Shanana really wants my doll. She hates the doll my mom gave it to her cuz the doll is black. and mine is white and its still in progress. hahah. she likes something which is not something yet. Shes cute. Nakal giler and garang giler. and shes just 1 yr and 8 mnths old.

"Nanti Farah kat New Zealand bolehla kite melawat die." thats what my mom said to her friends. She really wants me to go there. Ugh its hard to accept my result nnt. eish takut nyee..

Read an article abt Uni and Colleges in 17teen. They recommend Sunway College and Taylors College for those who wants to take business and finance. And I definately go to Sunway College and take up business there. Cuz Sunway is affiliated to Vic Uni of Wellington. Which means another gateway to NZ. yeay!

Im confused with my own feelings. And I dun want to fell in love yet. Not for now. But Im lying to myself. Im getting more mentally unstable. Ugh hate it hate it.

Stopping The Crap,
daa~

getting more worried and weird day by day

one movie a day. I did it everyday for the last 5 days i guess. butterfly effect. butterfly effect again. down with love. LOTR ROTK. 13 going on 30 and tonight ill be watching MIB.and I really wanna watch Polar Express again at Imax. I want it so badly. hurm. I guess Ive turned myself into a movie freak. tv+movie freak. potato couch am i? doesnt matter.

I started to miss my school, my days in 2004, and The Sims! but I have to stop playing for awhile. maybe i'll start next week when they are not around. huhu.

Listening to What are you waiting for? by Gwen Stefani. This song is really catchy. i like it. heh. Born to Blossom Bloom to Perish. Fave line in the song. The first few lines 'What an amazing time...' make me feel like turning the time back. Change some history [ actually change what I had done for my SPM... ]. I have to be more hardworking. My Mom started to talk abt my New Zealand thingy to her friends. Wonder how she feels when she finds out tht my results sux. I just haf to accept the fact...whatever it is. No Regret! No Turning Back! But I feel guilty destroying her dreams that is actually mine too :'(. I couldnt forget abt it for awhile. Although the result will come out in 2 months. I couldnt enjoy doing anything at all...help!

Its a very busy day today. In the morning I went for aquarobic and then went to Puteri Bongsu for early lunch. Then set off to kedai. Mak is back! so I met ika today. hihi rindu nye kat die. spill some secrets to her. Then I remembered the bitchy things ive gone through. Haf to forgive them cuz Im a biatch too. haf to forget it. But its hard. Oh why I luv to make things so complicated!!!?

I need someone to talk. Someone I dun really close with. hurm.

Enough for the day,
daa~

Thinking Of Something

Watching the news abt the Tsunami. Its really scary. I cant even imagine how am I going to be if I were there. Thanks to Allah cuz Im not there. phew. There's always a silver line in every cloud[betui ke tak peribahase nih..heh]. hurm...

I have listed 3 Uni I wanna go in New Zealand [itupon kalaw jadi];
1. University Of Canterbury
2. Victoria University of Wellington
3. Otago University

Actually the first Uni I wanna go its Otago but my mom recommended not to go there cuz the weather its not suitable for a gurl like me. heh gelabah je dgr. yelah. 2 degree in summertime. so i wanna go to canterbury or victoria but most probably..nowhere. I have a feeling tht I wont score my SPM. Miracle is the only hope to score. Just pray to god~

A lot of things ive been thinking lately. and its really spins my head off. Only the song Someones watching over me and allah prayers could calm me down. Oh theres another way; eating chocolates. Ive been thinking abt Studies, Life, Results, Family n Friends...even love. ah whats wrong with me!?

I have my resolutions already[some jela baru];

1. Be a better person. a better servant to Allah. a better daughter.
2. Study Hard n Smart even more hardworking than past years cuz ive been a gurl who loves to spend time with crap this year.
3. Have another joyful year. Maybe more merrier.
4. Have steady friends and not forgetting keeping my old friends in touch.
5. Have a healthy life.
6. Improve my english

I guess thats all. Oh another one. I need a new pair of glasses cuz I wanna haf good eyes to usha somebody. heh kiddin.


till then,
daa~!

2 tiring day~!

2 days already i didnt write anything. So I'm going to write some. Yesterday was a tiring day. Been out since 9am. Went to Bangsar and haf breakfast at Devi's Corner with Fash and my parents. Then my dad went to a funeral[innalillah to the baby...sorry for her parents] and my mom fash and I went to MidValley for school shopping...for my lil bros. I bought a novel (wild lavender) and a trackpants. We went there and they are having Christmas Sale. Best giler tgk sumer 50% off. and I've got my eyes on the Nike brown snickers. Cun do. But Im broke so...forget it.

Then we had lunch with Aunt Norma's family. nothing really interesting happening there. We just chat chat chat. Then we head off to the hosp jage ayeed;Fash brother sbb her mother nak balek bangi jap ade hal. We watched Down With Love there and I love the movie. One of my fave love movie. Then I watched Fash translating her Japanese lyrics to find the meaning of the song the Japanese sang for her. Ayeed lak pusing pusing kacaw orang. Hahah. He has a 17year old friend(one of the pesakit) which is my school mate. Lame tak jumpe die. Semakin smart lak. wahahha. Rajin die layan dak dak kat sane. The other patients dok ngorat one nurse kat situ. Kecik kecik dah gatal...heh.

then balek terus haf dinner kat mama chops papa grill. Okla tempat uh. Then beli makanan kucing...and back home. Watched Star Wars and I just realised tht Luke cam lemah. Han Solo gak bes. I fallen asleep while watching it.

Today I woke up at 7 and siap siap siap then we're off to breakfast at 8. Then we went straight to Janda Baik! Oh kat sane keje makan Durian and Mangosteen. Then mandi sungai. Best giler. I had a blast there...

Actually I dunno how to explain how I enjoy my day today. hahah. Dah ngantuks giler nihhs. zzzzz

Later~!
Daa~

duhh!~

great. having big feast at Kampachi wearing pjs. At first i tot we'll be having dinner at sumplace like Mamak stall...or paling paling pon fast food or secret recipe. Then suddenly my dad was heading to the Equatorial Hotel. huh tekejut. Dah la the rest. are having christmas eve dinner thing. So they serve something grande. Tp xpe. makan sedap~heheh.

Spent my morning having fun picnic dekat Putra Perdana. they planned to go again next week. heheh. Hurm. Then Fash and I started our dolly project today. Banyak gak pakai dwet sbb the doll is not small...tak muat perca kain. but we manage to get kain siket2 lar from the kedai. I just cant wait for it to be completely a doll!~ But nuthing interesting happen today[selain dolly n picnic...]

Hampir2 men The Sims 2 tadi. 50% addicted. And I am working on my 2004 memories and my 2005 resolutions.

Later~!!
daa~

Booreed!!

65% addicted to The Sims...and I decided to stop playin tht game. Just for awhile. My day get even more oxygen. I went out and help ma mom at her shop. at least I got sumthing else to do rather than playing the game in da howse alone...and money flows in my pocket~!I watched The Butterfly Effect 2 times for the last 2 days. Man sape yg buat movie tuhh mmg smart giler. Luv the movie...4 1/2 stars. hurm. My book ive been reading for the past few days...x gerak langsung, even my smocking project tak jalan. Rase malas je... but i wanna start with my doll project. wanna make my own doll although im not playing with it. Got a lot of other plans rite now. And I realize that I'll be spending my time with the nature. Tomorrow ill go for a walk with my mom, fash, my bros and on sunday my family and I are going to janda baik. Hope i'll haf a great time...



Lenkalila sambung,
daa~

Begitulah Cinta~!

Another day spent with my sims. Ah im gettin less social. Less talking to ppl. 75% addicted. I wanna go out. Bored stayin in da howse. Wonder how ill be if no sims 2 beside me. 100% crazie!

Watched my new fave seriess; Begitulah Cinta. The storyline is gettin much more interesting. The twins are cute. The guys are handsome. hahah. I started reading Just friends by Robyn Sisman afta finished reading mark haddon's curious incident of the dog in the night time[lebey kurang lla name panjang sangat]. hurm. Not in tha mood. enough for the day. cuz im having a dry holiday.


Till then.
daa~

this is the book i finished reading: 5 stars rated by me. highly recomended.




and this one is what im reading now: quite interesting for now. its robyn sisman's. sure best.

CoUnTiNg thE DaYs...

counting the days...11 days to spend the year 2004 then we'll get into year 2005. Another new adventure. many things to learn. many things to change. got to work out my new year resolution(s). Ah feel like stoppin the time. No Tick tock sound in ma head cuz it makes me feel much more worried; my spm result in abt 70 days!I dreamt of having bad SPM lately. hate those nightmares. and i hate SPM. i haf a feeling that ill face a bad SPM result. Ahh better stop thinking bt that.

I'll be fetching my parents at the airport. i can't wait fer them...and the cherries! Yesterday i listened to Fash's homestay in japan story and today ill be listening to my parents' New Zealand journey. Jeles giler doo!! Talking abt overseas...my parents really wanna send me overseas. They really put high hopes on me!! ahh start worrying again!! If my results are sux(and i haf feelings it is)..i wanna take A-Levels and try to strive for excellence...been a very playful lil gurl lately. better put tht in my new year resolution (wanna be serious-cam boley jer) and I haf to list down the things to do to forget my results. nak enjoy!

Finished cleanin up my room. cerah sket. and finished cleanin my parents room afta menceramukkan bilek mereka. then I spend my boring day in front of the screen controllin my Sims. I already get addicted to games; The Sims 2, Party Blast, Yeti Sports, otha intenet games. rebut ngan my bros. hurm. havent seen fash today. wonder where has she been. I wanna go out. I wanna buy some new things for my room. I wanna hang out with my friends. So bored. Since balek from kampong, I didnt go out to the malls. kinda missing them already.hahaha. Gotta find some things else to do. I start to worrying again. Help anybody!

"So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me"


Till then,
Daa~


p/s: i wanna put some pitchaz in here but im still working on my pc. SorRy!

First Timer in da howse

Heyy Heyy Heyy

At last I create myself a blog. Well actually the reason I create this thing; 1.one of the ways to kill my boredom 2.for fun ...i guess the only reason is the 1st one. hurm. anything ill update later. my pc still in recovery process. so for the surfers, enjoy!


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I have nothing interesting to do today. My big bro went out. My other brothers are with their friends. Fash isnt home yet, but she'll be home this evening! Can't wait too see her. Missin her already. hehe. So I decided to give a minor makeover to my room. Its been very messy lately. Full with school books and I wont be needing them anymore cuz Im now free from school. Gotta start my project after lunch. Then I haf to list down things ill need for the minor makeover...

till then,
daaa~