*sigh!* argh!! God Help me!

i've been very busy lately. still haf math and english to finish. but im not in the mood now. hahah.

25th March
-went to KDU. had legal studies(LST) and Math. The tcher talks like an Italian. esp when he said things like the math terms; Polynomial and Quadratic. Almost all of us laugh. so rude but we cant help it. Sorry Mr Anuar... haha like hes gonna read this.
But then waited for Ayah at his office. When he went into the car, he asked "Are U free on Sunday" I replied "Yeah. I dun haf any programmes. Y ayah asked?" "U gt an interview with SC this Sunday at eleven" he answered.

Omigod! I cant believe it! The first scholarship interview! ahahah. Gosh im soo happy yet nervous. hurm~ planned not to tell fazuin abt the interview... wanna surprised her on sunday.

26th March
-went to SMK Jalan Tiga aka the suckest school ever been. hahah. Gt the best for Sc Teras subject. ahahha. funny. went there, met Azah, Fazuin, Fuzainy and others. haha. met the tchers. Syafiq Ajmal is our best student(13 a1 and 1 a2-he gt a1 for eng. lit. but a2 for EST. guess he talks like shakespeare but not like Alexander Graham Bell). and hes secret of success: study at the last minute for monthly test and drink 5 cups of coffee everyday. in my opinion, hes a bit show off in a wrong way. yeah. hes not aware of his health. but who cares i dun like him. remembered the day he cried because of Choral Speaking (I guess I made him cry) whahaha. unforgettable. and remembered the day he treated sum friends(only sum of em. the rest..not friends anymore) and I like im a 'org mintak derma' by throwing the coins to our group(tht time we sat on a tembok.tepi kelas.) my friends and sum of em my exfriends took this thing easily; no hard feelings. but not me. I dun think throwing money is a "hal ringan". is like 'penghinaan' to me. sheesh.

but still im kind upset with school. but will elaborate layter(when im in the mood)
watched Star Wars Ep. 1. but didnt finish it. gt to sleep early.

26th March
-Interview! The result? I SUX! eish. im blur. I dun think Im gonna make it. durh. dun wanna elaborate. but i guess its ok cuz that was my first interview. learn from the mistake.

went to aunt Noorma's house. had lunch and then ter-slept when all of my bros were playin Ps2. then went to Amcorp Mall and bought things for college; files papers and all.

gtg. SOlat and Dinner!

*FarahOut!*

wants...

My pocket pc's screen cracked. And I have to cut down my allowance for changing the screen. so stupid. T_T

I dun think that i cud really survive without friends in KDU. man its hard. i must have sumone who always accompany me all the time. im so childish. im not independent. im one crazy emo gurl. i hate myself. shheeessshhh.

Sumthings i learnt in KDU(apart the usual UNSW subjects)
-dun say sumthing that will make the others think on the other way round. in short, dun make things complicated.
-dun comment too much
-be independent
-be friendly or else u wont have any friends-->this is hard cuz i expect ppl to start their conversation first. silly me.
-dun think too much
-control ur anger
-try to find ways to reduce stress
-STUDY ENGLISH! Lack of vocab and confident

I feel like crying. thankfully fazuin and her group of friends cheer me up a bit. i need fash. i need azah. i need dd. but i dun wanna be alone. cuz these negative side of me is trying to conquer my mind. shit. i wan my good old days back. where do i belong?

layter then. 2 bad days. i had enough. i wanna better day tomorrow. T_T

*Farah Out*

gosh gosh gosh.

MP3 playin: 4 Non Blondes - What is up

gosh. ive to buy everybook that need to buy. so far been to 4 classes, and each class haf to buy books! erk is like school days. haha. but the different is, we have lockers here. I have 6 subjects to cram in 9 mnths! and I heard UNSW's standard is like Harvard! im soo dead.

made sum frens there. gt 3 farahs (includin me)that i knew. confused other ppl :p. but i feel the competition; its hard. btw our acct class is combined with jan intake students. the more the merrier!~ wahahahaa. already gt an assignment today. hurm. i have nothing to refer. and its a presentation. ah im soo dead. 2 assignments today, academic eng and accounting. ahahahah :p. i really haf to practice in communications. im lack of confidence. and my english is not soo good when it comes to speaking. hurm...

guess im gonna stop here. ive no moods at all. chow.

First Day. On My Way to KDU... 

Summary

What I did in 4 mnths of Holiday

1. Aquarobics and Jog- fitness thingy. active :p
2. Turned myself into a DvD addict.
3. The OC freak.
4. Fell in love with indie rock + alt rock -thx to you ana!
5. Made a doll
6. ...and still on that shawl+smocking project
7. Havent finish even a book.
8. Almost 24/7 Net Surfer
9. Less hang out with my own friends..
10. cuz I Hang Out more with my mom's friends
11. Reformat my laptop abt 3 times already
12. Answering quizzes and Surveys
13. Cleaned up the room
14. BLOGGING!

I think theres sum more. hehe.
too tired to blog today.

So Goodbye Holidays. Hello College.

*FarahOut*

Busy Busy Busy

MP3 playin : Maroon 5-Ragdoll
HaPpY BuRfDaY IbU!Lurve Ya Lots

Yeah. Its a very busy day. Before I went to aquarobics ika came and did sum printing for her IPTA thingy. Then at 9 went to IOI-aqua time!~ Becky wanna renew my aqua card then i said no need cuz college will start this thursday. So did a very hard exercise. Tired!~

My hand's hurt. I cannot write properly. So sad. but still i haf to fill the passport renewal forms(for me, man and phyr). Did sum errors. Stupid *sigh*. Then all of us went to Metro Kajang to renew the passports...waited till 4:30 pm...and suddenly the System broke down. Haf to come again tomorrow. So pissed. Called pn Hanipah and she sed my testimonial is ready. So Im gonna claim that thing tomorrow.

Tomorrow, I haf to ask for Mak Teh(I Hope!) to certify my certs. But before that I haf to get the testimonial, photostat and take em all(the other certs and all) to Makteh. And I haf to renew the passport too. And haf to go to Pejabat Post to get the wang pos, and haf to submit the scholarship forms. Ah im so busy. I even cancelled my outing. So Sad!!

Im not sure weather to ask for Mak Teh's or My own Pengetua's Signature. Im malu with Mak Teh. btw, shes ika's aunty. Ah im screwed. I only apply for JPA and Petronas scholarship. But I dun think JPA will accept me cuz i gt b3 for my history. I wanna go abroad and I wan scholarship. but everything haf to be finished before Friday. Think I can make it? Yah I hope sO! A very2 busy week.

Ibu sed I haf to find sum ways to get over my stress cuz sooner or later i'll be facing tougher situations. *sigh* Im sux at communicating and handling myself. And now I feel very lonely. :(

Adam bought a purple velvet box for my mom. Thank god i didnt buy that thing...abt to buy it. ahahha. and he said hes sorry. He cannot handle his stress too. a thing in common yah abang. Both of them cried. So sweet. Typical to haf problems with parents yah. I think almost everyone haf. So do I :p

Layter. Farah Out!

Friends...

Listening to Somewhere Only We Know : Keane.

Hurm. I realized, my close friends arent really connected with each other. Am I being too friendly? No I dun think so. But it seems like im cool with everyone. well, almost everyone. haha. and im trying to unblock 2 person from my blacklist(nt the chain letter writer. no more space for sumone like that fella)How did this happen? maybe cuz before i wus in Arab class, hang out with the Budak Arab than I change classes and met sum new ppl and started to hang out with em too. Then I become close with all of them. my close friends(the ones i considered as my close friends..): Azah, Ika, Fash, Qeela, Yam, Fazuin, Fuzainy, DD, Alia. And they belong to diff cliques in school. Fash: My childhood friend and my bestest fren.shes my age but nt my batch. Azah n Alia: we're a gang(plus dayah,deela,asma,mun etc)before then sumthin happened and Im out of the gang. But I still close with Azah and Alia but not the others. Azah is another bestie. hehe. Qeela: my prefect partner. since we're standard 3. Then we both 'lompat' and when we're in form 4, we become close. Can be considered as another bestie too. hahaha. Ika: Knew her since we're in standard 5. the first one I know when i was in std 5. My neighbour. And another bestie. Shes kinda 'ngam' with Qeela. Yam: shes close with Azah and Qeela. So am I. whahaha. Fazuin: My childhood friend and classmate in form 4 n 5. Fuzainy: My classmate when we're in form 4 n 5 too. DD: ahahaha. a long story...then we became bestie. dated him for sum months. but not anymore. haha.

So basically my close friends are not that connected and I gt 5 besties. kinda weird eyh? I feel weird. I dunno why. Stupid rite? for wondering why I haf so many close friends. ahah. But I luv all of ya!~

and I gt to start figuring out ways to learn how to communicate using english well. ahahha. im so pathetic. oh its 1am now. haf to sleep. gt a lot of things to do tmorrow and i haf to save sum energy for it. gonna be quite a big day. haha.
the fourth time cancellin the sleepover at Fash's. *sigh*

--Prayin for my mom hoping that she wud get much better tomorrow. aminn--

*Farah OuT!*

A New Skin

So heres the new skin. Thanks to DragonFae. hahah. Luv the cat and the red background. And I haf taggie now! Tag me if u wan yah. hahaha. What do u think of my new blog look?

*FarahMexx*

shitto!~

Bought the college bag on friday. tot of buying a backpack but ended up with a sling. the bag is from tough. will show the bag layter. not in the mood to snap pics. hehe. cant believe myself went to the Alamanda wearing baju kurung. ahahaha. but its okay cuz i got to see myself wearing baju kurung with the slings. ahahah but still i feel funny cuz my mother was wearing shirt and pants while I wearin baju kurung and usually, when it comes to baju kurung i'll wear em with a bigger sized tudung. so that day i look like a makcik(compare to my mom). then ibu bought the cd i suppose to buy for her for her bday. *sigh*. that night we had dinner in Secret Recipe. ate singapore laksa. yummy...

Saturday. went to KDU. paid the admission fee. got the high achiever waiver. and they gave me orientation schedule. looks interesting. then off to ikea. haha everytime i went there i feel like buying sumthing. hahah. had lunch there and off to KL and sent man and phyr. wait em in KLCC til 4, then they send me to the lessons. came 30 mins late. Unfortunately, it was raining and i swam only 10 mins. hahaha.

and today i went to alamanda with my parents and juju. and we split up; me with juju and my dad with mom. bought my mom a table runner for her bday. she likes it. haha. gave her the prezzie 2 days earlier. and bk home we found out that i missed NZ edu fair. shoots. and i cannot apply for JPA scholarship cuz i gt b3 for my history. toobad.

I have to work on my communicating skills+english. and I haf to fast for 7 days...ganti*sigh* and I had cancelled sleep over at fash's 3 times. shit shit shit.

Lost my Mood. ugh.

*FarahOut*

me and fazuin: relieved 

Yeay!

Yesterday.

I was soo busy finishing the cds for the class. And almost everyone is already in school...receiving their result.

Azah Called:

"Weh mek. aku dapat 9!! Yam dapat lapan!! kaw berape? Mane kaw?"
"Aku kat umah laie"

Haha. But then when i arrived with anne,azah and yam were at the dataran waiting for me and fazuin called. she wus like crying. She was waiting for me at 5f's section. So azah, yam, anne and I headed to 5f's. Then I took the result, hoping that I could get what I want and not to be soo hysterical if I get lower than 6as. Alhamdulillah, I got 6a1, 2a2, and 1b3!. relieved. But fazuin won. She got 7a1 1a2 1b3. But I dun care cuz I got more than I expected! Yeay!

then we went around the school, met the jrs and all of them started to ask for the result. met the tchers, thank them and lepak2 at skool until 2pm. ahahha :p but i saw epul, 2 times. the 1st time i was ignoring him and the 2nd time, i wanna talk to him but i was talking to tcher azilah that time. ah missed the "sembur plan". I asked his bestfwen Zhaf for the full story, and he sed he didnt understand. siot. then i sed cheating on both my good friends at the same time and liar thingy. He tot i was epul's gf too! bengang. he sed he wanna tell me everything in the evening. So then i chat with iskan and Nash. Nash was talking abt our friend when we're in kindergarten. funny i dun even remember her face. ahahha. funny funny.

But then went straight to the shop and show my mom the result and all. Then we realized that I got b for my testimonial from school. We're so shocked and planned to go with fazuin to ask Pn Zainap tomorrow with our moms. Then called Zhaf to asked the thing then he asked me to talk to Epul cuz he's next to him. But Im not gonna talk with him cuz he will lie. We never know. So I cancelled the whole thing.

My mom wanna bought me a bag for college. I dunno wether i wan backpack or sling. hurm. went to Tough to survey the bags, but it's closed. on a second tought, i think i wanna buy any bag in Mid Valley. cuz usually the bags are nice over there. hahaha.
then we had dinner in a japanese rest in Mariott. but not so happy cuz Adam is not there. I dunno why is he like that. he has change drastically. hurm. suppose to sleep over at fash's but she didnt replied my msg. hurm

Today

went to school, and took PMR's cert. wahhaha. and our moms went to see the new Pkhem. and pn hanipah called and asked for the testimonial form. she wants to redo it. haha.

*continue later*
Farah Out!

there she goes...

SPM result in 2 days. The CD still in progress. Having sum problems with it!~ Haf to finish tha stupid class cd thing tonite by hook or by crook! Im crazy now. and gettin craz-ier. I hate pressures. And I wan to watch Sepet tomorrow! I hope ibu will let me!~

My mom is like givin me sum *hint* abt the result. I guess she already knew. So if what she sed is true, ill be getting 7as for SPM. pretty okay for sumone who less study last year like me. But Im embarrased! ppl started to congratulate me in advance. So ashamed. But whats done is done. No turning back. Altho it'll take sumtime to recover fr this embarrased sickness...

Afta finishing this CD thing i'll uninstall Adobe Premier!~ yeay. cant wait fer that cuz I wanna install Adobe Photoshop, Adobe Image Ready, Adobe Front Page :D I wanna do some make over to my blog. I wish it'll work... hurm but I haf to do it before next thursday; my first day in KDU. Goodbye Holidays!~

Haf to do alot of drafting and thinking for my next plan in college. Im so tensed up rite now. *sigh*

im out. farrah out

dizzy dizzy

im not suppose to...ugh!~ im soo tensed up rite now. its too late to regret. i just cannot stop thinking abt it. ah miracle where are ya? i need ya. everyone is expectin sumthing from me.

went to parkson and bought 2 shirts for college. aahahha. ibu sed i'll buy sum more next week. sounds cool. but i dunno how it is like shopping afta that disaster thing happens. sheesh. why shud we haf exam?

went to the minggu kraftangan kebangsaan. met pak lah. waahahhaha. not excited at all(huhu). but i wud if tun dr m is there. heh. then went to BC for YL Parents Day. its quite fun...to haf parents day. ahax.

soo screwed. im out.blek!

...I am Forgetful. I even forgot the title. T_T

went for dental check up at pak long's clinic. before that I went to Citibank to send sum stuff from ibu. And the man who'll take my mom's stuff asked me to see him at level 26. Lucky me i saw my mom went to the reception and took visitor pass before, so I passed my test :p went to floor 26 and the stuff was sent. But i feel odd cuz im not in a proper dress code; i wore jeans. but that doesnt really matter. huhu~

got 2 teeth filled. 'ngilu' rite now. sooo uncomfortable. i cant really enjoy my food.

got the Fikrah's party cd that to be edited. Frankly, im not enjoying the thing. but haf to finish it before the result come out(maybe on the 8th) and hopefully, they'll pay for the extra cost. the printer is still not working, so i haf to hire anne to do calligraphing(is that the word?). 2 things to be finish before The Result come out: 1.The CD 2.The certs .eh wait. one more thing, mental preparation...

watched begitulah cinta and hate the ending! They leave all of us with a question mark! hope there will be the 2nd season...
and watched ANTM. Jennipher is out!~ dun really care cuz I know Eva is going to win!So whatever it is im happy...ahahhahah :p
And a new drama entitled Istana Kristal; is actually name of a firm. weird.

Still haf something to write and again. I forgot. Im Forgetful!! ahh hate it. haf to do sumthing with it!~

*FarahOut*