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2006-12-04T15:36:00.000+13:45

Hey peeps! I've moved to http://lifeofanordinaryweirdo.blogspot.com .

streamyx dah semakin elok.

2006-12-01T04:24:00.000+13:45

haa at last the internet tak meragam for the whole day. alhamdulillah :)
so now insyaAllah, in a few days time I will start edit some pictures to be put into my fotopages, and do some stuffs dat i've planned before the school ended. but now I have a project dat i just started today; the raya scarf project. huhu I'll be sewing a piece of silk kain sampai jadi tudung. Semangat jek. and this time I hope I can manage to finish it before hari raya qurban. Wish me luck ppl!!

Yoga

2006-11-27T17:15:00.000+13:45

Went yoga today and guess what??

I'm not flexible and fit anymore!!
Gosh I really need to lose some weight.

And I dun do well in my exams.

Giler loser!

Hujan itu Rahmat.

2006-11-23T20:51:00.000+13:45

its so frustrating when u blogged and suddenly the long post that u did disappear just like dat becuz of a laptop's technical problems. I can't use my wireless(Streamyx buat hal lagi) so I was using my dad's one of the tablet pcs (the test drive version) just to connect to 3G (since my laptop's pc card rosak *pfft*) and dat tablet pc has i dunno what problem that will make it restart by itself. so dats how the post disappeared.

But after I called Streamyx, the LAN dah elok but not the wireless. sheesh. I think the modem buat hal lagi. Geram giler, since we already changed the modem for like 10 times already and they always rosak!! geez.

prolly dis time the modem kene sambar kilat. its now the musim tengkujuh and this year, even the west coast pon kena.

i dun really favour raining season. Infact I tot i can avoid the cold and heavy rain in Wellington, but i was wrong; the rain is worse in Malaysia!! so I'll spend almost every evening lazing around the tv lounge doing nothing but layaning the bros and their friends. oh and in dis past few days i'm becoming like one of them. main main main all day long. Parents have been away since Monday, and they're coming back in a few hours time. And lil cuzzens (aged 9 and 12) came for a sleepover and since my parents are not here, I'm in charge of taking care of them. So for this past few days I've become their tukang masak and playmate. haha. Well I enjoy jaga-ing them, altho its actually very tiring. Now they're all bored while waiting for abang to bring them for a swim at Putrajaya. While me trying to relax all by myself... posting crap. Malas nak layan sekejap cuz I just need sometime for myself. After 2 weeks breathing the Bangi's not-so-fresh air, baru smalam I gt bad news... and I know I'll be dead in a few hours time. Ibu will be super mad at myself so I'm gonna spend sometime alone before my mom gets back.

Its all because of my lazy-ness. hmmm

Ah well, malas nak pk pasal tu. for now lets talk about something else.

Hm dis morning I saw the launching of the new Nokia phones; the cool L'amour Collection phones!! so I guess dah keluar la kat Malaysia kan? and I scratched Samsung D900 from my list and added up Nokia 5300 Xpressmusic and Nokia 7290 (the flip phone from the L'amour range). Tengokla macam mana.

Ugh suddenly the mood to blog is gone. Penat je tulis panjang2 tadi.

I'm still looking for something as a cover up so dat ibu will not be so mad at me. but tak jumpe ape2 pon.

dah la tu gotta chill for a sec.

brb.

...

2006-11-18T21:05:00.000+13:45

MP3 Playin': Disenchanted - MCR

There are MANY things that I wanna buy. Some are only my wants but there are things that I really need to have. Wish dat I'm rich so I can just buy everything that I wanna buy. IF ONLY im rich... *sigh*

What I wanna buy:

A pair of loafer. (A MUST HAVE. so dat I can bring bk to Welly and walk without hurting my feet. I had enuff sufferring the blisters...)
A pair of heels. (tuhla hari tu x muat bag.. kene cari yang baru)
A pair of jeans/corduroy. (bought a pair of jeans dat day.. but I need another one.)
Hard Disk (eyed on one..so tinggal nk beli je. hihi)
A new phone (since I sold one, so I tot of buying a new phone.)
A game console. (aiming for Nintendo DS-gile ambitious. dah ar mahal gile...)
Make ups. (thinking of starting to make a collection)
New clothes for myself..

Okay I tot of changing my wardrobe.. but not everything. I mean I need some new different ones. Need to change my style, to something that is not too simple and casual. I realized my outfits are too plain. So I think this is a good time to change, since in Malaysia we have more choices. But the problem is now the budget.

A lot of good things happened thruout this whole week. Which made me worry... and wonder. Is this a sign that I'll get bad marks for the finals? Its like karma u know. Alhamdulillah I gt INFO 101 and 102 results already and they turned out to be like what I expected. I had a dream before(a few months back i think) and in that dream, I know I only scored the INFO subs. I've been warned, and I've tried to avoid it from happening but I guess I've failed.

gosh I'm so not ready for this...

a good day. not a good night tho.

2006-11-17T04:45:00.000+13:45

im sick. and worrying about the results make it worse.

im so gonna die.

sobs.

Random?

2006-11-16T05:31:00.000+13:45

Okay I dunno why but I just feel like blogging (as I've made a few posts in one day already...), altho I dun have anything to talk about. So I'm just gonna babble until I get bored.

just now we(the four brothers) had a conversation about the word 'babi'. Actually I find it kinda amusing cuz other than its one of the firsts malay word, it can fit nicely in many english songs. well we havent tried any of the bm songs yet. but yeah something like dis:

"babi for luck
breathe in so deep
this air is blessed..."
edited from DC's Hands Down

or maybe dis one..

"when I was a babi
My babi took me into the city
to see a marching band..."
edited from MCR's Welcome to the Black Parade

I apologize for those weird and kinda offensive sentences when the word babi was put into the lines..

but i just find it funny, especially when we sang em. its too weirdly funny.

oh i'd love to learn vector art. anybody care to lend me a hand and be my teacher? and I feel like snapping some new photos, altho the weather arent too pleasing for me to go out. hmm papepon battery pon x charge lagi. haha. oh im so in the mood for art, I even dreamt of editin tons of pic last nite but dats the thing, the brain cells are dying (oh yes ive gt flu *sobs*) one by one so the ideas dat i have faded.

argh i hate flu. it made me feel so tired and sleepy all day and it made my ears feel so uneasy. and i hate oily face, as ive been using dat oil control film like 10 sheets per day just to make my face oil-free. i hate to have mood swings.

...and i HATE worrying. God I always think blogging will make me forget, but I guess it didnt help. it made me think about it more. it made me day dream about things dat i always wanted and ended up feeling super sucky cuz I know its impossible to make the dreams happen.

WHY DREAMS ARE HARD TO ACHIEVE?

duh of course because life is not dat easy.

Haha I've always tot I'm ready to face the consequences. guess i'm not. god help me. I wanna cm bk home next year. I dun think I wanna stay for the summer. unless I can get to do my internship straight in Welly. but I dun think so... so I guess i'm gonna have to come bk here end of next year to do it here.

Gosh I really need to do proper planning. But I need Bs from ACCY 111 and ECON 140 so dat i can carry on with my plans.

im useless, dun u think? nak pikir positive pon susah sebenarnye as u know theres a very tiny probability for me to succeed now. unless i have the miracle, then that means i've been given a chance, to make sure I can make some people proud.

yeah dis is what I call Karma. What goes up must come down.

I'm at the top a few times, and there are a few other times dat I'm at the bottom.

and when i'm there, all i can say is..

"ouch"

...then i'll start a new plan to go up again. huhu

okay dah ngantuk. I better sleep.

since the plan dh cancel, i hope i have a better things happened to me tomoro.. like.. good grades?

oh and before i go to bed, who wants to watch the movie Cinta with me nnt? oh and whos up for Happy Feet?

the two movies dat i'm looking foward to in the mean time. Watched The Prestige and it was superb. LOVE IT!

aaa i lof movies.

dah la tu. I'm signing off.

Malas nak pk title.

2006-11-16T04:41:00.000+13:45

One reason why I hate myself for not taking up the driving license; I can't move far.

I really wanna go out and see some people in KL but the problem is now I cant cuz I dun have a transport. Adam has classes and if I wanna ask my dad to send me I have to plan early and get out of the house as early as 730 am! kedai pon x bukak lagi. heh. Its not that I dun wanna take the train but I'm sure my parents will not allow me to go all by myself.

So I'm thinking of taking up lessons, but thats the thing, I dun like to drive. Even if I can drive, I dun even have a car so why bother to take license?

basically, duduk kat Bangi x best. mwahhahaha.

I've been here for almost a week and I havent seen KL yet. Okay I lied.. I had lunch in Bangsar and I lalu KL on da way from Kedah to Bangi.but thats it. I wanna go around KL, maybe masuk KLCC and Mid Valley, go around Low Yatt and watch a movie at OU.

Nasib baik I have a few TV series to keep me occupied, other than activities with Juju and the exercise gang and also layaning my bros n their friends.

I know not many of my friends visit this page but if theres anybody who do, just wanna let u know tht I have a new number: +6012 2711701. Hit me if you wanna have a cuppa, but I cannot janji whether the plan will jadi or not due to the transportation problems. heh. Will try to make it happen i promise.

I dun think tomoro's plan is gonna work, as I dun have any form of transport to go out and I havent talk to my dad abt this since hes been so busy which I think it'll be too late to ask for his permission tomoro. Sorry lah Eliza.

Hope the sunday family outing will jadi. I really need to see the shops in KL. haha.

Samsung D900 VS Nokia 7373

2006-11-15T23:39:00.000+13:45

Which one do u prefer?
This one (SAMSUNG SGH D900)

Or dis one (NOKIA 7373)?

Back!

2006-11-15T17:42:00.000+13:45

Its been almost a week already.

And what I do everyday: I eat every food dat I missed, I hang around with my family and friends, I watched every series dat I miss while I'm at Wellington, I played the Sims, I kacau-ed Nanook everytime he passes me...

Oh joy.

oh and one more thing; I've been worrying.

I know the bad news will hit me. Damn!

Anyways I'm trying my best to enjoy every bit of my stay here. Dis is what I've been wanting during the post-exam period. I've been counting the days back then.. and now I'm here. So I should be jumping around as if my life is perfect. Ape2 pon dat 'bad news' will come eventually.

Again and Again.. I NEED MIRACLE!!

Goodbye.

2006-11-09T00:40:00.000+13:45

Yeah in few hours time I'll be leaving NZ for summer holidays.

Bye everyone!

ugh nak buat one post tapi kena tido dah. haha.

Positive Thinking.

2006-11-05T04:33:00.000+13:45

MP3 Playin': Starlight - Muse

this is my current fave song. mwahahaha. oh and another one; the kill by 30 seconds to mars. Jared Leto(the vocalist) is just so hot.

I'm still emotionally unstable. but i think i shudnt fret about my life, in fact I shud be enjoying every moment of life. altho its sucky. yeah its easy to say but its not easy to do it. ape2 pon i'll try my best to control myself. Dont' be too emotional. and don't think too much.

afterall... the post-exam period is always sucky. kan kan kan?

fuh. whats this? a new tactic to make myself feel much better? haha.

hmm... bosan nyer. nnt la sambung dh ngantuk.

nites people!

I have 10GB per month now

2006-11-05T00:36:00.000+13:45

So I downloaded around 9 albums in this 2-3 days. Giler. But yeah love all the albums!!

Nak bazirkan GB before I balik Malaysia. huhu. and yeah they keep me occupied gak. syok layaning the songs.

Peeps please check out MCR's The Black Parade, The Killers' Sam's Town, Justin Timberlake's Futuresex/Lovesounds, Snow Patrol's Open Your Eyes, Muse's Black Holes and Revelations.

MCR, The Killers and JT's are the best!

also I dled Xtina's Back to Basics, Pink's I'm not Dead, James Morrison's Undiscovered and Elton John's. haha.

layan~

Dead!

2006-11-04T04:30:00.000+13:45

my room is super duper messy. I'm suppose to start packing up stuffs into the boxes. Well I've already started, but baru sikit lah... cuz suddenly I just feel so dizzy and tired.

I'm weak. and getting weaker now. I dunno whats wrong with me now. The condition of the room is not helping at all. I feel like i'm in the garbage room instead of a place to relax. I wish I have the energy. But for now.. I can't even think. I can't even find ways to get organized.

Well I can say, the room resembles how I'm feeling right now. berserabut. maybe I have too much worries that distract me from trying to have a peaceful life. Worries that have led me to this. Worries that made me feel i'm like the loser of the world. Worries that made me feel like I have no future.

I shud be very happy, cuz I have the best friends who always support me. Friends that always know how to cheer me up. They who understand me the best. I thank God for that. But they have tried their best just to make me smile. in fact, they're the reason why I keep on smiling and hanging on. I love them.

when im outside, i feel so free. so happy. i can enjoy the surroundings, enjoy the company of my beloved friends... basically i can actually forget about the stuffs that have been messing around in my head. But thats when I'm not in this garbage centre. As I step my foot into this place, all happy, calm and relaxed feelings flew away. I started to feel very depressed and mad at myself. I can't help it but to start worrying and thinking.. and that will made me feel so down and made me feel like im the biggest loser in the world.

Can somebody pull me into the world of fantasy? where everything in the end will be happily ever after?

I just need to keep myself occupied with activities. But I can't do it alone.

i'm a loser. sheesh.

10 days to go.

2006-10-31T16:30:00.000+13:45

Today is the laundry-day. I have like 5 loadings (whites, blacks, colors, duvet n pillow covers, jeans) for machine wash and one loading for hand wash.

The laundry room is soo full! I can only do one loading at once. and I dunno how to dry the hand-wash stuffs. I don't have enuff hangers. ah stress.

why laa i have soo many shirts that needed to be hand-washed.

Anyways...

I have tons of stuffs to finish this week so that I do not have to rush before I'm going back to Malaysia.

Things dat I need to do for this week:

Cleaning and Packing. put most of my stuffs in boxes and seal em nicely. empty the room.
Laundry.
Find information about loan.
Enrol
Search for some stuffs. souveniers and barang orang pesan.

So I better look for boxes around town tonite or maybe tomoro nite. And I have to make a list of souveniers and stuffs to buy for peeps in Malaysia. Done 80% of the enrolment. but the problem is now, I really have a strong feeling dat something bad is going to happen. I'm just hoping to pass, I don't even think of getting As. Tah la things are not doing okay now actually. everything is so messed up; myself, the room. i'm friggin tired and worried at the same time. I don't have enuff sleep for the past few days well in fact I can't sleep well. Life is turning into a disaster now. I'm trying so hard to make me feel better by telling myself that everything is going to be alright... but it didnt work out. I went out with some friends and had fun talking and laughing, and they made me forget about stuffs that keep on messing in my head. But that is only for awhile. Still trying my best to keep myself occupied. u can't help it but to start doing some thinking when u started to read the course catalog, or flipping thru the photo albums of ur family. Well at least things back in Malaysia is getting better. Cuz I heard atok is stable, and everyone was okay. Alhamdulillah.

Now all I'm hoping is to pass in ECON 140 and ACCY 111.

If only I free a genie and he'll grant a few wishes. Then I can have a better life.

But I have to bear in mind that, Life is not easy.

Ah well, what goes up must come down. So that I'll learn and from there I can go higher.

I wonder. How much have I learn from the past?

Down.

2006-10-29T01:46:00.000+13:45

Finally the torturous exam week is over. Alhamdulillah.

But things are not getting any better. Well thank God Ayah was not hospitalized anymore, but yeah i've got another worse news from Malaysia. My mom just told me that my atok doesn't have the chance to recover, and in anytime, she'll be gone. And I can't stop thinking about my results. Its not gonna be good, I can tell *instict* but for that part we'll just have to wait. Just hoping that it'll turn out to be okay. Amin..

Ya Allah, Please..please don't let her go. Not just yet. I wanna see her. I wanna hug her. I wanna kiss her. I miss her like so damn much. I know we always had huge wars almost everytime I see her during my visits to her place. But I really really love her. I wanna tell her how much I love her.

I have two friggin weeks before I fly back to Malaysia. And I'm trying my best to keep myself occupied... so that I will not think about the worries too much sampai ketahap bukan2... argh I hate being lonely.

God, I wanna go home.

The Raya Post

2006-10-25T23:40:00.000+13:45

Slept for 2 hours. Woke up and felt so shitty, but then everything got better after socializing with the wellingtonians at MSD Hari Raya Celebration. Well, it helps me to forget about what have happened this morning, altho its just for awhile. huhu.

I can't do anything about it pon cuz dah lepas. For now, I'm gonna concentrate with my INFO 101; the last paper of the trimester. Alhamdulillah.

So lets talk about Raya!

1st raya was the day i ate like i havent been eating for years. Palie made us Kuah Kacang, Lodeh and Nasi Himpit! yummy. The comforting food I had after a bad morning. Continued by Flat 39 Everton Hall's open house. Hosted by the flat 39 peeps, Kantoi di 409 peeps and some Edu lads.
So thanks to you guys for inviting us, and for the food (love the pegedil especially) of course. Sedap!! hee. Then before going back to Weir, we went down to flat 41 Everton Hall (Kak Umi's house) .. beraya sat and straight to weir after that.

And My first Hari Raya outfit:
theme - Nature Lover
color - Greenish Brown. Earth colors? leh nak kata la.

The baju was not chosen by me. It was my mom's choice. And this year, I dressed up very differently. Not to say last year's baju was not nice, i lof all of em but not as daring as this one! Dah lama tak pakai silk..cuz I lof to wear cotton baju kurung. Plus, this baju is quite big for me (not the length but the width) so i looked like a pregnant dwarf. haha. I know "my-wellington's-best-crowd" dah bosan dgr me complaining a lot about the baju, but I still love the baju, seriously the corak was nice (i lof cheetah!). Besides, trying a new thing is good ;)?

'Cheetah' is what they called me for the day. raarrrrr~! garang tak? hihi.

note: this is one of the hottest pic of the day. a pic of nana and i. the lesbian partner. :p

Ibu sent me 2 pairs of baju kurung for hari raya. So today I wore the other one.

Second Hari Raya outfit:
theme - yummy banana
color - its banana, so mestilah yellow!

A simple but lovely choice by Ibu. Honestly I've never tot I'd get this color as my baju raya, as yellow wasnt too attractive for me, and I know some of you even realized how I lof to wear red and black (am I rite Haz, Nana, Nonie and Palie??). If I have a choice, yellow will not be the color. Haha yang mana tak nak laa dapat ye. takpe, still suke :)

note: from left: haz, yours truly, kak aishah and nonie. love this pic!

Actually the reason why I called "yummy banana" is because qisu, ah hui, haz and nonie were calling me banana tadi. So I added up the word yummy infront.

Hurm I think starting next year, I'd leave to my mother to choose for me my own baju raya. Surprise me Ibu! haha.

Well life is full with surprises. if Life is too predictable, it will be too dull and less fun-ner kan? You never know how is the exam questions will be like (until u sit for it), you never know how ur marks gonna be(until u've gt the results), you never know when u're going to die, you never know who's your future husband/wife, you never know what will happen to you in an hour time, or tomorrow, next month, next year, the future.. so macam mana pon u can never expect whats gonna happen next. You can only plan but yeah only Him will determine how's it going to be. He knows whats best for you. But its still possible for you to get whatever you want but with syarat.. u have to work HARD for it. So I've told myself, if I didnt score means I didnt work as hard as I should be. Bad news are hard to accept, but no matter what you still have to accept it with open arms, and try to improve ur self in the future.

I love surprises in a way. Like for an example, I'm interested to know whos gonna surprise me with the word "I like you" or "I love you". I'm soo looking foward if I'm gonna get a prezzie from my friends; the unexpected gift from any of ur friends that u'll love so much. I love good news or good things happen that u didnt see em coming. Like, you won a contest with a great prize for instance. or an A+ on your result transcript. The feeling mmg superb.

as for now, all I have to do is to pray and hope for the best. If things didnt go so well, then I'll accept as they are. But yeah who wants bad news? Especially now, well I just gt another bad news from home;ayah is sick- he's suspected dengue. Today he's gonna go for another checkup and if things are still not good, hes gonna be warded.

For sure I'm like soo friggin worried! Bad news keep on coming in after one another. I just can't wait to go back home. The rest sounded okay, yeah they're still calm (well im the one who's always panic pon. not them) but I can't see them so being the gelabah type of person.. only God knows how worried I am now. I feel bad cuz they can't really enjoy their raya while me, i was having fun. Haih.

To the ones at home, I really2 wanna be there with all of you and I hope my prayers will be granted. I know all of you are strong and yeah, keep it up! stay calm. We'll get thru this guys. We will. Aminn.

And special shout out to Palie: I'm so terharu when you said you will not let our raya ruined(since we all have exams) by making us raya food. I really appreciate everything u've done for all of us. and definitely, i lof ur company. U're the best!

I tot I'm gonna have a not-so-good raya but instead I had a not-so-bad one. So to everyone who celebrated raya with me, I thank you.

Okay enuff for now. Off to bed with the hope that I'll feel so much better when I woke up.

cuz I wanna call my parents, but I'm not ready. isk.

Sakit. Kepala. Hati. Mental.

2006-10-25T15:23:00.000+13:45

people, its the time of the year. The downfall is here.

I hate sitting exams early in the morning especially when u actually sucked at it. U tot u're doing okay, and when u stepped out of the hall u just realized theres so many things that u did... is not right.

Still not enuff effort. Altho u think u did better than last trimester (the fact that rajin lebih than last time). Haih.

There's no use of regretting, crying over things that already passed. But thats what I'll do everytime I got back from the exam hall.

Its very disspointing, devastating and depressing.

ah well I banged the exams. I'm so gonna die soon.

I hope my future will not end here.

Dah mule dah pikir bukan2. isk.

Best Wishes.

2006-10-23T07:20:00.000+13:45

I was being a bit emotional yesterday cuz I don't feel like raya-ing.

This year raya takkan jadi semeriah mana. Bukan ape, its only because I have exams during 1st raya (tak kesah la raya on the 24th or 25th..) and that made me feel like I've lost the Semangat Raya. Yeah and my fam is not here with me. Lagi la sedey kan?

But now I'm looking at the bright side: I can't complain about not celebrating raya with my fam cuz I choose to be here. Besides, I still have my "Wellingtonian Family" to celebrate raya with me kan? And yeah if the mood is ruined I'm sure I can't really concentrate while doing my exams nanti. Which prolly will make me feel like trash for the whole day, and tak boleh celebrate raya dengan senangnye. So I better revise like hell now so that my exams won't be as disasterous as I pictured it to be.

So To everyone,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri,
Maaf Zahir dan Batin!

May you have a great Hari Raya, with yummy food, cool & colorful baju rayas and the most importantly, lots of love, and happiness.

I'm so sorry if I have made any mistakes, if I have offended u all with my words, or if I had done anything that made u all feel so bengang with me. And Halalkan makan minum saya.

0-0 yeh? hehe.

Again and again, to the vic peeps (especially those who have exams on raya day), ALL THE BEST! FIGHT OH! (oh!)

Alrite thts all for now. Back to my ECON140.
Daa~!

Drew Carey's Green Screen Show

2006-10-23T06:55:00.000+13:45

Sue recommended me to watch some clips from Drew Carey's Green Screen Show. Its like Whose Line Is It Anyway? but a more improvised version; they put animation in the background.

here's one of my fave clips:

Jeff Davis is the best! He reminds me of Jared Leto. Hotness!
Watch em all at YouTube!

They're all hilarious. Serious u guys gotta watch em!! hehehe.

I miss Actorlympics.

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2006-10-23T06:25:00.000+13:45

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In the zone.

2006-10-20T22:20:00.000+13:45

First of all, I'd like to wish Qi Su happy birthday!! Oh the welly peeps are celebratin but not me. I've got a lot of catching up with my ECONS and ACCY. Sedey. But yeah sebelom tuu.. BLOGGING LAA!

I'm done with INFO 102 exams. It went okay, well I guess 10 wrongs shud still be fine, but cannot be more than that; I need As to get the loan. shoots I'm scared. Will have another 3 papers and they will be on the 24th, 25th and 27th of October.

24th - ECON140
25th - ACCY111
27th - INFO101

I can hear someone screaming "fuiyoo thts craazy! 2 days straight?? accy n econs lak tu"

Ah well its actually some lil retard in my own head. hmph.

So I have like 2 days each to prepare for each subjects.

Thank God that I have to go thru this in like.. a week? fuh!

Ah well, exam syndrome masih berterusan. The room is still 95% messy, and I am like super duper giler. Drink too much Redbull already. Seriously if you guys look at me (with eyebags and weird behaviour--weirder than usual) u'll think I'm drunk. I'm still sober though, Its just that theres one screw longgar due to too much redbull (acid- hakis the screw-become longgar) consumed. So I looked like a kaki botol or sth. Kaki Botol-Redbull? Boleh nak kata. Well Nana is kinda addicted to Lift, but shes not a heavy Lift-drinker (not yet kot?), and we're so gonna make Haz like that V drink. So we all have one fave energy drink.

hmm. Usually, if I wanna forget about the hard part of the examinations, I'll think of something else... that is more fun and relaxing. And this time, I do have something to think about. Honestly the brain is working like 24/7 non stop.. since I have more things to worry. but no, Not those happy things. Some stuffs that are not good.

My Atok is not feeling very well. She gt dehydrated. and kekurangan darah. Last few weeks I heard the news about Kak Nah's condition; she just had an operation (she gt brain tumor) and now she can't see, walk and can only whisper if she wants to say anything. After Kak Nah's news, atok gt hospitalized.

From early this year lagi.. I've been getting shocking news about my grandparents back in Malaysia. Semua masuk hospital.. after one another. Started with Tok Wan, then Atok.. then both gt better.. kak nah pulak. And now Atok was sent back to the hospital.

Alhamdullillah my dad's side we're still okay.

Okay before I flew here, they (atok and tokwan) are not too pleased with my decision. They think its better if I just stay in Malaysia cuz u know, things might just happen kan? Well, cuz I have a dream to chase, plus ibu and ayah want me to be here so I flew. And now things started to happen. It was raining so heavily on the day I left Malaysia. Is there somekind of significance that God is trying to show? its like even the weather was not letting me go.

Well, since its wrong to think that way... I'm just going to take "that significance" as a coincidence. Kalau benda nak jadi makanya jadilah.

But I'm glad that I'm actually going back in few weeks time, so that I can meet atok, tokwan and kak nah. and more fave peeps of mine.

Hope things will get better soon. Amin.

Just finished writing a few cards to some friends. aa now I'm starting to miss em all! Well, I can still see some of em in few weeks time but not all of em. Like Nuha, she's in Germany. Syaril is in Ireland. Fash is in Aussie(but I can still see her end of this year.. around december I guess since I'll be around Malaysia for the whole 3 months! wheee.)

Well I MISS NUHA tho. I just feel like going to germany just to see her. haishoo.

hmm A LOT of things playing in mind when you're so far away from everybody. But thanks again to God I was sent here. To Windy Wellington; the weird-est place I've been to (as said by Me. Myself and I. In other words..my opinion). I tot bangi is weird enuff.. but noo welly is weird-er. Dahla hilly, windy die semacam..I find the CBD is too small(compare ngan oth places in NZ where u have to drive cuz its really really far. but here? walking distance je). I rasa Auckland is the better candidate to be a Capital City. Prime Minsiter die perempuan. Weird architecture (beehive for eg..is weird to me! haha), weird sbb tak ada written constitution (correct me if im wrong),.. weird people too I'd say. I dunno much about the local peeps.. so actually I tujukan the Malaysians here. okay u guys tak weird, cuz if u define "weird" that wud be someone like me. But I dunno! I just find everything about Welly is weird. but fun. Somehow I love it this way. I like you guys the way u are. I'm not sure whether I'm making a very bold statement here. Or prolly sbb this is the first time I live away from the usual peeps ive been with, but u know, I went to college and I met macam2 orang gak. But you guys are so much different. Prolly I'll meet more oth kinds of people later in the future. kan?

Tak tau kenapa, I still think you guys memang lain dari yang lain. honestly some perceptions towards people changed after I met you guys. Don't ask me what cuz I'm not gonna explain. I'm an observer too u know, so yeah I do make analysis about other people. Maybe IF I wanna talk about this again (I mean the perceptions and stuff) I'd open another post. A blabbermouth like me can just make someone feel so furious and feel like ~~putting a deadly spell on me~~ cili2 mulut ni. I have to carefully think of what I'm gonna say so no one will get hurt.

Don't get me wrong. Its not that I don't like you all or something. The difference makes me love this place and u guys more, like omg im so glad I was sent here. I can't stop thanking Him for sending me here.

But yeah, people come and go. Few days ago, Kak Sita went back to Singapore. I just knew her, and I wanna know about her more. So I tot after the bzness ends, I'll have time to catch up with her. But I was late. And I heard Kak Nysh is going away too but not for long. Am I right Kak Nysh? Im sooo gonna miss her. isk3. All the Best Kak Nysh! Hope to see u again!

Later after this, more seniors will leave us to chase their dreams. And more new people will enter and become a part of our life.

So peeps, whatever happens later after this, I hope we're still friends and keep in touch!

Yeh?

How time flies...

hmph I better stop. its time to read more interesting stuffs; ECON and ACCY yey! and I think I'm gonna start cleaning up my room. dah tak tahan!! geramss!

Mulakan hari anda dengan Blogging

2006-10-17T06:56:00.000+13:45

...and I forgot what I wanted to talk about. heh.

takpelah citer mende lain. haha.

Yesterday after sitting for hours in the library, Palie and I went down to get him the course catalog for next year. So we went to Faculty of Science (as told by Kung, we can get the course catalog in any faculty in the uni) but that thing wasnt on the counter. But I found something else instead; School of Architecture and Design 2007 Prospectus.

I brought back home a copy. haha. And Palie still gt his course catalog as we went to Faculty of Commerce and I took one for him. Rupenye kene mintak *pfft*.

For those who has been reading my posts from the start, I'm sure u all dah bosan with this topic but yeah I nak citer lagi haha. Its like a sambungan from the last one.

You know, how I'm so interested with anything to do with arts and designs (or shall I say "dejain"? hahaha poor my lecturer pelat. "taman" kacak bergaya. Nonie u know what I mean right? Nantila I buat one post about him if I rajin. haha), and I'd say Wellington has got a very weird but cool sculptures and arts all around the city which mesmerize me. And I heard the school of architecture and design here is quite a good and reputable. If I have the chance, I'd like to try... seeing how many of my family members are actually working and pursuing degrees related to this line (well I have a creative family; parents, sibs, cuzzens, uncles, aunties.. sume terrer but me) so I think I might have that talented hands for arts too. Well for now I'm still polishing myself with photography skills (i'm getting better and trying to improve more tau XD) and hoping that I will try new things like thread paintings and digital media designing when I have time. Seriously if I stand a chance I would just enrol into courses like those in uni, but for now I think its better for me to concentrate on what I'm pursuing right now. If I'm talented, I'm sure I know how to use those talents in order to succeed in another line. As for me who is now planning to go into corporate line... the creative thinking is really important in order to go further than anyone else.

"Think out of the box" as they always say.

But thats the thing, how far can I go? How creative and innovative am I?

I think my thinking skills is still poor, but getting better. If I wanna compare myself with other 18-year-old friends, I think they're all like adults already. And I? Masih ditahap kuat merapu.

But yeah I'm still young and I have the whole world to explore. Its a long long way to go!

Honestly that prospectus made me feel like taking up designs courses. Campur ngan mood swings lagi.. tibe2 rasa nak Bertukar arah sekejap.

BUT! at the same time it made me think I'm better at the line I'm in now.

Plus,Sue posted some inspiring posts in her blog which make me so sure of continuing with my dream. Betul tu Sue! we have to start learning to read Biz mags. And in my case, newspapers too. oh n i shud start playing chess. Make it as a hobby? hahaha.

And the self-discovery plan continues.

I wanna see more of the creative heart in me (well I've discovered some in this past few months. *an achievement!*). And I'd love to sharpen up my thinking skills... so that I'm sure I can go far. And and.. I need to gain more confidence level.

Many things to do and I hope I manage to finish my self-discovery by the end of this year so I can be sure of what to do. Will put up my results when I have the analysis and conclusion (hah semangat).tapi susahnye rasa. Wish I can just have someone to tell me what I should do next and after that until I finish with my life. But x best la camtu kan! Its me who will determine my own path. and Only Him can change it.

The aim is to be a Professional Accountant and try to be in the corporate line.
The prize is the feeling of satisfaction, and being successful.

oh but theres something MORE that I need to think about; how can I combine and attune my aims with the purpose of life. How I can contribute to the world. hmm Banyak lagi.

ah well. save those for later after the bzness habis. huhu now the mood is here, I may start my revision for the day!

It felt good after you made a post to boost ur confidence level so that u feel that everything is possible! whee.

Later!

p/s: ahh I'm now trying to make a new sculpture in my room using a pile of fresh laundry. Now my room is a mess. Total mess. ah geram! Exam syndrome. sheesh.

Saya teruk.

2006-10-16T17:18:00.000+13:45

Ah its raining outside. and I'm darn tired after the half day spent at the library, reading the INFO 102 text book as if its the most interesting book ever read in my entire life. The brain was struggling like mad, trying to inject as much information as it can be processed.

For now, I can't seem to enjoy my life that much. And I think for the 3rd time in my blog i wanna say this : I can't wait for the 27th of October. eheh.

The cycle goes on and on. Starting fresh from the first day of the new trimester till the last. It will start with trying to adapt to the new subjects and knowing the people all around you. Towards the mid-trimester u'll start to get piles of assignments that need to be done before the trimester ends and at the same time you're having the best times; enjoying with friends all around you, jumps around in happiness and do stuffs that you feel like doing without worrying that the exams are actually getting nearer and nearer. When u're having fun, the assignments of course will be put aside as they are not as fun as the crowd you live with. and yeah then when the trimester is nearly finished, u'll have major submissions that make u stressed out (thinking that you have exams soon and you havent prepared anything yet), gelabah to the max til u cant even control it (wait, I can never control gelabah-ness) which makes u drink a few bottles of redbull in a day so that you can stay up all night long just to finish em on time. Then you'll have lesser revision time and that will result to not-too-satisfying exam results and regret for doing everything last-minute and wish that u're given more time.

After a few days of red tears, You'll feel much better and say to urself "its okay theres always next time"

and still, the cycle keeps on repeating.

ah thats how stupid I am. Its so hard for me to change my behaviour.

Teruk.

*sigh* I better get back to my book and past year papers.

All the best Vic Peeps. And wish me luck :)

p/s: This cycle is what I've been going thru since I was small, and it may not be the same as you guys'. Tak ditujukan kepada sesiapa. Harap maklum.

We have a few months before the year ends.

2006-10-13T07:49:00.000+13:45

*taking a break from doing the last assignment for the year*

I tot I can finish dis on time, but due to the lack of skills in VBProgramming, I'm stuck on the last 2 parts since Wednesday *sigh*

Susah woo buat menda ni. Thank God that I will not have to mengadap dis thing next year, or next next year... haha. Alhamdulillah.

Yesterday was a very nice day. Unlike the last few days, it was sunny and breezy. Ah whenever I saw sunlight, I just feel like going up to the Botanical Garden and enjoy the colorful surrounding, and snap some pictures. Too bad I don't have time for that. Ah I can't wait for the 27th so that I can go anywhere I want without worrying that I have submissions or papers to sit. All that I have to do is to plan out every fun things that I wanna do and make sure everything goes well. Maybe I can start updating my fotopages, and add up more pictures into the collection... oh and I can go to the cinemas! Jalan2 around lambton, or willis or wherever around the city, or take a busride to Karori Wildlife Sanctuary, or maybe ajak a few ppl to drive out of town? ah best nyer~!

Apart from those 'fun activities' on the list, I still have something else to do, like packing up my stuffs, search for some barang yang dikirim.. basically I have to do some preparation to go back to Malaysia.

Oh yah and I cant wait for the 5th, and the 7th of November cuz there are TWO HUGE EVENTS; Guy Fawkes Night and Tun Dr M's Visit To Wellington. oh yeah Tun is coming to town! And Guy Fawkes Night?

Okay based on Wikipedia.org
Guy Fawkes Night, also known as Bonfire Night, Fireworks Night and Plot Night, is an annual celebration (but not a public holiday) on the evening of the 5th of November primarily in the United Kingdom, but also in New Zealand, South Africa, the province of Newfoundland and Labrador (Canada), and formerly in Australia, and to some extent by their nationals abroad. It celebrates the failure of the Gunpowder Plot, in which a group of Catholic conspirators attempted to blow up the Houses of Parliament in London on the evening of 5 November 1605, when the Protestant King James I (James VI of Scotland) was within its walls.

*refer the above para* so its also called Fireworks Night ..and thats the only reason why I'm soo looking foward to this event. At first I dun even know who the hell is this Guy Fawkes, who is also listed as top 100 Great Britons of 2002 (#30), cuz I tot this event was only a typical event where everybody gets to play with bunga api and mercuns and watch Huge Colorful Fireworks towards the end of the day/celebration and has got nothing to do with any significant history. And since I just found out about the real name of the celebration, I googled the name and wallah~! I found the information on Wikipedia. Haha. The story, I mean his plans (to bomb The House of Parliament) sounded very familiar when I was reading the article, as if I watched a movie about this before. And I knew I was right when I just found out something when I came across one of the verse of the traditional rhymes they use for the celebration.

To those who watched V for Vendetta, I'm sure u guys will find this line familiar:

Remember remember the 5th of November...

Oh wow. V's character was inspired by him. So the whole story is quite similar to the plan, its just that Guy Fawkes' plan failed and V made it. hahaha.

Interesting.

Well as for me, I dun find this story important or has gt something to do with my life or whatsoeva, the only important thing is theres gonna be fireworks lighting up the night sky and I hope I will not miss it! I lof I lof I lof FIREWORKS! And I'm gonna try my best to get nice shots from that night. Should be fun. wheee.

I always lof post-exam period. Cuz that will be the time to have less pimples on the face, less migraine, definitely less stress... and more fun. fun. fun. fun. heh.

I can't wait! Hope things will turn out to be as planned.

Amin.

Okay its 3 mins to eight. better get back to my work. and tahan ngantuks. haha.

Warning: Pathetic-ness overload.

2006-10-12T07:14:00.000+13:45

The Loudest Noise Comes From The Electric FarahMexx.

Tried so many times to get a 'better' slogan since the ones before this one don't reflect myself. Well at least yang ni ada la kaitan..altho sikit je.

Well you guys can try and search the best slogan for urself. Click here. Enjoy ;)

I realized these days i became soo hyper and crazy! I think its because I consumed too much chocolates and sweet stuff. Well its not that in Malaysia I did not eat all those, I love em all but during this fasting month I eat like double the amount I usually take.

Last Week, we went out for coffee(and in my case, I had chocolates) two days in a row. And on Saturday Night (The Night-Out with my fave crowd heehee), Deli introduced us to the best ice cream parlour in Welly; Wendy's. Ohmigod the Banana Split is the best! On dat very nite, I had one Banana Split (Hokey Pokey+Mochachino+Vanilla+Tons of Bananas=SUPERB!) and straight after I finish it I ordered a Mochachino for myself while we're lepak-ing at Lido. Ah life is getting so much crazy-ier. and I'm now leading an unhealthy lifestyle. By eating too much indomee and redbull for sahur and more chocolates and sweets --sugary and fattening stuffs-- just to keep me awake during the night. By November the 13th I guess I'm gonna be the fattest girl in Welly. Better go and 'berjimba' at Time Zone, just to cut down some weight. Haha yea rite banyak mana la ilang kan? besides, I have a new fave game in TimeZone which is.. the House of the Dead 4 (not sure whether or not i gt the name right, cuz all this while I call it 'bunuh zombie game'). So bile menembak mana gerak. Tangan je kuat wahahhaha.

And lately I've been sleeping like a log. Hish so now I'm trying to stay up all day long so dat I wont sleep too much like a few days back. And guess what? I always dreamt of food most of the times! Probably its because of Fasting Month... since I dont get to eat during the day so I kinda miss em. Haha. Its weird cuz when I was lil, I didnt really care about food. I dont eat much (look at my size, terbantut) and now? I eat like... crazy.

So now, I eat a lot, I sleep a lot. Yes I'm now opening a 'fat-factory'. I'll be the most generous donor if fat is one of humans organs. Ah and the exams will be in a week.

Well its normal tht we'll be super tired during fasting month especially in Wellington; since you need more energy to walk in the wind. The weather is not like Spring now; its more like Winter. Or maybe worse than winter. It has been raining and windy for days! I can't enjoy my Spring any longer. And sometimes we can even experience 4 seasons in a day! Like last tuesday, I was wearing my wool jacket (Spring pon pakai wool jacket... haha) and suddenly it rained. So I went back home and changed to a rain jacket and went back up to the uni.. with the sun shined very brightly - the rain stopped. *sigh* sabar jela.

I have one theory tht works on me:

tired makes you sleepy and hungry. Since you have less sleep, and you cant eat all the time, it will leads you to Mood Swings.

'Mood Swings' is terrifying. It makes me become very emotional. And thts dangerous cuz I'll become super pathetic which makes me brood over the 'pathetic' life I'm going through. Suddenly I feel that I'm the worst creature ever lived, I feel so inferior, and I started to think that my life is so screwed up and lonely and i dunno, incomplete?

I'm friggin worried with myself right now. I'm trying so hard to keep myself on track but yeah always terkandas. So now what I've been doing is trying to sleep 6-8 hours per day(altho always terlebih tido,or maybe terkurang), taking a more decent food and try to consume less unnecessary junks and spend more time with assignments and books. And it didnt really work out most of the times. haaa.

Im gonna continue suffering for another 2 weeks. Hoping everything will be alright after the 27th. I need my normal days back. Altho I'm high on sugar and chocolates which leads to happy+crazy days... but too much is just not right cuz it may lead to more troubles. To fix this problem, I need to adjust only 2 things; cara makan and sleeping routine- cuz I think I'm now having eating and sleeping disorder. God help me.

I'm already loud. So now I'm becoming the amplifier or the loudspeaker.

I'm already weird+crazy, so now I'm like a retard..or super retard.

Mulut tak yah cakap la kan, laser die tahap max.

So korang, if you guys gt annoyed or offended with me, I would like to say I'm sorry.

Actually I know theres something that made me like this.

Its Mr Stress.

My Heritage

2006-10-07T19:21:00.000+13:45

tried this using My Heritage.

So later after this, I'm gonna find some pics of u guys and try to match em. Then I'm gonna open another blog and post up the link kat sana.

Another project of mine which I think I can start after I finish my exams.

So should I start with all Welly peeps? if you guys want ur pic to be in, send it to me yaa.

Banyak nyer project nak buat masa cuti nih. huhuh best!

Hope jadi laa.

The Sleepyhead cannot Sleep.

2006-10-07T05:52:00.001+13:45

Okay now my sleeping time has gone haywire. Like the old times. I'll be very sleepy around 9pm, and if I sleep at that time I'll wake up around 11pm to midnite. Then later after that if I need to sleep, I'll be tossing and turning in my bed until 3-4am.

And when you have weird sleeping times in the fasting month, the classes and other activities during the day will make your brain works slower when the night comes. Dah penat... mmg laa kan?

Like today, I almost missed my submission cuz I woke up at 12. I was so panicked cuz actually the submission is around 10-12 (my workshop time) but thank god theres another workshop that I can attend to submit my assignment so selamat la gaks.

As you guys can see, I'm writing an entry at around 5 am.

Haih and I havent slept since 12. I can't sleep, and now I'm keeping myself busy with editing my blog layout (by just adding one thing up there... comel x?) and chatting with Malaysian friends as usual *at this time around..*. So now right after solat Subuh I'm gonna force myself to sleep. I dun wanna wake up tomoro ~~morning~~ afternoon feeling tired and dizzy, and ended up being so unproductive for the whole day. huhu.

Maybe I worry too much that makes me think the whole nite till I cannot sleep.

Well I'll talk about that when I feel like posting another entry or else until tomoro pon I takkan tido. For now I'm gonna continue with something else.

Anyways, the bunga up there is one of my current favourite pictures. To me, its one of my best shots so far. Since we're now in spring season, there are heaps of pretty flowers out there. Being the flowers-lover, I can just goo crazyy when I enter parks like the botanical garden, or the esplanade (kat Palmy.. sedey haritu lalu jer.. isk) at the time like these. So I cannot stop snapping pictures of em *Appreciating the beauty* and now the collection dah semakin banyak. Maybe I'm gonna skip some of the albums that need to be updated (like the road trip albums..) and letak these bungas into my fotopages dulu. I hope you guys can comment on the pics later when I put em up okay? heehee.

Okay la I think I better get my beauty sleep.

Morning People.

Hari Malang Farah.

2006-10-03T17:35:00.000+13:45

Worked til 3am last nite. The building was sooo messy. Had no choice but to clean em. Ah well, its our fault for coming in late. I was vaccumming the foyer and suddenly the vaccum broke down. So since i have to change vaccuum- to the one that we have to galas, I changed duties with Pae. I took over his toilet cleaning job, and thank god the works later on were not so bad - cuz the side toilets' lights weren't working and the only toilet left was that darn dirty mens toilet.

Reached home around 315am, and stayed up just to wait for Sahur with Haz, cuz if I sleep then I'll definitely miss it. So I took a bath, finish up my INFO 101 assignment, and waited until 430am. Another half an hour to go. So I started to lie down and rested my head on the pillows... And suddenly haz woke me up. erk tertido gak! but then I tot i can still make it... so checked the time... eh no wait! its 600am!! Then Haz said "Subuh Farah..bangun."

She tried to wake me up during Sahur time, but yeah u know me, I'm not a light sleeper and its like super hard to wake me up. Even Haz gt pissed off. Already immune with the ringtones in the cell, and kalau dah sampai dat level, only my mom can wake me up the easiest. So yeah, there goes my sahur. And the last meal I had was...

...the Spaghetti masa berbuka.

I just feel like crying dat time cuz I'm friggin hungry. And I know I wont be able to eat until sunset. haih! Stress.

So I solat Subuh, and continue sleeping.. and thinking of waking up around 930 just in time for siap2 and walk to ECON 140 lecture.

Had a weird dream; about something that I've been wishing for but yeah will not happen in Reality (more frustrating stuffs). And suddenly haz came into the room for the second time..to wake me up again. Since I'm like soo depressed, I skipped ECONS on purpose. And continue sleeping, hoping to have different dreams, but no. That stupid dream continues.

Woke up, feeling stressed up and checked the time again. Haih just in time to get ready for INFO 101. So yeah, siap2 and went up. "Adam Brody" made my day (seronok tengok his expressions and gestures while he's talking to me.. damn hes so adorable) and then later after the class I went back to the room, did some kemas2 and started to read thru the new course catalogue and also checked out the NZCIA requirements. And found out about more scary stuffs; I have to take COML (Commercial Law) subjects! around 3 papers if i'm not mistaken, and because of that I think I have to re-plan everything. I might have to drop INFO major, and take subjects that did not plan to take before. Hm guess I have to see the student advisor and that would be later after the exams. Plus, I have to find out abt loan from JPA/MARA. Exams lagi. Assignments lagi. ahh more stress.

Then suddenly Nana came into the room with the worst news of the day: Weir is serving pork for tonite!! I was like.. aaaaa! I need to eat something else but not vegetarian :(

thats it, I'm going out tonite. *sigh*

I dunno what will happen next. I'm so worried right now, especially with my future planning. Hoping that things will turn out to be alright. am I on the right track? sheesh! How I wish I have a time machine that can bring me to the future and see whether the plan work or the other way round.

Dah la I'm lacking the being-a-woman skills. I wonder what will happen to me if I don't study hard now. Probably I'll be a useless single lady. Why single?cuz I cant even attract anybody since I don't have the skills! scary.

But I felt much better after having a chat with Ibu. Thanks Ibu! :D

As for now, I'm gonna concentrate with my exams and assignments. Will worry about my future right after that.

you see, from only one wrong step I took (resting my head on the pillow at 430 am), things have turned out to be so wrong for the whole day!

*sigh*

Dengan itu, saya isytiharkan, 3 Oktober 2006 adalah Hari Malang Farah.

Wellington Peeps, Thank You.

2006-09-27T00:21:00.000+12:45

2nd post for the nite. See thats how bosan I am, with assignments beside me.

Tried to do some ACCY 111 reading before doing the qs. but yeah its like staring at a blank paper; nothing masuk n processed in the brain. hishh I feel like I'm the stupidest creature ever lived in this whoolee widee worrllddd cuz my otak lembab bace pon tak masuk2 (okay im exaggerating..) . Well not really, but yeah I'm not productive at the moment.

Hm okay now im hoping after doing one post i'll be able to process something from what I'm gonna read later.

So yesterday was NZ first day of Puasa. And we had gathering berbuka at 240 The Terrace. It was all great; yummy food, and great crowd. After tarawikh, we watched Malam Malaysia's video. More fun, more gelak2 at the performances done by the talented wellington peeps. Love the Sketch, the JPA performance, TESOL's, and glad to hear all those great singers again. Oh yah and this reminds me, I wud like to say Thank You to all of you who enjoyed the dua kupang performances, and I'm glad u all do love the vids.

Fasting Wellington is NOT BAD AT ALL (altho today we had a vegetarian thingie for berbuka and its not yummy at all, too bad they serve pork tonite) and I heard theres gonna be more makan2. Its like we're gonna have at least once a week. Seronok bukan? Walaupon I dont have the chance to have sahur and berbuka with my family anymore, but to break fast with u guys pon sangat seronok...and to me u guys are my family here!

So to the host, thanks for inviting me yesterday. And to other welly peeps.. muahx to all!

I know this is a bit late.. but yeah I still wanna say...

Happy Ramadhan al-Mubarak Everyone!

what goes up must come down...?

2006-09-26T20:05:00.000+12:45

I have a few assignments to do but I don't have the mood to do em. So I decided to edit pictures to be posted in fotopages since I have to update around 5 albums (or maybe more than that) but I can't seem to start doing em..and because of that I started to log on my friendster and look for some surveys to do. Well, there are a few but I cant think of proper answers to fill in. Piss off with myself, I started to open Blogskins and start to browse for new skins. There are a few cool designs that made me feel like designing a blog layout for myself.. which I've been planning like months ago(angan2 taik ayam la ni..isk) but when I opened Photoshop and started to play with the brushes.. I can't seem to create any nice and impressive corak from it. Cari keje lain then i remembered last nite I took a few movies from Ned (terima kasih to u.if u're reading this.. lol), so I watched Corpse Bride sampai habis. But still, after watching it I just feel like guling2 on my bed not doing anything. I'm trying to avoid myself for not being productive.. so here I am, trying to post up an entry, but the thing is.. I can't write with the Semangat Blogging that I always have. In fact, I'm losing interest in blogging lately.

This is what will happen if there's something that keep on bothering me. But nothing is wrong, its just me feeling uneasy, and rimas..

with myself. ugh.

oh yah just now Nana, Nonie, Haz and I had talked about a topic, which makes me wonder.. and still floating in mind and starting to annoy me

do you believe in Karma?

Malaysian Nite : Unforgettable

2006-09-19T00:33:00.000+12:45

hmm woosh buat hal lagi. i dah tawar hati dengan woosh. *sobs*

anyways the eventful week is over! The kemuncak: when I submitted my INFO 102 assignment dis afternoon. relieved gilaa. I can now relax.. eh no. I can now concentrate on my works..and revisions *haih tensi* cuz we just found out that one of our exams (ECON140) will be on Hari Raya! dammit i cant even go for prayers :( and i'll be starting my exams on the 2oth. That's like a month away! I'm so worried. haih have to start really earlyy.

and Ramadhan will be in a few days.. i cant wait! its time to cut off some flabs before i balik Malaysia wheeee!

now, nak bukak citer yang berkenaan with the title of my entry: Malaysian Nite. The whole nite was awesome and fantabulous! had a super duper great time performing, watching other performances, eating superb foods served by the Intercontinental Hotel, snapping pics (of course) with beautiful peeps of Wellington! hey I'm not exxagerating here, they all dressed up really nice! bile tengok diorang terase cam I ni underdress tau. The performances? The sketch reminds me of our Legendary Superstar, Tan Sri P. Ramlee movies. So gelak cam nak mati je. Like haz sed tadi, if only laughing will exercise your abs jadi six-pack.. im sure everyone jadi fit! especially me :D wahahahahhaha. And our performance was a success! heehee. Well, adala some technical problems (sorry la korang.. hehe) but everything turns out to be beyond our expectations. Cuz I didnt expect to hear the whole dewan gelak macam last nite.

So to the organizing team, all I can say WELL DONE! everything was nicely organized and I can see all happy faces later after the event. heehee. Without u guys, takdela Malaysian Nite :D

A big THANKS to the DUA KUPANG TEAM! We nailed it! Thanks to the talented peeps in the team. Without u guys maka tak jadilah all those sketch+vid clips ;) I'm so proud.

To the emcees, Kak Sita n Sean. Great Job!! U guys did very well ;) kalau i la yang jadi.. hehe tak semeriah korang leee. tak syok Malaysian Nite. Huhu.

To other performances, A BIG CONGRATZ to you guys. I love the sketch , the divas who sang like.. OMG SEDAP GILA! and to the dancers and the bands... great performance :D Now dah terbukti Welly has gt many talented people. heehee. Sweet Asssssss!

And to everyone else, thanks for the effort of dressing up and make the nite so colorful. U guys rock!

and seriously guys...

..the nite was UNFORGETTABLE!

okay now its time to get back to my work and siapkan keje. ha-ha.
daaa~!

p/s: will update pics later. kene edit dulu~!

cerita sibuk

2006-09-10T05:38:00.000+12:45

okay now im starting to sleep late. and this week i think i might need to sleep like super late everyday. isk since I have like 2 INFO 102 assignments, 1 INFO 101 assignment and 1 ACCY 111 assignment. The worst part, I can't seem to figure out how to do my programming, and this thing took so much of my time! I'm frigging worried that because of this darn programming, other assignments cannot be finished on time.

and I have a quite a huge project which need to be done before 17th of September. Well I did like 50% of the whole thing (with the help of the lovely 2kupang teammates..thank God) but still! I need to do touch ups, and more things to make this thing work. Its actually for our performance during The Malaysian Nite so we surely dun wanna blew it up rite?

So now I'm like Super Duper Busy! I wish I'm like a brilliant girl which can solve questions fast so that I wont be having problems with my assignments yang menggunung, and so that I have more time for the video editing. ha-ha.

Nak ikutkan, the priorities for everything that I have to do is basically on the same level. Everything is very very important to me. this is hard. isk.

Apart from my busy-ness, I've been having a nice day; cuz we're now entering Spring! as you walk along the road, you'll see colorful flowers, feel the breezy wind on a bright sunny day.. omg its simply beautiful. That is why I really really loove spring! Its a very colorful season! And even the collection at the shops are very menarik my perhatian. I love all those flowery blouses with nice colors; i just feel like buying all of em! what i can do now(to save my allowance) is to wait for the season to end; then the prices will drop for the end-season sale.

semangat je nak tunggu.

Okay I better get back to work. Will update more later.

Nites peeps!

Semangat Patriotik.

2006-09-08T04:25:00.000+12:45

I know that I'm suppose to be sleeping rite now, since I have a class at 10 am in the morning. Well, its not that I'm not tired, or sleepy(mata dah berat dah ni) but its just that I dun feel like sleeping. I feel like browsing thru the net, blog-hopping and answering those crappy surveys and try to ease my mind. Well now I suddenly remembered to try to put up an entry before I pergi melayan mimpi.

So a week has passed, and I think I had a great MERDEKA CELEBRATION =D. Every year, Merdeka Day has been somewhat an important day for me. The spirit of patriotism will come altho I think I'm not that patriotic (..dah sejarah pon x score) but hey! I'm proud to be Malaysian and I'm soo glad that we are 49 years free from jajahan! *and still counting..alhamdulillah*. Every year I will celebrate it with many activities organized by school and I'll gantung Jalur Gemilang outside of my house, turn on those patriotic songs and sing my heart out. but this year? I did something different; by tembak menembak, berlumba secara halal, menari and also a celebration with our Minister of Higher Education. Syok I tell u.

It was my first time playing paintball, and I didnt get hurt. Sad in a way, since I really wanna know how it feels when u're shot by those small paintballs. I know sakit, but nak gak lah experience kan? hm I've been in hiding most of the times (chicken la kot. huhu). I tried to shoot and cant really see where the bullets go to so lantak la but I guess ada yang kena. hehe. So to those yang tak puas ati with me, jom kite paintball and then u guys can shoot me as much as u want! mwahahhahaha!! Then we went for go-karting --more FUN! And this time I was being a very good driver, so no warnings from the supervisors like before! an improvement la tu! Plus I like the track; much wider than the previous one I went.

Thanks to the organizer, and the peeps who went. I had an awesome time!!

Okay that was on the 31st August. On the 2nd of September, the tuatalang team went to Johnsonville for our first performance. I was nervous and excited at the same time and alhamdulillah, everything went smooth. err.. i hope la and I think I didnt screw it up. haha. Anyhoots, heard athi and kak naze for the first time and sedap nyer derang nyanyi Legenda! and we line-danced (dah takde keje..bosan) and snapped tons of pics, other than layaning each other and the cute kids there. Oh yah theres this one notty gal who snapped a photo with me, I complimented her by saying "u're so cute" and she replied "i know!". Terkejut seh! kalah i okay. Kecik2 dah gedik. Nasib baiklaa comel. haha.

So our next performance will be on the 17th. Can't wait!

Moving on, on Monday, Sept 5th, the Minister of Higher Education, Dato' Mustapa Mohamed paid us a visit. So we celebrated Merdeka with him, sekalikan terus dengan sesi berkenal-kenalan. We get to dress up with our baju kebangsaan, and I wore my mom's purple baju kurung and disbbkan bahunya besa, I have to wear my tudung macam ustazah (as in pin kat depan). Well, makan was superb (thanks to Ellie and the team), watched Haz bersajak with full emotions(menusuk kalbu tuh), sang the song 31 Ogos 1957 (fave lagu patriotik),nice performance from the wmso peeps, and as usual, snap tons of photos :D heehee. Oh yah the guys performed Haka to Dato' but I missed that one, due to kejaring masa untuk pulang. I heard the performance was nice.

So thts about it. My Merdeka Celebration. I'm glad that I had a great celebration altho I'm not in Malaysia. But living outside Malaysia made me cherish my country even more. I just can't wait to go back! wheee~!!

ah okay lah dah mengantuk. huhu. gtg. nitessssss~~~

Waiting.

2006-08-30T19:57:00.000+12:45

1.) Put your music player on shuffle
2.) Press forward for each question.
3.) Use the song title as the answer to thequestion.
4.) NO CHEATING!!!*

So here it goes ....

1.) How am I feeling today?
Sweetness - Jimmy Eat World

2.) Where will I get married?
Operator, The Line is Dead - Jason Lo *heh*

3.) What is my best friend's theme song?
Play - Flunk

4.) What is/was highschool like?
My Immortal - Evanescene *err?*

5.) What is the best thing about me?
Last Night - The Strokes *huh?*

6.) How is today going to be?
Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap *doesnt makesense*

7.) What is in store for this weekend?
Each Coming Night - Iron and Wine *apekah?*

8.) What song describes my parents?.
Cintamu - Dygta *whahahahahah*

9.) How is my life going?
Ikhlas Tapi Jauh - Zainal Abidin *.....*

10.) What song will they play at my funeral?
Photograph - Nickelback

11.) How does the world see me?
Angels or Devils - Dishwalla *...xde perasaan dah*

12.) What do my friends really think of me?
Just The Girl - Click Five *hahahah takleh bla*

13) Do people secretly lust after me?
Obsession - Frankie J feat Baby Bash *kepelikkan*

14.) How can I make myself happy?
Here Comes the Sun - The Beatles *heh*

15.) What should I do with my life?
Seperti Ku Mau - Baim *wah*

16.) Will I ever have children?
Amazed - Lonestar *does dat means yes?*

17.) What is some good advice?
Untukmu - KRU *wha?*

18.) What do I think my current theme song is?
Ghazal Untuk Rabiah - M.Nasir & Jamal Abdillah*OMG GILE TAKLEH BLAAAA*

19.) What does everyone else think my current life?
With or Without You - U2 *heh?*

20.) What type of men/women do you like?
Circle of Life - The Lion King Soundtrack *...blur*

21.) Will you get married?
Teratai Layu Di Tasik Madu - Fauziah Latiff*macam tak kawen je ni.. isk2*

22.) What should I do with my love life?
Angel - Sarah Mc Lachlan *what? aiyoo*

23.) Where will you live?
Bintangku - Dygta *pelik betul*

24.) What will your dying words be?
Only One - Yellowcard *heh*

25.) When im having sex i say..
Somebody Told Me - The Killers *gile*

26.) When I meet a guy for the first time i say..
Rahasia Perempuan - Ari Lasso *what??manadeee*

27.) When my parents are angry i say..
You were meant for me - Jewel *hahahha care2menghilangkan rasa marah?*

comments from me: kesimpulannye, ini survey sangat mengarut. wahhahahaha.

Anyways watched The Lake House last night with Vivian. The movie was great, altho its a bit dull but the tensi2 part yang best :) hahaha. I Like the story line altho it didnt really make sense at first. Huhu.....

oh yah HAPPY MERDEKA DAY everyone (for tomorrow the 31st.). WMSO gonna celebrate it with tembak menembak, kart racing dan juga bowling. I'm not gonna bowl, and still contemplating on joining for paint ball and go karting. tengok lah dulu. InsyaAllah, I'll join the fun!! wheeee.

and.. my laptop buat hal lagi. But not so bad tho. I can't use the card reader jer. will send for service later on. Hard ware problem so ada warranty mwahahahahhaa.

Preans kan, suke sangat buat hal!! iskkkk.

*tgh takda mood. later la blog.*

i'm in love with the cheetas.

2006-08-23T17:27:00.000+12:45

i tot of finishing my photo editing before starting a post. but seems like.. kemalasan untuk menjadi produktif tibe2 ilang.

so now im blogging instead.

ah had a blast! spent $2 to get into a zoo; take that! giler murah cuz its winter wednesday (the tix will be $2 for every wednesday during the month of august). and it was really worth it. The zoo is not as big as the Zoo Negara, and this is my first time I went to a zoo WITHOUT elephants!! selalunya if you go to a zoo(as far as i concern), as you go in the elephants and girraffes will be around you. But not this time!

I lof all those warning signs. "the zoo keeper says.." and it will show cute cartoons illustrations. haha. *bertambah jakuns* and to my surprise *again* there are tons of college and high school peeps having school trips. Well, so far we'll hardly see BIG kids (I mean.. secondary and college students) made trips to a zoo. ke tak penah? selalu primary la paling tua pon. I mean school trips but yeah university students pon pegi zoo jugak kan(like me..:p).

And I'm soo in love with the cheetahs! hotness weh! and plus, more and more cute animals all around! but the sad part is, we failed to track kiwis. They're too shy to come out. How sad. I really wanna see kiwis.

So now I'm soo looking foward to go to Karori Wildlife Sanctuary. and will continue to search the kiwi birds.

Malu betul,as a wellingtonian, who have travelled like half of the south island in six months time, HAVE NOT BEEN to karori wildlife sanctuary which is only 20 mins away from the CBD.

Snapped loads of pictures! (since i have my own camera ni kan..) But my fotopages kinda tergantung since the last winter holiday and I have like 4 albums to load (and including this one will be 5) , so I'm gonna post up a few pics here. hehe. a few je. the rest will have to wait till I load evrything in my fotopages yang tergendala.

oh yah and today Haz and I snapped a photo each, with the "Victoria University of Wellington" sign. After like 6-7 months.. dan nak habis a year dah pon. lol!

Anyways. I gtg, need to sleep early cuz I'm working at eight tomorrow morning. Haih gonna miss breakfast *sad* but can't wait to see Nonie tomorrow~! its tuatalang time :D

to the peeps who went to the zoo today: Haz, Palie, Ali, Anne and Dazriq. Thank you for your com
pany and time. I had fun with
you guys! especially ali lah today tak habis2 merapu. heehee.

tensi

2006-08-22T15:37:00.000+12:45

I have a video to edit. And the problem is now, the video is in .vob format (dvd format) so I can't edit that damn thing. Looking for a video converter to change the format of the video... found one software but the quality of the converted-video is sucky!! buruk gila i tell u.

haih can anybody suggest me any software? I really need to find one software fast. its for our production. iskk..

well haz baru txt. we're gonna go to queensgate later this afternoon. gonna do stocktaking.. and shopping! haha. yea rite.

I'm broke how can I shop??

...Window Shopping Jela.

oh and I can't wait to see more animals tomorrow!! *whee*

I'm Scared

2006-08-19T16:10:00.000+12:45

Blog-hopping is now a new hobby of mine. ^_^

Oh people, its term break! and I'm not planning to go anywhere. Maybe I'll go somewhere around Wellington only.

But I have a few stuffs to finish before the holiday ends. I have two assignments (INFO 101&INFO 102), I have one test coming up(ECON 140), and now I feel like contributing to my dear team, dua kupang by looking for ideas for our performance during the Malaysian Night. Other than that, I have to go for the Tuatalang Practice because we're performing on the 2nd of September. And work work work to gain more money money money...

Busy nggak??

hahahaha. Its not a holiday for me.

but so far I'm having a good time, trying to make myself productive by browsing thru the net and looking for more ideas, and also trying to update myself with Malaysia. Read the Star for headlines and some infos, Called up Ibu for more information and blog hopping to see what others have to say abt current issues in Malaysia.

And I'm shocked to see how HOT stories kat Malaysia now. With that pertubuhan IFC, Siti Nurhaliza 'sederhana' Wedding, Pak Lah and Tun Dr M issues...

oh and again, Gubra controversies.

Then I'm trying to update myself with the World pulak. War. Terrorists. Threats. Airports.

MORE SCARY STUFFS.

What happened with the world now?

I'm upset. and I'm worried.

As you can see, the issues happened now are closely related to Islam.

Why oh why?

Samsons - Bukan Diriku.

2006-08-18T02:54:00.000+12:45

setelah kupahami
ku bukan yang terbaik
yang ada di hatimu

tak dapat kusangsikan
ternyata dirinyalah
yang mengerti kamu
bukanlah diriku

kini maafkanlah aku
bila ku menjadi bisu
kepada dirimu

bukan santunku terbungkam
hanya hatiku berbatas
tuk mengerti kamu
maafkanlah aku

reff:
walau kumasih mencintaimu
kuharus meninggalkanmu
kuharus melupakanmu
meski hatiku menyayangimu
nurani membutuhkanmu
kuharus merelakanmu

dan hanyalah dirimu
yang mampu memahamiku
yang dapat mengerti aku

ternyata dirinyalah
yang sanggup menyanjungmu
yang lama menyentuhmu
bukanlah diriku

the current song that keeps on playing in my Winamp over and over.
layan gile beb!

tiada yang lain melainkan-Nya.o@g's Nowwhy2

2006-08-16T00:31:00.000+12:45

It's nearly 12 am and I'm eating banana with my laptop on my lap and my accy books on my side.

camnilah bile nak test/exam. sepatutnye buat revision, and yes i do study but that will only last for an hour and a half maximum. Then I'll spend most of my time playing text twist, eating, chatting with some friends, whining about how busy u are, surfing the net for ideas to design ur blog, playing with colors and brushes at Photoshop, flipping thru pictures, singing out loud, and blogging.

...oh yah. worrying about how r u gonna tackle the test.

kenape, bile busy baru nak buat these unnecessary stuffs? kenape, bile busy baru datang ideas to do designing? kenape, bile busy x penah concentrate betul2 on what u're suppose to do?

then tension tak tentu pasal.

I need to read more to finish my accy assignment, and at the same time I still have ECON 140 assignment which I just read and draft some answers.

but right now all I can think of is "revise revise revise".

*tensi overload*

Oh HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR BRO, LUQMAN! Sorry la I can't call the house. Credit phone dh zero. then I tak turun2 town lagi. Been busy. But I hope the testi pon dah cukup.

to luqman: you dah 15 tahun. haha. and surprisingly, I can't wait to see u this november. tunggu k? then we can sakat firdaus sama2*whoops.shh*. haha

Phyr kak ngah sayang sama lu!

Okay masa menghilangkan tensi dah tamat. Its time to read some 'fun' stuff.

I LOF(how Fez from that 70's show pronounces the word LOVE) ACCY.. betul tak mek?

while surfing, I came across this Q:

"Can the Moon be inhabited by people in 50-100 years or so?"

..hmm, interesting :)

2006-08-14T11:23:00.000+12:45

MP3 Playin : Pachelbel's Canon in D Major.

Now I'm trying to be more relaxed. I'm gonna get busy and busy til the end of the week. I know now I'm pretty tensed up(sebab dh naik gatal2 around my scalp and tengkuk), but thank God its not as bad as before cuz I can still control my temper and emo. *sigh*

I can't wait for next week!!!

...and I realized my blog is getting dull-er now.

_ mengantuk.

2006-08-12T23:28:00.000+12:45

Its a One Busy Day.

Woke up from a nightmare and realized that I was late for my duty at the mosque. Siap2, and rushed to Lambton Quay to catch a bus to Kilbirnie. Arrived around 10am and was given a duty; jaga microwave- if ppl need help with the food heating. At first I find this job funny but as I go along I can see that not many people(including me at first) don't know how to use the microwaves so I'm glad that I helped them. Amal Jariah :D

Had KekBatik *yummy* and my hand dicorakkan using Henna *happy*

And the whole Mosque Day was great! Its an interesting event to go. Cuz u'll get to see how non-muslims we're interested to get to know Islam. They show support. and that's good enuff to introduce Islam to them. I hoped this Mosque day will change some ppl perspectives towards Muslims.

Then Haz, Nonie and I went back straight to Weir. Rested for awhile before heading back to the Quad for a meeting with the rest of Pet+Moe people. We're making plans for our performance.. which I really hope will turn out fine :D

Around 6pm we went to our dance practice. 3 hrs spent as usual, and I can say, I'm getting better altho I'm still a bit 'kayu-ish'. I need more practice. And I have to get my coordination better.

Oh yah and Haz, Nana, Nonie and Ila were making fun of my nickname 'Mek' as Azie called me 'Mexx'. Well how do I get the name Mexx anyway??

I love to talk since I was a lil girl. And because of that my family called me Mek Pok Pek. But the name was too long, so they cut it short to Mek

None of my school mates (except for fash and yuli and fifi) knew I have a nick name until one day they came to my house and heard one of my family members called me. So ape lagi, dah ada nickname tu, abis spread kat skolah...

Mase form 2/3..ala zaman muda mudi. Each member of the clique I used to hang out with have a significant animal/thing to represent ourselves. So mine was a sheep, since my nickname is Mek. And plus, that time I was addicted to Worm Party and I love that Supersheep attack! So I always put my display name "supersheep" in front of my nickname kat MSN. so jadila Supersheep_Mek. tapi x sedap sangat.. so my friends tuka la jadi Supersheep_Meks. and still.. I dun really fancy the name Meks so I modified la jadi Mexx.

There are still a few of my school friends called me 'Mek'/'Mexx'. But my collegemates called me 'Mexx' since theres another 2 Farah in my class.

Some people thought I'm a KELANTANESE cuz of my nickname. Just to make you guys clear that I am NOT. I dun even know how to speak and understand the dialect. haha.

Oh yah, u guys are free to call me Farah, Mek or Mexx. but not 'mekintyre' or whatever. tak sedap arrrrr!! hehehehe

So sambung balik..

the practice ended around 9. Since today I didnt have a proper meal, I was thinking of going down and buy McD but I was too tired to turun, so I makan Maggi Assam Laksa which I tersalah buat; terlebih air and terlebih kembang. isk. tak sedap.

and now dah settle down, I'm gonna start my ACCY111 assignment.

..and hope that I wudnt get another nightmare tonight.

Yes people I've weird dreams lately, from a very pleasant+happy to a very scary+disasterous one. hmm.

sakit kepalasakit mental?*

2006-08-10T09:37:00.001+12:45

I'm soo relieved I've finished my INFO 102 assignment. Well theres some touch ups to do before sumbmitting it, which i'll do later tonight.And I have another 3 Assignments to submit next week. Plus the ACCY 111 term test lagi. BUSY!!!!

Ape2 pon, I'm gonna rest after classes for awhile before doing my works and revision. My head hurts. Its not a normal pening2, I guess its migrain. Rimas2. *sigh*

Anyways yesterday was the first time WMCG(WMSO Cultural Group) held a Malay Dance practice. Ramai girls joined, but as usual not many guys were there. Wellington kekurangan supply lelaki sebenarnye. We're gonna do Tari Tualang Tiga and if I'm nt mistaken we're gonna perform on the 2nd of September and Malaysian Nite. I'm pretty excited cuz this is the first Tarian Melayu performance I'm gonna do here, and I've never tried any dances before *1st Timer/Beginner* haha.

Thank God theres the video of the performance (Siti Nurhaliza's version) in YouTube so I can listen and practice on my own *cecey semangat gila!*

Oh yah I have good news and bad news for me which I wanna mention in my blog. The bad news is I cancelled my trip to Mt Ruapehu for Skiing *sad*. Why?? Because I spent my money on Return Ticket to MALAYSIA!! Yes ppl I'm going back end of this year~!!! And thats the good news!! hehe. So whoever reading this and wud like to see me *cam ade* when I'm back in Malaysia, please wait for me around mid-week of November. kay??

There are a few SONGS stuck in my head and keep on playing in my Winamp, after the 90sMalaysianSongs-Fever melanda last week. I think you guys should give em a go, layan tau!
1. Til Kingdom Come - Coldplay
2. Speeding Cars - Imogen Heap
3. Evermore - Running
4. The Fiery Furnaces - I Lost My Dog/My Dog Was Lost ..tak sure which one is the right title.
5. Pete Murray - Opportunity
6. The Rain - Tolong Aku
7. Panic! At The Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies
8. Mario Vazquez - Gallery
9. Rihanna - Unfaithful

And this week is The OC's Season Finale!! I can't wait to watch~!! Altho I know how the ending is going to be like. And watched the second last episode last saturday and tension gile tengok sampai emo. So I wanna know how tension the finale. heehee

Talking about The OC, there's a guy in my INFO 101 tutorial and INFO 102 lecture who looks like Adam Brody!! Well, you know Rowena how I LOVE Adam Brody? Ahh seronok sungguh!! Plus my INFO 102's tutor is cute but nerdy(which I dun care)... and he's very good! He explains very well and I LOVE going to his tuts. I LOVE THIS SEM!! This Adam brody guy(thats what Nonie and I call him to not make it obvious that we're talking about him..lol) has a twin! but he said they're not identical so I dunno how his twin looks like.. well I dun care either. Even my INFO 102 has a twin and we've seen them together! and when they're talking to each other, its like they're talking to the mirror!!

Kesimpulan from my INFO lectures and tuts: people who has twins are hot. lol!

But this kesimpulan tak boleh pakai dkt tempat lain other than INFO tuts and lectures. haha!

I posted an entry about 'Bahasa Kelantan 101' which I think its interesting. Well, I have a hard time understanding it. And thanks to Afan and Dan yang suke banget cakap Kelantan masa conferencing with me, I learnt a bit. HAHA!! But this post doesnt really help actually. I'm so bad with language/dialects! Dulu B.Arab pon tak pass. LOL.

Well, I LOVE Kelantanese food tho. *takde kene mengene :p*

Okay its time to siap-siap for ECON 140 and ACCY 111. Two subjects that I'm gonna drill to score :(

I thought by doing an entry will ease my pain. But I guess I was wrong.

This Head-ache is killing me. argh.

Got this from Friendster Bulletin, posted by Sue.

2006-08-06T23:24:00.000+12:45

sesape yang nak belaja loghat kelantan atau yg
ade hajat nak kahwen dgn org kelantan..baik blajar
kalu x..pening ppalo..heehehe..:P
Ada cerita di sebuah sekolah rendah
di luar Kelate yg guru besarnya orang Kelate. Satu
hari budak-budak ternampak ular. Jadi kata
cikgu,"cepat-cepat lah katok". Budak-budak pun
heran dan jawab balik, "bukan katak cikgu, tapi
ular."
Hmmmm konpius... Katok =pukul, balun, hentam

Vocabulary :
Bokbong - spesis musang
Ttuyup - pepatung
Pok Kor - spesis mengkarung
Ike Kkhonge - ikan cencaru
Gelenyar,Gletah = mengenyam, getik
Absorber = saksoba
Supik Gelenyar - plastik bag (yang nipis tu.)
Buah Topoh = buah epal (diambil dr perkataan
Arab "tuffah" = epal)
Gaduh, bbaloh = kelahi
Ggaduh = nak cepat (double `G' means sabdu)
Saka = gula (sekarang sudah jarang digunakan
oleh generasi baru)
Bekwoh = kenduri (mungkin berasal dari big work)
Tohok = buang
Ghohok = susah, payah
SIAK DUK GGOBAR = Jangan risau.. Don't worry,
be happy!!!
WAK GGOGHI = Bagi memulakan sesuatu.. to
start
with.
DEKPONG GAK EH = Kalau ya pun
Jjughuh = baik (jjughuh budok tu = baik budak tu)
Kelaghing = kesat/not smooth (kulit kelaghing =
skin
not smooth
enough)

Kelantan + English?? = "Kelantalish"
Contoh:
POZEK (deposit),
RIZAT (1.result 2. reserved),
NNEJA (manager),
ISTEK (estate),
SUWIH (switch),
MERKET (market), dll...

Kata penguat dlm bahaso Klate pun boleh tahan
menarik:
manis LLETING
masin PPEGHAK
pahit LLEPE
mase PPUGHIK
tawar EBER
putih SSUEH
hite LLEGE
biru KKETU
kuning NNEHE
kenye BBONYAH
comel LLOTE
gemuk DDEBOK
busuk BANGA
hapok KOHONG

Ada beberapa "bunga bahasa" dalam loghat
kelantan yang unik.. Antaranya:
YAK = lebih kurang "opocot!!!" atau "oops!!"
DEH? = memohon restu atau persetujuan...lebih
kurang "OK?",
GAK = lebih kurang "habis tu.." atau "so.."
PAH? = lebih kurang "GAK"
HO(bunyi naik ke hidung sikit ) = "ya lah.."
atau "yes"
DOCK? = lebih kurang "bu(kan)?", "betul tak?"
atau "isn't it?"

Seperkara lagi, ada diantara perkataan dalam
penggunaan biasa
loghat
Kelantan di anggap
TABOO dalam loghat yang lain, atau sekurang-
kurangnya tak manis
didengar pengertiannya di dalam loghat tempat
lain...
Yang popular digunakan antaranya:
CEBOCK : kita maksudkan 'cedok', selalunya
untuk
cecair, mencedok
air.
Banyak tempat sebelah pantai barat membawa
maksud "basuh b***k"
(istinja).
PPATAK : kita maksudkan 'paling bawah'.
Mencarut bagi mereka...
JEBUR : kita maksudkan 'botol' (kurang popular
sebenarnya, tapi
org
tua-tua masih guna perkataan ni...) Kalau silap
dengar, lain
maksudnya.
KOTER : kita maksudkan "kelapa tua yang kering
tak berair" (ingat
slogan CAWAT KOTE?) di kebanyakan tempat,
ianya mencarut juga!!
TTINO : kita maksudkan 'perempuan' tapi bila sebut
BETINA, ramai
yang
marah.(begitu juga JATE...)
AIR TUAK : kita minum di bulan puasa, buat
berbuka!!! Bagi orang
luar,
TUAK adalah Haram (sama taraf dengan TODI &
ARAK...)Yang fresh &
manis
tu dipanggil NIRA.
NNATE : kadangkala "simbol" kemesraan
antarakawan...cuba direct
translate jadi BINATANG... Boleh bergaduh nanti...
SUKU SAKAT : bagi kita,bermaksud "tidak kena
mengena", bagi org
KL, ia
bermaksud "kaum kerabat" contradict betul!!!

Biasanya perkataan yang berakhir dengan
`an','am','ang' diganti dengan `e'. cth :
Jangan=jange
Lengan=lenge
Geran=gere,
Pisang=pise
Malam=male BUT NEVER NEVER & NEVER
apply
this formula on words
like
pelam(mangga) & pelan.

Akhir sekali, peranan "SABDU" dalam loghat
Kelantan. Begitu besar
dan
boleh membezakan langit dengan bumi.
Sekadar contoh,
Tanpa 'sabdu' orang boleh patah gigi kerana
MAKAN KANTIN,
sepatutnya
disebut MAKE KKETENG (eating at the canteen)!!!
Atau salah faham antara TAK PAKAI (not
wearing) dengan TOK PPAKA
(useless).
Atau keliru diantara KECEK(tipu) dengan KKECEK
(bercakap)

so itula tutorial kite ttg bhs kelantan...

Seriously, I can't follow. Thats how bad I am. SOme of my college friends use Loghat Kelantan sometimes, and I'll get so blur+lost. Hope I wont get a Kelantanese boyfriend, or worse Kelantanese husband yang cakap Kelantan pekat gile.. dengan family cakap Kelantan... xleh imagine. Sure ada communication problems. huhu.

Jiwang-mode

2006-08-06T03:01:00.000+12:45

OMIGOD!!!

Deli introduced me to this one website where we can download songs in real media format and from that site I found tons of 90s malay songs and I was like "OHMIGOD!! Best GILE!!"

and now I become more jiwang but I don't care. They just remind me of the good ol' days back when I was small :) The days how Adam and I just love to sing-a-long together.

And its even more layan now cuz I still remember the lines :D layan gileeeee

*Happy*

InsyaAllah, tomolo morning I'll be hitting Gordon Harris to buy some stuffs to make the hat. Its for my bro, Adam. He wants me to make the topi gak.

I'll try my best to be the Zatanna. hehehe. Happy?

I wont look gorgeous anyway. haha.

Its time to do my INFO102 work. Honestly this subject is the most hardest out of all 4 subjects im doing. I feel so stupid. Surprisingly, its my fave subject for this sem =D So I'm gonna work hard to make sure I score.

"Sambutlah Sayang, Salam Cintaku ini, Untukmu sayang~ demi kasihku ini.."
Amy Mastura's Jawapan Kasih.
-currently playing over and over.

I like Amy Mastura since she started to join Asia Bagus and won...and recorded tons of nice songs.

Too bad Malaysian Songs nowadays aren't as good as the ones in the 90s. There are a few good ones. but they cant beat the 90s songs. heehee. Watched AIM 06 and wasnt satisfied with the whole thing. and thats how I made the conclusion to the Malaysian songs nowadays.

...well, its just my point of view.

Oh I heard the Laser Force game they(welly peeps) had 2 days ago was fun. I wanna join but too bad I have to work. So now I can't wait for loads of other activities coming soon; Paintball, Ski trip, Go karting, Main bunga api, Raya Celebration, Malaysian Night, Merdeka Celebration.

Ahh its gonna be a busy trimester...

which will be filled with FUN.

I hope.

Zatanna yang H-O-T!

2006-08-05T16:21:00.000+12:45

Hot tak die?

She's ZATANNA, a DC superheroine. A magician. One of the Justice League Unlimited members.

Hot kan??

I'll be dressing up like her. Well, I'll wear pants of course. But I dun have the hat, and the jacket I'll wear wont be exactly like her. Feel like going to Gordon Harris to buy stuffs to make the hat. But Im too tired to go down. Plus, the cable car is closed. Lagilah malas.

Melalut melalut.. bosannye

2006-08-03T01:00:00.000+12:45

This week is our turn, the A Floor peeps to host the floor theme dinner. And I'm pretty excited to know that we chose Superheroes as our theme. Cool giler! I heard that we're suppose to wear all those superheroes/villians costume and they're suppose to give us a character. If I have a chance to choose what superhero that I wanna be I'll surely choose Hawk Girl!!! Heehee my fave character in Justice League. but those superheroines are sexy so I dont think I'd wear any of the costumes. haha!

In case you don't know, this is Hawk Girl:

Hot kan?

another one.

Anyway, I just realize that we have another 2 weeks before holidays. and during this period, there are heaps of workloads and tests coming!!! Trimester 2 is actually pendek je. baru perasan. And after cuti we're gonna have another 2 months of uni and then habis year 1. How time flies so fast kan?? And now everyone dah start buying plane tickets to go home! and I havent decided the real date to go back! I'm afraid that the tix will get more expensive soon. And now I think we can start applying for accommodation cuz the RAs leave msgs telling that we can get simon to sign for the referee part. This makes me worry more!! cuz I have to leave Weir whether I like it or not! Altho this place is far from the city(not that far, kena naik bukit je) and its so tiring to climb up the hill.. I still prefer this hostel than other accommodations. Its not because Weir House is so much better, but the fact that you don't have to worry about electricity and you won't starve if you live here. Now I dah rasa how hard it is to manage your money and its hard to live on your own. Well Im now an adult and now I have no choice. Heehee.

...If theres a genie in a bottle and I release him free, and because of that he wanna grant me wishes and I'll surely ask that I don't wanna grow up(other than I wanna be a millionaire). I just feel like doing that tau.

Its just that I think I'm still not ready to face the real world all by myself. My communications skill is still poor, so is my surviving skills. I'm now learning to be 100% independent but I realize that I'm soo slow! There are some times that I communicate with ppl very well and there are times where I just don't know what to say and keep quiet and it happens at the times when I really need to speak up! And end up having an awkward moments with others...and feeling guilty after that. It happens quite a lot while I'm here and I hate that! Plus, I'm soo annoying and irritating sometimes! Oh yah out of all things, I can't cook! Teruk kan?? iskk. sokay i'll learn. wait till I have my own kitchen.

Since Haz has turned eighteen, she can move out of Weir and go flatting with Nana! I'm soo happy for them altho I'll be alone up here in Weir. They're looking right now so I hope soon they will get one unit and I can be their everyday-visitor! heehee. best best. u guys dont mind right?

And I downloaded and installed Adobe Illustrator into my laptop so now I wish I have more time to learn and make cool stuffs from there. We'll see. heehee.

..oh yah and I have heaps of new photos to be uploaded into my Fotopages.

*sigh*

I need more time.

...and I need more IDEAS to continue blogging.

something is wrong. something is blocking my brain from producing more things. but I dunno what.

something is wrong with me. sheesh.

Busy banget!!

2006-07-30T16:17:00.000+12:45

Ahh its been a while..since the last time I posted something in this bloggie. And this one is gonna be a short one cuz I have many things to do later.

Had a few events happened this week:

1.Haz's 18th Birthday Celebration! Well WE (nana, nonie and I) are the ones who organized the whole thing! And FARIS also made his own bday surprise for haz too. And its a very HUGE one tau! Thank God everything went great!!!! And I'm HAPPY cuz HAZ enjoyed it VERY MUCH! Hope this will be the most memorable bday celebration for u Haz!
2.WMSO Gathering aka Pre-Raya Celebration. Had a NICE dinner (nasi himpit and beriyani. and loads of desserts :D. YummyYY!!) and Snapped LOADS of pictaz!!!

Anyways. Will post the pics soon! My laptop is now full with series and movies that I wanna watch.

Haih its time to catch up with my assignments.

Will get this blog updated. Sorry!!

Sickness Overload

2006-07-26T03:36:00.000+12:45

Preans says HI everyone :D He's back. yeahh people the so-called Farah's dearest lifeless boyfriend is back in service.

I feel like blogging tonite.. but my brain isnt working very well. The antibodies are having a war with the flu and fever. And now I'm super tired and I can't sleep *_*

Sheesh geramnye, when u have tons of stories to tell but u just cant write!! Ideas sume hilang T_T

This is what happened if u have flu. It slows down everything.

*....aaaaaaa*

My Preans is Hospitalized!

2006-07-19T16:03:00.000+12:45

shit happened. Im not really sure what has happened, but it sent my laptop away to the service centre. I'm gonna be laptop-less for few days.. and due to kelembaban orang sini, it may take weeks to fix it.

The suckier part is, I just delete MY MUSIC from my back up hard disk.

..and for this trimester, laptop is very important to do assignments.

waaaaaa!!! I want my Preans back

I hope everything will be alright. I dun want my laptop to be reformatted. *sobs*

I miss my Preans already. and its day 1. Wonder how im gonna survive.

Oh yah, even the toilet near my room is broken. We had flood for few days last week.. it got better but the toilet is still rosak. sheesh. Its kinda payah cuz we have to go to the upstairs if we need to use the toilet.

...semua nak rosak!

so people i'm now using Nana's. Thank You Nana!!

And please download Jason Lo- Old News Paper. Hilarious weh. Takleh bla.

...and I'm afraid I cant update my blog that often. too bad.

Cya people. I'm outta here.

Shoutout to the designer of this blog, lionheart: Thank You for visiting this blog, and thanks for the design!!!! =D

Fly High and Discover ME.

2006-07-15T11:57:00.000+12:45

Currently listening to KT Tunstall's Other Side of the World

I'm now trying to kill time while waiting for the rain to stop. The sky has been crying since yesterday. *sigh*

Did I mention that I met Faris; the pet scholar from Adelaide? He's actually a friend of the lads. He's a nice guy, very funny and had cool childhood stories. He went back to Adelaide this morning. Didnt get the chance to say a proper goodbye; cuz I was asleep that time. And he gave me something from Aussie; a boomerang keychain.

He made me think, why don't I start collecting stuffs like those? I mean those natives stuffs. Aborigines Boomerang, Maoris Poi, and when I fly to maybe the Pacifics, or the Hawaii I can buy myself something that resembles the native culture.

Talked to Haz just now, and we were thinking of going to Vietnam one day together. And before we fly back to Malaysia, we're planning to go to Melbourne. And while checking out the tix, I'm thinking of going to Queensland, go to the theme parks and try all rides that I can. And while we're still here, we would like to travel and conquer parts of Australia, especially those parts that I have not reach yet; like Adelaide, Sydney.. Tasmania. Theres plenty of things I'd like to do if I reach those places. Ah and I feel like flying to Bali, or Bangkok, or maybe Jakarta.. just to shop till I drop! Cheap stuffs kan:P And I feel like going to Munich just to see Nuha, and see the places of course ;) Where else? Well, I'd love to go to Dubai once again, or maybe Egypt, or maybe somewhere on the other side; Seoul, or Japan! And when I'm working, I'd like to be the Almighty guest; I wanna do my Hajj. umm and I'd loovvee to tour around Europe. Shud be fun!

But before all these, I'd wanna conquer Malaysia first. Shame on ME! I havent gone to Kelantan, Terengganu, Sabah and Sarawak. haih.

So, because of the end-of-the-year plan, I have decided, not to go far during the August term break. The furthest I wanna go is the Ski Trip with MUSVW & WMSO. If there's one. So its venturing Wellington time! and also work more hours to get more money for November.

Its the first week of second trimester, and now I'm starting to think about TRAVELLING again! How I just LOOOVVVVEEE to see places. *sigh*

Watched Project Runway last night. I adore those fashion designers with their superb designs. But there are a few, like the Santiano's(cant remember his name.. correct me if I gt his name wrong) which I dont really fancy. The episode I watched was a task where they're suppose to design 3 lingeries, and the Santiano's in my opinion were too much for under garments. But he's not the one who gt eliminated. The other guy, Daniel I think was the one who's out from the game. Well, to me his designs were nice cuz I like laces, but no creativity cuz the designs of 3 lingeries were quite the same. eheh.

What if now, instead of doing commerce, I chose designs as my course that I wanna pursue? Will I succeed? From the show I know my talent is not good enuff to even be in that field! I envy Adam, for the creative talent he has. And I know those talents came from our parents. My mom has passion in Arts; Painting and Embroideries. My dad? Altho hes in the corporate field, he snap great photos!Ohh! And I envy his skills in Chess. Well even Luqman plays chess better than me! I suck! damn. Does chess needs creativity to win? yeah. in a way.. the strategy needs creativity too. From luqman, I can see the creative side of his from photography, and his acting. He acts so well. lol! and I can see he thinks differently. hmm. What about firdaus? Well.. he's still young so I didnt see much from him. Not yet.

I wish I'm as creative as them. Why can't I be like my mom. Well, I'm a girl and I shud sew better than Adam. But he does ribbon embroidery and I dont even know how to do it! Or why cant I snap nicer photos like my dad&bros?

hmm I think I'm gonna start doing some testing on myself. Just trying to discover the creative part of me. Let's start with photography.

...so then I can start trying more on embroideries and sketching.. and the list goes on. See what I can do best.

Thats all for now. Better get ready for dinner and Pirates of The Carribean. Wheeee!

Tagged by Kid

2006-07-15T00:31:00.000+12:45

WHEN YOU LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR, WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU LOOK AT?
~My face. Check pimples huhu

HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU?
~ ...ZERO! *eeekk!*

WHAT'S A WORD THAT RHYMES WITH "TEST"?
~BEST. TEST BEST LA WEI. NOT!

FAVORITE PLANT?
~Cherry Tree. cuz I LOVE Cherries. haha.

FAVOURITE GREEN PERSON?
~Whats 'Green Person'?

WHO IS THE 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST ON YOUR CELL PHONE?
~Ali

WHAT IS YOUR MAIN RING TONE ON YOUR PHONE?
~Happy Tree Friends Theme

WHAT SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
~Red shirt. with black tee on top

DO YOU "LABEL" YOURSELF?
~naah.

NAME THE BRAND OF YOUR SHOES YOU'RE CURRENTLY WEARING?
~Not wearing any right now..

BRIGHT OR DARK ROOM?
~Bright :)

WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT?
~Talking to Lukas kot.

WHAT WAS YOUR LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED ON YOUR CELL?
~Nana was asking for a favour; to bring the rain jacket to class for her.

DO YOU EVER CLICK ON "POP UPS" OR BANNERS?
~haha. yah.

WHAT'S A SAYING THAT YOU SAY A LOT?
~..can't recall any

WHO TOLD YOU THEY LOVED YOU LAST?
~addam the black bro

HOW MANY DRUGS HAVE YOU DONE IN THE PAST THREE DAYS?
~is chocolates considered as drugs? if yes, then I just had some jez now

HOW MANY ROLLS OF FILM DO YOU NEED TO GET DEVELOPED?
~i used SD cards. hahahaha

FAVORITE AGE YOU HAVE BEEN SO FAR?
~no fave age.

YOUR WORST ENEMY?
~Myself ;P

WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE?
~WMSO Group Pictha

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE?
~tah ape tah cakap tadi cant remember

IF YOU HAD TO CHOOSE BETWEEN A MILLION BUCKS OR TO BE ABLE TO CHANGE A MAJOR REGRET?
~I'll choose a million bucks. no regrets ;)

DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
~yes, i do.

THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO?
~KT Tunstall's Stoppin The Love

WHOM I WANNA TAG?
~Whoever reads this thing.

Takde Mood laaa wehh.. isk.

2006-07-12T00:39:00.000+12:45

MP3 Playing: Franz Ferdinand - The Fallen *Current Fave*

Its the 3rd day of school. And I still can't change my mind set back to "Schooling Mode". I'm still in the mood to.. actually do nothing. Just sit around and spend my time with my laptop. Yes, I'm on Lazy Mode. I had a 2 weeks of Eventful Holidays. So I don't have the time to really sit down, mengadap laptop and relax.

I've been trying to blog for the past few days, but unfortunately I can't. I don't have the mood to write. And now I'm trying to finish a post, just to get the feel of crapping in here, cuz I'm afraid that I might not have the time later on. So its better to write now. And do the other stuffs later. heehee.

Mari mengimbas kembali...

We travelled, from Wellington to Christchurch to Queenstown and to Dunedin. It was totally a tiring and a high-cost trip but the whole journey worth every penny I spent. Well, Christchurch was NICE, Queenstown was AWESOME and Dunedin was FUN! Along the way, we even sempat made our own version ofKorean Drama, we're being brave and crazy to do all those crazy activities, and being supportive to WMSO(Wellington Malaysian Students Organization).

Christchurch was the 1st destination we stopped after a flight from Wellington. We're greeted by Annie and Farid and was served great meal from the guys and brought to the city for picture snappings and tour around Christchurch City by Mun, Annie, Che Ah and Rahim. We had a very good time touring around altho the first plan was cancelled, due to the bad weather. Thank You Guys, The CHRISTCHURCH Lads. You guys rock!

The next day we took an 8-hour bus ride from Christchurch heading to Queenstown. The ride was great! LOVE the scenery! And we lost Nana for awhile. Its a long story and thank God nothing bad happened or it will ruin our whole trip, and it was funny.

Queenstown was my favourite destination ever! Its the place to do all sorts of activities, from sight seeing to extreme stuffs. and every angle u turn u'll see how beautiful the place is; it was totally amusing! Altho I didnt have the chance to do Bungy Jumping (I was too ambitious cuz I'm aiming for the Nevis Bungy- the highest bungy jumping in the world) but hey I did Canyon Swing, I spinned 360 degrees on the Shotover river with a Jet Boat, I flew high on a Helicopter and Hang Glide! And I visited the sheeps for the second time :)

Few days spent at Queenstown, so on tuesday, we took a bus to Dunedin; where the BERSATU Games were held at. Dunedin is SUPER COLD! I walked up the Steepest Road in the world, enjoy the smell & taste of chocolates at Cadbury World, and cheered for WMSO! Unfortunately WMSO didnt win this time. But I salute them all! They can tahan the cold, played almost every game they can, and support each other. Well, I had fun watching and cheering :D Altho nana, haz and nonie were kinda malu with me cuz I like to move around like a penguin, and whenever I had chocolate, i'll be more hyper and high, which will make me jump around like nobodys business. heh.

So now we're back in Wellington. Its good to be back :) I really miss my duvet, my room, my Woosh.. and the weather here. Its warmer here. Heh.

But somehow I miss Queenstown. I would love to go there again! And do bungy jumping *wheee*

Juju was surprised that I love extreme activities. Well, apart from spending my time in front of my laptop doing a lot of testings, apart from laughing and talking all day long, apart from enjoying the music and movies and tv, apart from travelling, apart from photography, I do love extreme activities.

Oh yah, I gt my CAMERA already!!!! wheee~!! so now all I have to do is to get myself a pair of camera batteries and start enhancing my skills. hehe.

But I'm afraid I dont have much time for those. Its because I'm taking 2 INFO subjects this trimester, one ACCY subject and the last ECON paper that I have to take. And I know the workload is going to be.. banyak.

Well all I have to do is to stay focus, and constantly do all the work.

Argh I'm tired.

...

Listen to the games they play. --Craig David's Walking Away

2006-06-27T10:42:00.002+12:45

Today is Tuesday. Tomorrow is Wednesday. The Day after tomorrow is Thursday :D

I can't wait!!!! Its like our Official Term Break Road Trip! Haz, Nana, Nonie, Beng and I are going down south to Christchurch, Queenstown and Dunedin. Yeay!!

I had enough of crying over something that is not there anymore. I wanna jump around and go crazy without thinking about my cute lil cat Mendiang Martin. Well, he's gone forever and I shouldnt like moan or do something stupid cuz that wud never make him to come back. But thank God I have my friends with me, that wud cheer me up everytime I'm with them.. plus Aimi was here and Aca is still here. They rock. Thanks to all of u. Thanks to Ali (the cat hater..heh) who Tumpang Sedey upon Martin's death.

I just LOVE travelling!!! I love the planes, I love to sit in the car enjoying the view, I love to venture new places. and some cool companies wud make it more FUN to go about!!

But yeah I'm kinda worried somehow cuz this year the weather is not that pleasing. Its not actually a road trip, since Beng is not driving; its just that we're worried with the roads and the freezing weather. Its dangerous to drive and I bet the road will be slippery. But we have no choice but to take the bus; which actually we think its a safer option. The bus driver will surely knows how to drive carefully on the road like that. He/She has experience. Its not that I don't trust my friends to drive, but at the same time I can't risk anybody. I don't wanna put the blame on my own friend if anything happens. Pray to Allah that nothing will happen. and I'll try to make sure of that *Aminnn*

Read Haz's bloggie. She talked about something about trying to please everyone which ended up pleasing nobody. That makes me wonder, how do people accept the way I am? Did I make them go mad or have I done anything wrong? Well I am annoying and I can say that sometimes I tak sengaja-ly offend people. Especially friends. Cuz sometimes while talking to some of them, I just felt that they are like tak puas hati with me. Well I can be bitchy sometimes and I know how it sounds like when u started being bitchy. So I wanna take the chance here to say "I'M SORRY" to all of u who feel offended whenever I started to talk. Okay??

Haih now I started to think about my results. I'm DARN WORRIED cuz if I'm not lucky, I can get below 3, which is actually... one of my worst nightmares. I hate failures, plus the competition here will pull me down if I fail.

At the time like these, the always-unlucky Farah will definately need a MIRACLE.

So people, see yaa after the break insyaAllah. Well I'm gonna bring my laptop anyway so I might be online hehe.

Cheers.

Keseronokan dan Kesedihan. hmm

2006-06-23T18:04:00.000+12:45

At last the torturous exam has ended. I'm back alive again :D I think I've been like a zombie for the pass few days, been trying to push myself to study. Well the paper was alright for a person whos so weak in QUAN 102. I'm glad its over. Now I can just sitback, relax, holiday-ing and do all those stuffs ive been wanting to do for the past few weeks!

The post-exam celebration was F-U-N! Not like what I planned, but I had a blast *yeay*. We rented a MPV and ape lagi, ronggenglaa wei! We sent ali to the airport and said goodbye to him; he's going back to Malaysia! best gila kan?? ugh jeles. but then we brought Aimi (Nana's college good friend) to Mount Victoria, cuz she wanted to see how Welly is during the night. Now its winter so it rains like almost All the time and hanging out at the top of the hill is not a good idea at all! I just feel like flying~! seriously the wind was so strong so we're like friggin cold! But the view was Superb! well I just love the lights and when u see Wellington CBD from far, u think its a BIG CITY! u can see big buildings with lights on, many cars were moving.. cantik gile. isk.

We rushed back to the car, cuz we cant stand the wind and cold, and drove back to Montreux; to pick up Sufya. We had decided to go to Porirua for Go-KartinG!!! We played for 30 mins and it was never enuff!!!! I wished we can play for 1 hr. hehe. But now my fingers, my hands, all sakit :( muscle ache. It was my second time playing it, and I was a very furious driver back then, and this time? I can control my car very well! and I drove quite cermat weh! hehe. Well, after the man tegor-ed me to slow down.. hehe. I just love go karting and I wanna do it again. We went to the in-door go karting which is actually not really puas cuz the track was small, so I wud like to go for the out-door track one day!! I must go!!!

After that we had coffee (well I had chocolate) and went back to Montreux. We fetched Aca from the airport, they sent us back to weir... called my mom, and received bad news:

Me: Martin and Nanook ape kaba ibu?
Ibu: Nanook okay. Martin la. die kena poison kot, perut die jadi besa gile. Then we sent him to dr pet and dr kata susah dah nak do anything to him.
Me: Ye ke? alaaa. Dahtu how is he now?
Ibu: Dat day abang nak bawak die pi Dr Pet, lepas tu cari2 jumpe die kat depan rumah Ma. Die dah mati dah farah.
Me: ... what? when was this?
Ibu: er. last month.

Hari (the weir's cat) was put to sleep because he gt cancer. Because of Hari's death, I keep on talking and talking about my cats, I miss them so much. I watched the video how Martin plays fetch and post a blog entry about my cats and now? I lost A CAT!!! My family kept this news from me cuz they don't want me to think about it during exams. Well can't blame them for that cuz I'm the type who'll cry and cry and cannot stop thinking about my cats especially when I found out that any of my cats is dead.

I love martin like hell. He's like my bestfriend in the house. And now he's gone forever.

Okay heres a video of Martin playing fetch. Tribute for him:)

Martinez Lakabosk. May U Rest in Peace. 1st March 2004 - 27th May 2006
dear Martin, I LOVE U.

I miss him already.

Today we went to Lindale. Posted some photos of us. Click here to see.

Haih shit can just happened.
Im nt in the mood to continue blogging.. so..

later.

Leave Your Name Here :)

2006-06-19T23:18:00.000+12:45

Got this one from Izrin.

Leave your name and:
1. i'll respond with something random about you
2. i'll challenge you to try something
3. i'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. i'll tell you something I like about you
5. i'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. i'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. i'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. if I do this for you, you must post this on yours

Circus.

2006-06-16T15:57:00.000+12:45

MP3 Playin : Mad World - Gary Jules

Based on Wikipedia.org,

A circus is most commonly a traveling company of performers that may include acrobats, clowns, trained animals,hula hoopers and other novelty acts and the word also describes the performance that they give. A circus is held in an oval or circular arena with tiered seating around its circumference; in the case of traveling circuses this location is most often a large tent.

The circus is thought to have had its origin in Ancient Rome, where the circus was an open-air stadium where chariot and horse races and other public exhibitions where held. Briton Philip Astley is thought of as the father of the modern circus, establishing permanent and travelling circuses in Britain and Europe in the late 18th century.

I've been to a circus show before when I was very little. It was really fun u know, watching those acrobats, jugglers, fire breathers, magicians, clowns, lion tamers with their lions, other animals like tigers, birds, horses did all those awesome performances. Children will go like "whoa!!" "cool!" while eating their popcorns and cotton candies, and when the show finishes, some may say "I wanna be like them! They're cool!". Everyone will leave the enormous tent feeling happy and they enjoyed the show.

Well in the event centre, they haf rows of pictures of events that were held there. I don't think I came across a picture of a Circus show, but while I was vaccuming the foyer, I was thinking about something; is my life well-balanced?

My definition of a balanced-life:

You have ur studies & knowledge, work, social life, love life, leisure time, ur religion stuffs, sports all right on track and the most important: you're loving your life and happy with what you have.

Then I realized, I have to juggle everything altogether and balance em! I remembered last time, I had one interview for The UEM Cendekiawan Award and the interviewers asked "Do you think you're an all-rounder?"

And I know the answer is definately :NO. Why? because I realized my life is not balance enuff. Its lucky to be here u know. cuz now I'm all alone, without my parents. I HAVE to start learning to juggle all by myself. Although my parents is still financing me.. but yeah the expenses and stuff are all under me. I have to manage myself. I can't say I'm an all rounder; its because obviously my love life is zeroIm nt into sports, I'm lacking of current issues knowledge, and my life is pretty unstable. But I'm loving it currently :)

There are still some goals that I have to achieve, and I believe time is not against me. huhu.

I always LOVE to have dinner with Kid and Haz. Well, Nana is always busy with her work so she didnt has the chance to have dinner with us. While having dinner, Kid will pop out some serious shits to talk about, from politics to social stuffs to personal life and so on, which actually fun, especially when we started to imagine and being crappy. LOL.

And from the talks too, I realized that theres MANY things that I have to keep my eye on and make sure I'm right on track.

Like, how can I be sure that Im on the right path? Because people nowadays have various ways to mislead us, and being a human i can say that we are easily terpesong.

Well, Life is not easy aye? Theres always something that might twist the path and lead me to the dead end. I must make sure that Im always right on track. Which is hard. My own thoughts, perception and thinking can be change as fast as the lightning.

It is therefore I can say, we are jugglers. We have to juggle and balance the responsibilities we have. And obviously in a circus we have to work with other people. Friends and Families are like the trapeze artist; We need to believe in each other. Their performances are based on trust, because they're gonna do their tricks on air and the person A gonna catch person B. I don't think they wud do it if theres no trust. And being a performer, you have to please your audience, to stay with you and enjoy. The achievement in life is when you are happy, satisfied and can successfully balance your life, and after life and also balance your relationship with people. That is what the circus is all about, to make everybody happy and gain more profits--and that wud be a success. In your life, you will see various types of people.. and that is when you go to a circus, you gonna meet the tricky people, the animal lovers, the leader, etc.

to sum everything up, I can say Life is like a circus. Its funny, interesting and to manage a circus is like to manage your life. We need to maintain our humans relations (The audiences, the performers, the animals, all are actually connected with each other), our performances, our stand, make decisions and live a happy life.

hmm. enuff for now.
oh yah its time to dress up. Im going out tonite;a Farewell Dinner for a dear friend Sora.

Cheers people

p/s: this is only an opinion. whoever terasa again, I'm so sorry.

Fotopages :D

2006-06-12T20:24:00.000+12:45

heyy ppl. I've opened my own photoblog :) So feel free to check out and comment. I have more pics to post but that will be later; study comes first-->eccey ye lah tu.

Anyhoots enjoy :)

Click here to enter.

Sean Paul says "Get Busy"

2006-06-12T18:00:00.000+12:45

MP3 Playin: Youth Group - Shadowlands

I just got back from work. *sigh* I'm tired and I havent start studying for today. So probably I'm gonna study tonight and try to sleep early. I've gt work tomorrow at 7pm so I'll be needing the energy right?? hehe.

Talking about work, I've been looking for a second job. A more stable job that I can work during the days, probably during weekends morning so that I can still commit on Cleaning Job I've been doing currently. But it seems now I'm waay too busy with the job I have now, cuz now I'm on study break so theres more time I can contribute to Mr Keith. So I chose not to look for a job till the Winter Break ends. hmm I've sent few CVs to Wholly Bagels, BK and Reading Cinemas but none of these companies call me for an interview yet.Well not my luck I guess. hehe. I can still try after this Winter Break. For now I'm just gonna work at the Event Centre.

I wanna go to the library after dinner but the wheather is like freezing cold. Its been raining all day long. So probably I'm just gonna study in the room. Plus, I'm too tired to walk up the hill(like the library is soo far away. haha!) I think its already WINTER.

Since I'm waay too busy this week, I don't think I'd stand the chance to watch Cars this week. Too bad. I'm dying to watch it cuz I always love animations :D well its okay, I'll spare one day for Over The Hedge next week. Right after I finished my QUAN102 paper *bliss*. Tot of watching 2 movies this week, seems like I'll only watch one. Well good for me too cuz I can save $$$. heheh. I'm nearly broke (well, will be officially broke after the winter break holidays) so I think I better save ;)

Now my fellow a-levelers friends have finished their exams! It seems everyone is having F-U-N but not me. No way. I had fun too;FUN doing the reading and calculating and analysing! teehee.
Its time to Get Busy. Wash Up, dinner and study :)

Cravings for Foods, Movies and The OC!

2006-06-11T04:23:00.000+12:45

Haha suppose to talk about something else. Ended up talking about CATS. lol!

Anyways sambung balik.

The reason why I LOVE to spend time with Preans the Lappie is because I can get connected with people in Malaysia *like duhh!*, other than stalking, blogging and photo editing. And now I realized I missed LOTS of events back in Malaysia. Like.. hang outs with the crazies, cuzzies, friends.. and I heard my cuzzens are busy performing Stomp-kinda-stuffs so I really wanna watch em. Plus addam joined Theatre last semester so I missed his performances, I missed ACTORLYMPICS which were good as always, I missed those trips to Janda Baik, Bentong.

Well thats the OC(Opportunity Costs) when we chose to study abroad.

OMG lets not use the word OC. Sounds very economics.

As I was saying, I miss the events back in Malaysia. And now, I started to crave for the food too. Haih typical. But actually, I'm so craving for Maggi Assam Laksa je. Well, other than Secret Recipe's Banana Choc Cake, Hameed's Maggi Goreng Best-in-the-world (as approved by the crazies), kebi's food, mexican bun, McDs prosperity burger, Lecka2 Strawberry and Baskin Robbins Mango Tango, Laksa Teluk Kechai..etc. erk banyak. lol.

But yeah I crave for Subway's Seafood Sensation and Sushis too. argh. I just love em all. They're all good. Sushis? ah I wanna go to Equotorial!!! They had japanese buffet every saturday nite. It was a bliss. aaaah.

Lets now talk about something else.

I have another paper to go! its QUAN102. For this 10 days I'm gonna love this subject and revise by heart. I wish I can do and score!!!! heehee.

And everyone started promoting me MOVIES to watch. Like, Over the Hedge and Cars (good and nice animation movies), Fast and Furious-Tokyo Drift(as recommended by Beng), POTC2 and Superman Returns (I've been waiting for these two. aaa), and now I feel like watching Candy. It looks like one nice weird romance movie. Sounds interesting; about a guy and his love for a girl, and drugs. I think its Marijuana. Its an Australian movie. And Heath Ledger is starring ;). Well I watched Strictly Ballroom(one Aussie movie) and I Love it. So I think I'm gonna give a shot.

Well now I'm back into THE OC. what I meant by 'into' it is, I started to dl all those sound tracks they use, I started to dl the series, altho my internet connection cam tepape *grr*, Im back an emo cuz after watching The OC I sometimes turned into an emo freak, I started to fantasize how my life wud be if I were to be in their shoes?

The issues are too berat. those issues made me love the series. And how they put the songs and music into the scenes, were all good. And made me fell in love with the songs too.

I LOVE THE OC!

haha. It seems that I LOVE TVS and FILMS. I think I should take media studies. lol. it wud be more FUN. lol! Maybe I can take some electives subjects that are related to this two. But yeah I will decide whether I'll drop INFO, do ACCY only as my major and do all those subjects that I think I wanna do. And the subjects has to be related with my ACCY major. and I can take one or two Media Studies subjects just for the sake of curiosity. heheh. and I can do some INFO subjects(related to accy what. huhu) too...

..or I shud just stick with double majors; ACCY and INFO. but this decision will be made after I finish my first year.

hmm. It seems im still unsure about my courses. Blame on my undecisive attitude *sigh*.

But "a life lived in fear is a life half-lived". I shudnt be afraid of risk. Well, I took risks before. I love taking risks. But I dunno why I feel not ready enuff to make decision. sheesh. I hate to make decisions!

And I realized I LOVE to use quotes. I mean I love to adapt quotes, instead of making my own. I think I should create some myself.. based on the experiences I've been thru. huhu.

.. oh no wait. I have one: "The hard times of your life actually make your life more beautiful". Well I dunno whether theres people has created the same quote as mine. Well this one was created after all those sucky experiences my friends and i had.

hmm. La Bella Vita.

Enuff for the nite. Bat Girl needs to rest.

Nites people.

Cats.

2006-06-11T02:30:00.000+12:45

Ahh its 230 am and I don't feel like sleeping. After 2 hours of working just now, I feel so tired and yet I don't feel like hibernating. I just LOVE hanging out with my LAPTOP. As if this thing is alive aye? LOL so I gave this thing a name. SO SAY HELLO TO PREANS =D; its my mendiang cat's name. The cat that I LOVE THE MOST.

He has been living with me since I was in standard six until form five. The day PREANS died, was the day I cried like, I LOST a boyfriend? haha. It was a shocker. I mean I didnt expect my cat that I love talking to, playing with, jalan2 with to leave me in a very TRAGIC way. I remembered, the first day I met him; I bought him at Petaling Street! He was 4 months old that time. And the org kedai said he's a SHE! it was so funny when we found out that Preans is a male! We already gave him a name; Princess. So when we found out, the name changed to PRINCE TOULOUSE, aka Preans-->luqman spelt his name that way.

The reason why I bought him; cuz I just LOST Zorro. Another cat; died because he gt poisoned by a python (Note:Bangi Hills is like a zoo. We have squirrels, monkeys, pythons & cobras, other snakes like ular daun, musangs, doggies, many kinds of lizards, eagles, and sometimes even peacock is der. I wish they have Zebras too so Bangi Hills will be a cool-er place to live). I remembered the time Preans greeted me; he was in a cage, we're in front of Carrefour Bandar Sri Petaling and he keluarkan his hands to me as if he wants to shake hands with me. It was so cute!

I remembered how he loves to bathe. He will do whatever we asked him to do, as long as he's clean. I remembered how other neighbours love him, cuz he's super friendly and loves to go to the neighbours houses. Nobody complained about him cuz he didnt eat their food. Hes so choosy. He only eats the canned cat food,biscuits and his fave;Ikan Selar Kuning. I remembered he loves to follow pak guard; as if hes the guard dog. I remembered how he merajuk if he was sent to the cat shelter if we're away, how he merajuk when we brought back Yoda and Coco Chanel. I remembered the last day of his life; he watched Freaky Friday with US. It was so sedey that he actually went out that night and gt killed by those darn stray dogs. It was so... sad.

How wud u feel if one morning, someone woke u up and said "Farah, bibik nak tunjuk benda. Jangan sedey okay. Meh ikut bibik." and when u gt out of the house, you can see the white fur were scattered all over the lawn, and you can see a body of a cat, and the white fur turned red. I know it was the dogs did it. well who else? I cried. Well everyone cried. I just cannot except the fact that he's dead. And everyone who knew him, when they found out, they we're shocked and some of em cried too.

in loving memory, Prince Toulouse aka Preans. 1999~2004.

Well, I had a few more cats. And they're all have pretty weird characters too. But yeah, from 9 cats: Prince, Yoda(die hilang), Coco Chanel(died. shes a hero. died because of stray dogs too,but she was protecting her kids tht time), her kids; Cleopatra, Monty, Mexx, Bon Bon(all died-diagnosed a sickness that lead to mati), Nanook and Martin- the ones i called heros. Why? they survived from the sickness. They're my everything! huhu

Posted this pic in my previous post. Its preans and yoda

and this is Coco and her kids.

Nanook and Martin!

The topic for the night should be different. but yeah suddenly after I named my LAPTOP, I remembered Preans, and the rest of em.

I am a CAT LOVER thank you.

So now for months I'm here, I miss my cats like heaps. How I miss Martin; my best friend in the house. He's the MANJA type. Loves to share pillows, Loves to jilat2 *geli*, Loves to sit on my books, Loves to play fetch (I think these cats has dogs blood), Loves attention, a camwhore+vain+loves camera, just like his owner. lol! and Nanook? Afraid of cameras, FAT, kaki pendek(both of em are. Katik breeds kot) meow very noisily, Loves to gigit, Manja gak, Loves to share the bed with me, and he will conquer half of the bed. Very Slow. haha.

Whenever I see cats here, I'll be like "OMG I WANT A CAT! I WANT A PET!!"

I wish.

Tagged!

2006-06-10T02:09:00.000+12:45

Got tagged by dear cuzzie Iffah. hehe.

1. senaraikan 3 perkara yg sdg anda fikirkan skang??

*work.
*QUAN102.
*Aku dan Kamu.

2. makanan pe yg sedang anda fikirkan skang?

*Maggi Assam Laksa.
*Secret Recipe's Banana Choc Cake.
*chocolates.

3.senaraikan 3 perkara yg hendak anda lakukan ketika ini?

*Editing pictures.
*Blogging.
*Sing-a-long.

4. senaraikan 3 perkara x best berlaku baru2 ini dlm hidup anda??

*Exams.
*Stress.
*Gt unlucky.

5. senaraikan 3 perkara yg mmg besh yg berlaku baru2 ini dlm hidup anda?

*err..
*... ttau
*x de mende best. ni musim x best. hehe.

6. sekiranya anda nampak lelaki or perempuan yg encem or cantik apakah yg anda lakukan?

*err. tak buat ape2.

7. sekiranya anda terjatuh di tempat ramai org, apa yg anda akan lakukan?

*buat any stunts so that it looks like jatuh main2.

8. senaraikan 3 org yg kene buat tag ni selepas ini...

* Kid.
* Rowena
* Sape2 jela.

Jika Syurga dan Neraka tak pernah ada?

2006-06-09T19:44:00.000+12:45

hey everyone. I just finished my ECON130 this morning. It was okay. Lets just say if I don't score that means I didnt prepare to the fullest.

Well I don't think I did great. OR bad.

Maybe I can just get B. I dunno.

Well don't wanna think about it.

Anyways, someone sent me a song by Ahmad Dhani and the title is Jika Syurga dan Neraka tak pernah ada

Apakah kita semua, benar-benar tulus menyambah padaNya?
Atau mungkin kita hanya, takut pada neraka, dan inginkan surga

Reff:
Jika surga dan neraka tak pernah ada, masihkah kau sujud kepadaNya?
Jika surga dan neraka tak pernah ada, masihkah kau, menyebut namaNya?

Bisakah kita semua benar-benar sujud, sepenuh hati?
Karena sungguh memang Dia, memang pantas disembah, memang pantas dipuja..

Heres the lyrics. but I dunno whether I gt the whole thing.

I just want u guys to read and think.

...Insaf tak?

Nightmares.

2006-06-07T15:50:00.000+12:45

Ah I'm dead lazy!!! I'm losing focus on what I read!!!

Why do I have to read Economics? Its darn boring FYI. Well for some ppl, they find it so interesting; but NOT FOR ME!

2 days left and I dun think I'm prepared. All I did for the past few days were doing some past year questions. But yeah at least I did something right? I have to put more effort on this. I can't let myself regret again. I should be reading more and more right now.

And my sleeping routine is not normal anymore. Well like last night I tried to sleep early; at about 10 oclock so that I can wake up early this morning and started my day at abt 5 or 6 am. After sleeping for 2 hrs, about 12 nearly 1 am I woke up. Tried to sleep again but I can't. So ended up chatting and did some ECON130 questions, and photoshopped my own face*lol*. My face is soo not clean!!!! I wanna remove all pimples on my face~!!! RIMAS GILE! Until about 4am, I closed my eyes and tried to sleep. It was okay for about half an hour, but then I was like half asleep and suddenly my body paralyzed; I cant move at all. Well it happened to me like so many times already and I really hate it. To make things worse, suddenly I can see the door is half open and I can see a creature went in. A small kid- with no face!! I was so afraid and since I can't move, I can't turn myself and try not to look at the kid. Suddenly that bloody thing turn and looked at me(well I dunno whether it is really looking or not since it has no eyes!, but I know it was looking). I read all those recitals that I can remember so that I can move and so that the damn thing would not come near me. Yeah after awhile I can move again and ZaPp! alhamdulillah it was only a dream. And it was only 5am in the morning.

After that I can't sleep. I listen to some songs and surahs to calm me down, cuz I was so horrified; I can't stop shaking. Some surahs that I was listening to calmed me down and after awhile, I think about 530-6am, I fell asleep.

And ended up waking up at about 9am, feeling sleepy and super tired. So I continued sleeping and woke up at 12.

I dunno whether u guys have ever experience it or not, but there are times where I'll wake up from a bad dream feeling very tired and depressed. And the whole day will screw up. I don't really fancy my dreams, as I always had nightmares. Especially when theres like something big and make u stressful like exams coming, U tend to dream bad stuffs a lot. Like me, lately I keep on dreaming about my 'mendiang cats; Coco Chanel and Preans'*I miss them a lot*. But why I've been dreaming of them who r dead already? And when I was in form 5, I always dreamt of various ways of dying. It was all disasterous and tragical. And I always hope it wont happen to me. It was too scary. Oh yah and I dreamt of Armageddon day quite a few times. But that didnt always happened to me and I can only count how many times I dreamt about it with only one hand, but yeah the impact on me after dreaming about 'hari kiamat' is like so deep! the last time was a month ago. sheesh. It was so real.

And there are many zany times where I feel so paralyzed while I'm asleep, as if theres something that was holding me so that I can't move. Plus, whenever that happens to me I feel suffocated. I can't breathe properly and I feel like that is my last moments before God will take my soul away from me. I always asked myself "is this how u feel before u died?" I'm telling u it wasnt a good feeling at all. Some people said theres something like.. 'a thing' that was trying to himpit me and make me hard to move and breathe. But some people, like my father always said scientifically, it is because you are too tired. It happens to him lots of times too.

Maybe I was too tired and stressful.

And does that mean that I always stressed up? because these stuffs happened like most of the times. I do had happy-funny-illogical dreams but not as selalu as I had my nightmares.

I'll take all these nightmares as a reminder from God. You must remember Him all the time. and do what you should do as a Believer, as a Muslim.

Okay better get back with my ECON130 revision!

MexxMentibang Out!-->Lame tak buat ^_^

Semangat Gile.

2006-06-03T22:00:00.000+12:45

I think I have become a bat; I slept during the day and awake all night.

*Hahaha!! I'm NOW a BATGIRL!*

Anyways, after this I'm gonna go to work for about 3 hours and come back with a Redbull *hopefully* to finish off my econs tests once and for all.

Theres another 4 tests left.

I hope I can finish everything by tonight, so that I can rest the whole day tomorrow. I need to start revising ECON130 on Monday. I don't want to screw everything up again. I don't want to keep on worrying and babbling over the same thing. I don't want to say 'if only' after I finish the test.

Its time to get ready. Ready to work, ready to stay up all night and ready for everything.

I'm NO LONGER Farah the negative thinker.

heehee

Tears and Pain.

2006-06-03T13:21:00.000+12:45

I just came back from the FCOM110 test. *sigh* I'm so relieved but at the same time I just can't stop worrying like mad.

Called my parents last night just to ask for some opinions. Well, they can't help that much, cuz they're not familiar with the NZ commercial enviroment. Well it went well when I was talking to Ibu, I can control my emotions while chatting with her, But then suddenly Ayah asked "hows everything? okay?". That question really strikes me. I can't describe my situation that time. I dunno whether he realized that my tone when I answered "okay" changed. But I hope not. Thank god we're on the phone, not on skype or else he might realize my watery eyes.

OMG. I'm so worried that I might fail them.

They spent so much on me. And they're gonna spend more and more.

I need at least a C for my FCOM110. aminn.

Ah my head hurts. The skin at the back of my head starts to ache. Jerawat naik. I'm emotionally unstable. I started to be VERY sarcastic and TOTALLY annoying.

Even crying will not make me feel better. ish.

I feel so slow. Terase cam bodoh gile. aaaa.

No no. I'm gonna score. Aminn

Craziness+Emo = Weird to the MAX

2006-06-02T01:15:00.000+12:45

oh yah. I feel like posting another entry. haha.

guess what??

I LOVE going to the Library to do my readings. I dunno but I can concentrate better there!

Well, I'm gonna take it as an improvement :D

"a big round of applause for me"

yeaaaayy

I'm happy for myself.

and at the same time, I'm emotionally unstable til I feel like crying.

oh yah and im dead. Weir House is currently playing the game Assasin. Its the game where we're gonna get a name of another resident each and hunt them down, tap em on the shoulder and shout "BANG!". Today its the fourth day playing it, and Im dead, right after lunch. My own room, bathrooms and dining hall are the safest place in Weir, so I gt killed as I stepped my foot away from the dining hall. hows that? And I didnt manage to kill anybody. I'm such a sucker. I can't be an Assasin. I can't even lie so I think I can't be a congirl. Hmm maybe I should learn and be a Hacker. or maybe then I can go up to another level and be a Cracker. Who knows? hehe.

Oh yah and last nite I've proved myself that I'm so paranoid. Theres 2 guys following me, so I was so scared and freak out cuz I tot one of em is my killer!!! I ran and scream "NOOOOO". and I heard one of em shouting "yeaaahh" so I quickly unlock the front cookery flat door and ran to my room! It was Byrne. and his friend. They're following me cuz they're so curious to see whats inside the locked door in the cookery flat. They just wanna see our rooms. Ah darn I'm so paranoid. It was soo embarrasing!!

hmm. my room is back to messy-mode. So after FCOM110 test I'm so gonna clean it up again, and I'll snap pics of my room, and publish it here.

okay enuff for now.

I feel like doing one shout out:

Hey to the readers of MY BLOG, thanks for reading!!!!! and if you please, leave a comment or tag me cuz I'd like to know those who love to read my blog! heehee. Thanks again, and keep on reading!!

Oh yah if u guys are bored with my posts, PLEASE LET ME KNOW OKAY!!!

to Haz and Nana, my dear Mean Girls that I love like heaps, its been 4 months I'm living with u all, and I'd like to say THANKS for everything. U guys are the best!!! :D and I know u guys can score! whee

to Ali, Shaz, Daz, Nonie, Beng, Husna, Kid.. Good luck okay. U guys rock my socks! altho I kene buli je.hehe

to the rest of welly people, All the best for ur coming exams. Well, I had SO MUCH fun with you guys. U guys made me love Welly more. Ahh glad that I finally chose Vic Uni. Weir House ppl; Sora, Chiyo, Melissa, Richard, Lucas, Kapahaka team.. those who knows me, I'd love to say thank you. I LOVE WEIR HOUSE. WMSO ppl, U GUYS COOL laa. hehe. Keep on rocking. And all the best for the BERSATU GAMES!!

to my family & cuzzies, the crazies (The bros, Juju, Abu, Aiman, Ali, Ansar) and our mothers, to my friends back in Malaysia (azah, ika, qeela, aamir, fazuin, eliza, fuz, syaril, nuha, meena, ana.. etc), I MISS U ALL.

to Fash, I love u.

and to all, SORRY for everything. if i'd done something wrong ke ape ke.

I feel weird, cuz suddenly I feel like expressing this shout out to everyone.

Its a sincere thing okay.

Ahh Anggun - Kembali is so good. at last I gt this song :) I love it as much as I love jentayu. oh yah and Tangga - Terbaik Untukmu is also good. I'm so into Indon Songs now. Anyways thanks to fash for introducing me Tangga and Dygta songs.

Muahx to all

I'm Crazy!

2006-06-02T00:02:00.000+12:45

haa I'm blogging while studying again. Well, altho I can do something that is more important(supposedly) like... revising FCOM110? but yeah this is one way for me to relax for awhile, especially when U know u're stressful. Cuz there are symptoms that show. I started to get all those stress-related diseases if I'm too tensed up. Shud be a good thing, cuz at least I know when to chill out. haha but the thing is, I never cool down so easily.

Having a hard time? hmm YEAH.

The pressure is like so GILA.

The exams, the desire to score, pressure to read all those stuffs that is DARN BORING, the need to have scholarship, argh they keep on bugging me!! ugh tensi.

Well Ibu called and she's advise me to try to love all three subjects I am taking this trimester. Yeah FYI, none of this three subjects really interest me. I had to do all three cuz they're all core subjects. No choice but to take all three. Sadness.

Well, by saying this I hope the next trimester would be a better trimester for me, cuz I have interest in accounting and computing stuffs. So ACCY111 and INFO subjects should be my thing. Altho I have to do A LOT of work.

My inner voice keep on saying "Think positive, Farah. Think" over and over.

But my negative mind refuse to.

...

I think I'm crazy. *eek* this is scary. I'm weak too. Weak and Crazy. Aaaaaa

...

Its okay I'm gonna be strong! yeah Farah has to be strong!! Confident! Work hard & smart! Strive to shine! yeah! yeah!

I'm talking to myself again.

Ugh a message from Muslim Student Association, abt Quran reciting thing again.

Guessed Im gonna miss it again. Ahh period.

hmm. okies better continue reading. I need to cover at least all Info Systems stuff (cool stuff) and half of public policy thing (err).

I miss MY BROS. I heard em all jez now. geez they're all HAVING FUN! while I'm here stuck with EXAMS.

Oh yah Abu is on his way from a semi-final debate competition. I hope he wins, and thru to the final round. Amin!! So since he's a STARian, I shall support STAR too. SO GO STAR!!!!!

The one in the middle is Abu. Go Go Abu! Oh yah if u're reading this, Nana said u're cute. lol.

aah I miss JUJU. I miss IKA. I miss IBU. I miss AYAH. I miss MAK, NANA, EZAH..ala the whole lot of em. I miss AUNTIE SALMI.. AUNTIE NAB.. AUNTIE NORINA.. MAK LONG.

I miss THEM ALL.

to UNCLE SHABUDIN, Get well soon :)

TRUE IDENTITY?

2006-06-01T00:17:00.000+12:45

I know I am supposed to be revising my ECON130 since I have only a few days left before the dateline (This Sunday)for the online tests and on Saturday, I have FCOM110 test which I need to do MY BEST(ugh) to make sure that I can pass the test.

But now, I can't seem to do anything cuz my mind was bothered by the inner voices of mine, saying "weh nak tulis blog! please Farah please!!".

So I'm here just to 'lepas gian'. heh.

Okay I've been stalking on other people's bloggies and theres A LOT of things I need to do for myself.

Number One
I Need to IMPROVE my English. Therefore I need to do MORE readings and practice my SPEAKING. I ENVY the girls and guys who have been writing with interesting posts with SUPERB English. I just ENVY them. I know MY POSTS are somehow very LAME and NAIVE and SO NOT INTERESTING! darn. .:Jealousy!:.

Number Two
I Need a CAMERA. A Brand NEW and COOL camera which I can start taking some cool photos to edit. Addam has a photoblog, which he'll put those cool photos he took where ever he goes. And I just LOVE to do that too. I have a lil interest in PHOTOGRAPHY i guess. Runs in a family? heehee. Maybe. Luqman LOVES photography, even Ayah is a very good photographer, and loves to do like what Abang usually do. To have a few beautiful snaps of pictures rreallyy makes me HAPPY :D

Number Three
I Need to BELIEVE in MYSELF. My LOW SELF ESTEEM really pull me down. I sumtimes mad at me cuz I always think I have no TALENT at all. I need talents to make me proud of myself. But yeah I'm such a loser. I'm such a sucker in..almost everything. But I belive that everyone has their own talents.. qualities. I have not yet discovered mine. haaaa I need to do this FAST!

Oh yah another thing, I'm SO UNDECISIVE. Frankly speaking I'm not the type who believe in other people, cuz I live with a stand 'You can trust anyone, but DO NOT trust the devil inside em'. So it seems that the thing is, I dont trust MYSELF either which I think its a reason why I seem to be so UNDECISIVE. I can't decide. I'm SO UNSURE about ME. My Future?? I hope I'm sure about this ONE. I've gone this far. geez.

Number Four
I ENVY those who can write. And also those who can read and concentrate cuz I CAN'T!!!!!!!!! Argh another problem I had. I easily lose focus of anything I do. Which is not good at all. Hyper-active? I dunno!!!

Number Five
I am SO NAIVE about the WORLD. I mean, well I know some stuffs and what is happening in reality, but yeah I think I need MORE infos!! Again; I NEED TO READ. I need to know what I'm interested in. Haih.

I really need to POLISH myself and SHINE.

It looks like I'm searching for my TRUE identity.

Well.

Anyways HAPPY BDAY BENG! He's NINETEEN! mwahahhaahah!! dah tua~!

More posts will come. I have plenty to write. TAK SABA!!!!!!!!!!

If let say I'm too tensed up with my readings. I'll write some more. heehee.

but I'll try to avoid. I need to concentrate.

Cool Stuffs.

2006-05-28T02:56:00.000+12:45

for a long time I didnt listen to this song. Its hilarious and I love it. haha

please watch. enjoy! ;)

Project Pop - Dangdut is the music of My Country

Anyways watched X-Men3: The Last Stand with Nonie, Kid and Beng.

I LOVE X-MEN!!

everything is good, and fast. Angel did some lil appearance je. Sedey.

but i still love xmen!!!!!!!!!!!

Kan best if I'm a mutant who has cool and great powers like em.

Love and Pride.

2006-05-28T00:42:00.000+12:45

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.5
Mind:	5.6
Body:	7.7
Spirit:	7.5
Friends/Family:	6.8
Love:	0
Finance:	6.9
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

So, my life is rated 6.5 out of 10. Not so bad. Well, at least its more than 50%.

I think the reason why its 6.5 is obviously because of my 0 out of 10 LOVE life.

and here's the explanation:

Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. There is love out there for you. Seek the advice of wise people on how to go about finding it. Do not lose hope.

haha. Sounds so pathetic.

Anyways. Actually on Thursday 18th May, Nana made a bet that if I can find a boyfriend in 10 days maximum (starting on the 19th), I'll get a reward from her.

and today is the last day.

And the bet adala some relations with why I chose to change my blog layout. Haha. Love and Pride?? Before this I hardly change my blog theme to something to do with love. As far as I remember, the only time I change to a love-theme blog was in February; I use the Valentine's Skin.

So this is the second time.

Well I chose this layout for some reasons. Its very convenient for oth ppl to read cuz the font size is quite big; easy for the others to read. And the tagline for this layout too catches my eye. "Love, or Pride?". Really suits my situation that I'm facing now.

Let me tell you a story:
I've been single for years. The first relationship I had was after PMR, and only lasted for 6 months. and yeah after we broke-up, I vowed to myself that I don't wanna be in a relationship until I finished my SPM(ala typical vow for a high school student. bluek. glabah gile kan?) and yeah I didnt even bother to find a bf that time.too concentrate on doing all those studying, prefects stuffs, school stuffs, solving on my own problems with people around me and having fun with my crazy friends. Oh yah I was more interested being a cupid for others then finding myself a bf too.

Then, I entered college, and started to eye for some potentials to be with. Typical, adala crushes, a huge one pon ada but then I do nothing to get him. Cuz I'm not the type who will try to make the first move. Being a great friend to him is the most I can do. So far I can hide my feelings in front of anyone I have a crush on, altho I do talk abt stuffs like these to my close friends.

Until the end of the year I didnt make any move.

And a new year came...

I flew abroad and start a new life at a new place, still eyeing for potentials..

Months passed

..and I'm still single. haha. Friends always advice me to make the first move but I refuse to.

Its obvious that the reasons are all based on ego and pride.

Like if I said I'm afraid, I don't have the guts to make the first move.. its surely because I'm afraid of rejection. Why? Egolah kan? Tanak malu.

Most people; Friends and even My Family will always ask me questions like these:

"Dah ada bf?" "Bila nak ada bf?"

or other questions yang sewaktu dengannya.

They are worried cuz I've been single for so long.. with scandal-free and show NO interest to be in a relationship.

I'm worried too, actually.

Sometimes moodswings made me desperately wanna be in a relationship. I do have a crush on some ppl. And again I hide my feelings.. and after doing some thinking, I always tot that its a false feeling. Well, it helps for me to stop thinking about them all the time and continue with my life.

When Nana set this bet, I was so motivated to find a boyfriend.

One thing its because of ego and pride(again), cuz I wanna show to them that I can find a boyfriend.

If I continue with ego and pride, I'm sure I'll win the bet.

But I refuse to win. Because now, if I wanna be in a relationship, I want it to be a long-term clean relationship. Not because of some stupid desperate reasons.

And LOVE cannot be force. kan?

So after all these things happened, I can say that I'm actually confused. Haha. Definately Love and Pride cannot go together when it comes to developing a relationship with a person you love. So Im stuck in between. I can say that I'm not giving a space for myself to be in a relationship all because I don't wanna try to make the first move..*ego&pride*, but at the same time I hope that someone wud make a move and love me. I'm now more into slow beats, soothing melody types of songs, with pathetic yet beautiful lyrics.. err basically Love Songs. Does that means that I'm-in-Love mode?

Well, Let the time does it. Just go with the flow.

Thats the best decision. Do u agree?

I WANNA WATCH!!!!

2006-05-24T23:23:00.000+12:45

Browse thru Pink is the New Blog, and they showed The OC spoiler. That attracts me so I quickly go to The OC homepage and read the whole synopsis of the season finale.

I WANNA WATCH THE OC!!! Can't WAIT!!!!

And yeah another one, I wanna watch X-Men 3: The Last Stand. I wanna see the Angel!!!!

Take a Stand.

I love my family. I love my life

2006-05-24T22:17:00.000+12:45

After a chat with Haz and Beng, talking about my personal life (family, sick life at high school) that made me realize that my life is actually weirdly beautiful.

Why??

Its because of the wonderful experience I had with my family, especially.

For those who went to boarding school may not be experiencing these kinda stuffs, I mean the bond with friends are stronger to them as compared with the bond with their family.

As for me, I live with my family like 24/7. We eat breakfast together, we eat dinner together, we study together kat 'meja besar'. We fight with each other every single day without fail, we tease, we brag, we joke, we play, we tell stories, we laugh, ALMOST everything we do together. Before this I always think that my brothers are a pain in the ass. I can't stand them at times. We fought as if we're doing sparring at a TaeKwonDo training. But at the same time, we can laugh like theres nobody else watching us. Like we're in our own world. We sometimes behave like we're not our age (especially Adam who's 21 this year). We get scolded by my parents even though we're already in secondary school.

Even with my mom, and my dad sometimes, I fought with em. When my mom was nagging and babbling i'll try to listen and make use out of what she said. take it as a nasihat. but most of the times i'll try my best not to listen to her, shut my ears and shut up so that I wont talk nonsense. But yeah being a very stubborn girl I failed to keep quiet. I fight back instead. I was a very bad daughter. I'm a very bad sister. I always think life without them were suppose to be easier.

But I'm VERY wrong. I wish I'm still with them. Talk to them everyday, laugh at each other, brag, bahan each other, see each other everyday.

Its not that I'm dependent. I just wanna see their faces. I just wanna wake up and when I go out of my room, I'll see THEM. They're everything to me.

My family; My dad, My mom and my brothers all have different characters. I can say that my family is not an ordinary family that u'll always see. They're all weird. My mom once said that her children do not act like a normal teenager.

I tot all those were not true. But yeah again I was wrong.

I can see how different I am from the others. My taste in music, movies are actually different from my friends here. I behave differently. Most of the things are different.

One thing I'm sure I have in common with Nana and Haz especially; we are talkative.

I feel inferior sometimes cuz I'm not smart as them. But yeah I can't live in fear all the time right? Watching Strictly Ballroom has taught me something:

"A life lived in fear is a life Half-Lived"

So I have to work out and find a way to improve. I must be brave.

I realized now how different I am. but I'm PROUD being different.

Sounds so boastful kan? dont get me wrong. what I meant with 'proud' is, I'm happy being ME. I am not afraid being different. I am weird.

I should accept and love myself :D

but sometimes I just can't believe myself that I've been through so many things in my life.Until to the extend where i think my life is not real. I always ask myself, am I making up my own stories?

Be thankful to the Almighty. Its actually real. Everything are all based on true stories.

Experiences are very precious. Altho I always face problems back when I was in high school, I'm glad. Life will be so boring if its too flawless. No problems and stuffs like dat. The problems put some colors into my chapters of life. Altho I always said that Life (in high school esp) is painful

But if u look at the bright side, u'll see that your Life is so Interesting :D

One thing I hope,and I always pray to Allah, that He will give me chances to see my family again. I wanna see them and check whether they're alright.

I'll definitely going back end of this year.

At first I don't feel like going home, but My grannys want me to go back home for Summer.I believe theres silver lining in every cloud.

And I'm not ashamed to say that, I'm glad to have such cool and crazy siblings, and cool parents.

I LOVE MY FAMILY

and now im loving my life i have now. I LOVE MY FRIENDS :D

When a MOVIE ADDICT's Laptop can't read dvds=Depression

2006-05-24T13:41:00.000+12:45

I've vaccumed my room, altho i dont think everything was sucked into it, but yeah at least its not as bad as it was. I just got back from WMSO Food Stall; yeah I was helping cik Ellie selling em, and everything was sold very fast, except for Kuih Lapis, and Kuih Bakar. I bought everything except for the nasi for berbuka *yummy* so I can't wait for Maghrib heehee.

Its my third day ganti puasa, for your information.

haha kecoh gile.

Anyhoots, yesterday was a sucky day for Nana, poor her cuz the parents postponed their trip here cuz her dad has something else to do, related to his job of course. So she was so depressed and I feel so bad cuz I'm soo bad at calming people down. I gave her Howl's Moving Castle DVD that I lend from Civic Video and asked her to watch, and thank God she loves the movie. And I gave her my room for her to lepak and calm herself down.

I hope she feels better now.

Well, talking about DVDs, I still don't know what the hell is wrong with my drive reader. That day I used Haz's Anything Else and my laptop can read it. So I borrowed 4 DVDs with the assumptions that my laptop now is okay, but the sad thing was, my laptop can't read whateever DVDs I have. I feel like throwing away this laptop and get a new one. But yeah I don't have money. If only I'm rich... *sigh*. Its a HUGE problem for a MOVIE ADDICT like me u know. I really need my dvd reader to function. argh!!

The 4 DVDs were:

Howl's Moving Castle
Prozac Nation
Fight Club
Strictly Ballroom

Thanks to Nana and Haz for lending me their laptops for me to watch all these. I have another DVD left; Fight Club to watch. The other 3 were good, but I do not really enjoy Prozac Nation; cuz its about a girl who's like very depressed with her life and she became a psycotic. U can feel the same way if u're watching it. lol.

But I LOVE Strictly Ballroom and Howl's Moving Castle! TWO NICE MOVIES. I LOVE EM!! I can't wait to lend Moulin Rouge. heehee. and I feel like buying a SET of HAYAO MIYAZAKI's MOVIES--> I just love em all. So far I've watched My Neighbour Totoro, Spirited Away, Howl's Moving Castle and Princess Mononoke. Oh yah and I watched Kiki Delivery Service half way. lol!!Their story line, the animation, the characters are all superb! I'm so gonna collect em all :D Its all about FANTASY with great messages to show and they're FANTABULOUS.

My right ear hurts. Its like theres something stucked in it which I dunno what. Gee.

Okay its time to get ready for the 2 o'clock FCOM 110 Lecture.

Cheers.

naneesBOREDagain

2006-05-22T14:31:00.000+12:45

heyya ppl!!!!again today im gona menyibuk at farahs blog....well, dun blame me, im really bored coz farah i watching strictly ballroom kt my laptop hehehe.

so today for te first tym i jz didnt feel like going for breakfast. i jz cudnt wake up!ni mmg koncked out trusla ni.

last week was a very challenging one, i had kickboxing classes and hockey training to attend, had to go to the gym to make sure i can lose sum weight before my prents come, had some job interviews in the morning, class til evening n then kickboxing or hockey and kapahakka practice.

crazy kn?i noe!tell me abt it!on friday plak i worked from 3 to 6. after work i was sooo tired, i slept after dinner n had a headache so decided not to go for ejas surprise bday partay huhu sorryla eja, but lucky the nite before dat i dah crash in her place wit beng, husna n large creator pizza, YUMY!!!

so dat nyte i stayed in bed n suddenly sumone nugded me!!!ey, guess wat?its Imran!!
haha i really hope di xkn bace my blog.like me, he oso jz woke up from his evening "nap"..ish3 bdak ni kn suka tido la....so opposite me, i dun like to oversleep coz my dad always pointed out dat it is such a waste to spnd ur day sleeping when there's actually alot of other thigs u can do.but well, if ur staying palmerston north wat do u expectkn??its so bOOOOring!!!!!ahahahha

when his dinner was ready, he went off for dinner so i chatted wit sum frens and suddenly he decided to call me la plak kn???yeah hes having a problem.so being a gd fren i was, i lent my ears to him and gave him sum advice which i tot was gd.we talked for about 3 hrs i think!but yeah, i didnt give my full concentration coz i was chatting wit imran all the way from begining of the conversation.but dun get me wrong !i dgrla but xdela word by word asalkn i get wat hes trying to say dhla kn??kn??the fon call ended around 4.30 and i chatted wit imran til 6++...god i was acting as if i xkeje plak dat morning ahaha!!!i woke up at 8.40 and left for work.

work was damn tiring!i stood for 9 full hrs!!!balik2 gi kapahakka lak which ended around 9 so cam okla.dhla i think i shud go n bathe now, my clas will start in abt a hour ehehe.lets jz hope mlm ni imran tego i.he is always soooooOOOOO bz!!!!

International Night

2006-05-22T11:54:00.000+12:45

Well INTERNATIONAL NIGHT was F-U-N!! I can't believe myself that I actually did it :D heehee. altho I feel funny doing it for I dunno what reason, but yeah I gained something didnt I?? New Zealand is one of the countries that still maintain their native culture, which is somehow very good.

We didnt manage to snap some pics while doing the performance, unless KID took it which I doubt cuz I didnt see her that night, but there are some pics that we took before and after the performance. heehee. camwhores will not forget to take photos kan? lol.

Anyhoots, the night started with The Powhiri. There are some ritual things happened in the Powhiri. The Kapa Haka team(the host n hostess) will welcome the visitors, and then we sang them a song, Haere Mai(with actions-->cool aye??)

Haere Mai
Haere Mai, Haere Mai,
Haere Mai, Haere Mai,
E nga I wi e, Haere Mai,
Kirunga O, Te Marai,
Hui Mai Tatou Katoa,
E hine Ma (E hine Ma),
E tama Ma (E tama Ma),
Hapainga O Te Mana Maori E,
Tiaroha Tino Nui,
Ia Ha Ha,
E nga I wi e, Haere Mai,
Haere Mai,
E nga I wi e, Haere Mai,
Haere Mai.

Haere Mai is the welcome song.

After more speeches from Moi and Areti, we had dinner, which were, okay. But I can't help myself from lauging when I saw a filipino food i think with the name 'Chop Suey' and This jelly snakes from Australia. cool Aussie food. Funny.

Then we changed from our black outfits(for Haere Mai) to Parae, Piu Piu and Poi. Its time for Kapa Haka. I was so NERVOUS and EXCITED at the same time. We started with the song He Kakano Ahau (Born of Greatness)

He Kakano Ahau (Born of Greatness)
He Kakano ahau
I ruia mai i Rangiatea
And I can never be lost
I am a seed born of greatness
Descended from a line of chiefs
He kakano ahau

Ka tu ana ahau
Ka uhia mai e oku tipuna
My pride I will show
As you may know
Who I am
I am a warrior, a survivor,
He morehu ahau

Chorus(We only sang the chorus):
Ki hea ra au e hitekiteki ana
Ka mau tonu i ahau oku tikanga
Toku reo, Toku ohooho
Toku reo, Toku mapihi maurea
Toku whakakai marihi
My language is my strenght
An ornament of grace

The song ended very nicely. We changed the formation to the Poi Dancing position, singing the song Whiti te marama e te po:

Whiti Temarama e te po:
Whiti whiti a na e
Temarama e te po
*repeat*

Whiti temarama i te po
Tiaho iho mai koe
Hei karu mo te mata o te po

Too ana tera kite moe e
Tiaho iho mai koe
Hei karu mo te mata o te po

Ki te kore koe te karu o te po
Pouri ana taku ara e

Hoki ana ahau kit e moe e
Tiaho iho mai koe
Hei karu mo te mata o te po

Whiti whiti ana e
Temarama e te po
*repeat again*

..and carry on with the Haka. And supposely a speech from Moi, but he forgot. lol!
it wasnt as obvious that he left it tho.

So the performance ended smoothly. I thank God that I actually did it, altho I don't really feel good about it. I had fun, but yeah cuz I wasnt comfortable with my tudung. It kept on bugging me all the way thru the performance. But yeah its only a minor problem. I wanna watch the whole thing again. I'm gonna ask from Mahina for the video. And I wished I don't look funny doing it, cuz I keep on pulling my scarf to the back which I shudnt do during the performance. Haih. But I still had fun.

To the Kapa Haka Team(as if u're gonna read my blog wahahhaha) Thanks for letting me be part of the team. I really had fun and I love doing it again. I'm proud of myself cuz I did it, I don't wanna think of the bad parts of it, cuz I think I've tried and its 80% perfect (i think.. I wanna watch the video!!). Thanks to Marai for a good trainings u gave, and thanks to Mahina for giving me the opportunity to learn your culture.

An unforgettable experience. I'll try not to forget the songs and moves. I might buy the Poi and practice.

I LoVe Aeotearoa. Heehee :D

Now I feel like NZ is like my second home.

But at the same time, I feel bad for not introducing Malaysia to the Weir House people. I wished I have MORE time to actually learn a bit of the moves. I feel really bad.

I shud have just ajaked the girls and asked everyone to sing Rasa Sayang, as Kahou knows the song. and Kristy knows Apa Khabar and Khabar baik. These ppl are so COOL!

Or I shud have do some Joget Lambak. hehe.

Well, other performances were good too. I love Alana, Jimmy and his bands performance. The Samoans were good too. And fun. Sora was very brave to go alone in front and perform all by herself, WITHOUT PRACTICE! I'm so proud of her. I really do. :D

Overall, I LOVE INTERNATIONAL NIGHT!!!!

Here are some pics I have:

continue blogging...

2006-05-19T01:09:00.000+12:45

Haih Kapa Haka was cancelled due to the absence of many people. They're too busy to practice tonite. So we changed the practice time to Saturday Morning.

Altho theres no Kapahaka *sad* but yeah I have my own sweet time to CHAT, BLOG, STALK, READ and do whatever I like in the room all by myself!! :D But yeah Nana will be back soon and she said she wants to talk about A LOT of stuffs.. well u know.. Updating ourselves. Altho we see each other, brag each other like everyday, we didnt have the time to sit down together and talk.

Tomorrow is going to be a day with Haz, window shopping at the Kirkcaldie and Stains Sale!!!! yeah I dun plan to buy anything, but theres some stuffs that I think I really need for winter, like More thermals, woolen panty hose, and a bubble jacket. Well that day I went to the airport, and it was raining hard, and the strong wind came from the south. Since the airport was right beside the sea, so we can see how hard the wave hit the pavement at the side. And when we walked to the cargo centre and back to the bus stand, it was VERY cold and I feel like flying. It was really really bad. I mean the weather. And its still autumn. I wonder how winter will be like? geez.

But yeah everything is darn expensive now. Although now im working, Im nt earning as much as the rest. it is becuz my friends work more than me. The most I can work is up to 9 hours. It depends on the events and my time. So I hope after the international night, I can gain more. heehee.

Now is like, everyone into working. haha. we have to earn more money so that we can buy whatever we like. cuz like now, when u passed the shops along Lambton Quay and Willis St, u'll be tempted with stuffs that they sell!! I always pass Kimberleys, and damn the stuffs on the display we're like 'OMG SO HOT!' but yeah its darn expensive so I dont have the guts to go into the shop cuz I MIGHT buy something. And even if u passed the surfer brands shop, the stuffs there are cool too. even glassons, jayjays etc have loads of cool stuffs which I cannot buy :( huhu. Oh yah and now everyone is like aiming to work so that they can spend the money for the winter-break roadtrips. We're all gonna head to the south and like us, we're gonna support WMSO for the BERSATU Games!

anyway, now Da Vinci Code is out, and we cant watch it this week, most probably. We're too busy. haih. I cant wait to watch, altho I never read any of Dan Brown's books. hahahhaha. Well, i'll start off with Angels and Demons.

Wish me LUCK!!

Oh yah. This is for ALL OF YOU. If your picture wasnt in it, that means I dont have ur pics.

dled Imogen Heaps Album. Awesome

Enjoy everyone :)

when I really feel like BLOGGING.

2006-05-18T20:12:00.000+12:45

Life has been very hectic for me. I wish I have more sleep, altho I feel like I've slept forever. I wish I can just sit and spend more sweet time in my room, keep the room clean the whole day. I wish I can just sit on my precious bed (that will be change to a new one soon since Simon wants all the old beds to be change to a new one)reading the online comics, editing some pictures and maybe create a picture slideshow using movie maker, blogging or watch Scarface which has been in my lappie for quite awhile.

I spent less quality time with my laptop now. *sobs*

OMG NOW I feel like I'm treating my laptop as my boyfriend.

Well, other than socializing around my circle of friends in Wellington, thats all I can do, spend more time with my laptop so that I can get in touch with the people in Malaysia and Fash.

Tonite WMSO is having Malaysian Movie Night where everyone will gather and watch a Malaysian Movie together. And today they're going to watch BULI BALIK starring Afdlin Shauki and the gang :D.

I wish I can go, I LOVE BULI BALIK and I don't mind watching it over and over. I'd love to go and socialize with the rest of Malaysians here. But yeah I can't. I'm on duty tonight, plus I have Kapahaka practice which is SOO important to me cuz we're gonna perform on Sunday during International night.

Hmm about Kapa Haka, the practice has been FUN!! As I'm now living in another country which is not my home, so I should be learning some of their traditional thingies and customs and stuffs like dat rite?? so this is one opportunity that I should grab and learn!! well, the Kapa Haka teammates are all cool! heehee. And to learn songs that u're not familiar with, to learn the poi dancing especially are like a BIG challenge tau. But its totally fun!!!!!! I'm like the jakuns especially when I watch the last year video and watching the pros did all the poi thingies. Jeles seyyhhh!!!! I wish I can be like them. I think I'm gonna learn the whole poi stuffs and maori dances. What an experience!! I hope everything will be almost perfect, no flaws while performing this Sunday. Wish me LUCK!!

Anyhoots i'll post up some pictures and some lyrics of the songs I learnt soon!

Another busy night cuz I have Kapahaka practice, and Im on duty. But I guess it wudnt be as bad as yesterday. So it wont be as tiring :)

What happened yesterday???

I got up at 7 sumthing AM after sleeping for like.. 4-5 hrs (was busy finishing my QUAN 102 assignment that night so I slept pretty late) and siap2 for a work out @ Rec Centre with Nana and Haz(at last pegi jugak si Haz ni). Haha yeah I can say I'm now 'trying' to lead a healthy life. Seriously i think if I dont do anything to myself, my tummy will be as round as a ball! So like this week, I've been to the gym 2 times which is a progress actually, cuz before this I seldom go there. On tuesday I went with Nana and we joined Step class. It was FUN yet TIRING and my right leg hurts.. prolly because of the muscleache. Maybe I did took a wrong Step. huhu. But yeah I do LOVE group exercises cuz Ive been joining Yoga and Aquarobics back in Malaysia so I can't wait for next trimester where I CAN join group exercises in the evening :D *wheee* Ok back to my story, after the 45 minutes work out we went back to Weir and had breakfast, and when we gt back to our rooms, I listened to the voice msg from Mahina saying that we're not gonna have the sleepover @ the Marai. Due to the cancellation of practice @ the Marai, I called up my employer and made a stupid decision; I accepted the offer to work at 1 AM that night. I know its crazy, but yeah working at the event centre as a cleaner, u cant expect to only gt jobs at earlier hrs. But yeah I cud've just rejected it furthermore I know if let say IBU finds out(the tendency for her to read this blog is very low..no worries ;)) I'm sure she'll kill me. I dunno sometimes I just make a very wrong decision. Even if I follow my intuition, the results will be not satisfying. Im Indecisive. I cant decide. I know that being an accountant or if U wanna be in a corporate world, U have to make decision. I'm doomed.

On the other side, I think the decision I made somehow is right. I mean for this 1AM job. Cuz like the 1st week of working, I only work once a week, so I kinda trying to make it up to the employer, well who wants to show to their employer that they're not interested to work right??? So since I cant work on Sunday, so I chose Wednesday so that I can work 2 times a week this time. at least 2 time. Well I hope after the international night i can just concentrate on studies and work. it wud be better!

After I went to the 3 lectures for the day, I went back, had dinner, and went to the INTENSIVE KAPAHAKA PRACTICE which ended at 0000 hrs. Gile kan?? After the practice I went bk to the room and gt ready for work. Went down to Queenswharf at about 1230am. I love going to queenswharf at night because I get to sit and layan the MP3s in my Zen Micro while enjoying the calmness of the ocean at a very peaceful night. So then I worked for 2.5 hours then I asked Vincent(the other worker) to leave early cuz I'm like TOTALLY EXHAUSTED and DIZZY(I have low blood pressure). Well the work was to clean all the toilets and changing rooms and dressing rooms. So at first I tot I wasnt doing a good job. But then I checked with Husna and Beng, they're doing the same thing for 2.5 hrs. So I dont feel so bad. ahahaha.

Oh yah I WONT TAKE THE 1AM SHIFT ANYMORE. I'll TRY NOT TO. I know I made everyone worried. Alhamdulillah nothing happened. haha. SORRY TO ALL!!!!

So I reached home at about 4 am and changed to my pjs and went straight to bed, and woke up at 12! very very late. haha. But yeah I'm proud of myself cuz I didnt fell asleep in lectures!! a good progress!

And today I've got my thumbdrive back from Ali and Shaz! heehee I can edit more pictures now :D

Looking at these pictures, I just realized that I have to updates my friendster photo albums. And planning to open up Fotopages, since I edited LOADS of pics now. haha

That what I'll do when I have nothing to do. But yeah I'm now wayy to busy. Back to the busy mode. I feel like its been quite awhile since the last time I was busy; busy with my darn assignments and catching up a less-than-9-month-course back when Im in college. busy with Prefects stuff, all those clubs back in school. I was a busy women. And I should be ready for all this.

Guess that I'm not. Maybe after a few months of holiday I cant put myself back on track. yeah so far the only thing that I have to catch up now its my studies.

Oh yah I suppose to join A-floor netball team. but ended up being the supporters. Haha. Its fun tho, watching that we're leading haha!! and Jono is Super funny. And mulut takde insurance and that makes him funnier.

One story Jono that I find it funny:
Saturday night was quiet at Weir House until the fire drill triggered. Everyone tot it was a fire drill, well, its actually not. So 3 fire brigade came *how dramatic!*. Theres fire at one of the rooms at F Floor, their heater gt burnt. So the room was full with smoke and the residents didnt realize it; they were sleeping very soundly- thank god nothing happened.

So Matt, one of our RA was being the one who took control of the whole situation. So he's kinda like the hero.

And the funny part: the next day, a floor teammates were gathering to go to Kelburn Park for the Netball game. And Matt was passing us and then Jono said

"Oh look its Jesus Christ"

At first I didnt quite catch who he's referring to with 'Jesus Christ'. But after he started to thank Matt for saving all of us that night, I burst out laughing.

Lawak tak??lol!!!!

Its Kapa Haka TIME.

till then

Heyya people its me, nana yang cuteee n tgh bosan

2006-05-16T12:05:00.000+12:45

Having NANA to write a post is like having a guest cartoonist from online comics website.

So, my 1st (and prolly the last) guest blogger is: NANA

god!!!!!!!!!!im so bored....it seems that i cant find a job.....i nk keje, nk gi queenstown nk buat bungee waaaaaaaaa......well i hate to stay in my rum unless there's sumone interesting to chat wif ehehehe.....well so basically i like to crsh in farah n haz's rums when im bored which is basically all the tym but then its really sad when they dun layan me =( sad ayy?farah will be staring at herlaptop wtching comics, reading ppl's blogs, editing pictures, bosan kn????yang haz plak shesalways on the fon wit sumone either her family, fren or whoeverla.....

im so used to being in a boarding skool where i always had alot of ppl to talk to or do crazy stuf wif.....i miss opu's sarcastic remarks, i miss yameen's loud voice which i hated at that tym coz it was so fucking irritating, i miss bitching about other ppl wit diyana, i miss zeha's gossips and her never ending complicated dramas, i miss diyana again?i miss u so much deedee,i miss nish's sexy stare, i miss rinie and her raya cookie, i miss zaza and the tys we spent swimming n playing hocey together, i miss tania and her disguting habits, i miss barbie , i miss qur altho shes very weird,i miss fatin whos really a gd companion, i miss lili , i miss liana , i miss mira, i miss ain, i miss noreen arghhhh i miss evryone

eyhhh imran online la huhu....but i guess he's bz nk makan ke tido ke i pn xtau la....

Is it true that Rules are meant to be broken?

2006-05-15T07:01:00.000+12:45

Why is the MORE we say NO to something, The tendency to break the rule we made is HIGHER?

For example, the MORE I say I don't want to go out, the LESS time I'll spend in my own room - I tend to go out MORE. The MORE I say NO to SPENDING, the MORE I spend. The MORE I say I wanna forget something/someone, the HARDER it gets. The MORE I say I dont wanna see a certain someone, the MORE often I'll see THE PERSON. The MORE I say I wanna be with a person, the LESS chance I gt.

I dunno bout others, but it is happening to me.

But I realized too, that happens to the girls who wore tudung and after awhile, cabut. They'll like try their best to make sure they won't cabut tudung or 'free hair' (I wonder who invented this term. its funny). So the more they restrict themselves, the desire to be like others, the girls who don't wear hijjab will be somewhat higher. I dunno, maybe they were force to wear tudung, so they wore it without own's will, and maybe they wore it because her friend is wearing it too,or her parents asked her to wear, and for some other reasons.

Its scary u know. Cuz Im afraid I might be one of them. Well, here I'm not trying to say that Im covering my head without my own will. I feel ready for this. but yeah who knows theres one day suddenly I feel like not wearing tudung anymore. Its possible kan??

All I can do is to pray to the Almighty and make sure that I wont stop covering my head.

If theres anybody yang terasa, I'm Sorry I didnt mean to. Its just my point of view.

To the Muslim Girls, I advise u, if u're not ready to permenantly cover your head, please don't. Take your time. I'm not discouraging you from covering your head, but I don't want you to pakai and then cabut. Its like mempersendakan agama to me.

I can say that HUMANS tend to break their OWN RULES. haha.

Updates

2006-05-14T11:17:00.000+12:45

its 1030am and I'm still on the bed, doing nothing. I've a netball tournament; Weir House interfloor mixed netball coming up at 130pm. I'm playing for A-Floor. Huhu unbelievable kan?? waahahhaa.

I'm now listening to James Blunt - Fall at Your Feet (Acoustic version) gile layan tau. Knew this song from the OC: episode 14-The Cliffhanger. Watched it last nite. Gile tensi bile tengok. Johnny died. haha. actually I already know the ending for that episode, and for coming episode... until the end. The only episode that I dunno is the finale. hahaha. *Semangat*

Anyhoots, here are some updates for the last week starting from Monday the 8th until today:

Monday 8/5

SUBMITTED FCOM 110 Globalisation Essay :D. NO MORE WRITING ESSAYS FOR THE NEXT FEW WEEKS!! wheeeeeee!! huhu. Have more time to do other stuffs..esp revision. cheyy semangat! lol. Slept for like 3 hrs dat nite so suppose to get some sleep before class, or in between classes so that I won't fell asleep in the classes. But Nonie came over, so have to layan her (sounds so tak ikhlas) and we had a pretty good conversation ;). And the best part: I didnt fell asleep during classes. And I concentrate well :D. Oh yah Richard asked Haz, Nana and I to join him for dinner.. cuz he feels like having Malaysian food. And we chose friday.

Watched Desperate Housewives and Nip/Tuck -->best :D

There are so many funny thing happened which I dun feel like explaining. But I'm feeling weirdly happy! heehee.

Tuesday 9/5

Planned for the next winter break road trip. Had chocolate at Coffees and Teas. Slept at 3am cuz I did some bookings that nite. huhu.

Wednesday 10/5

Met Mr Keith; my employer :D I already have a job!!! as a cleaner at the event centre. hahahaha. Semangat gile!

Then everything went pretty well at Uni. and at Night, Najib ajak-ed everyone for MI3 @ Embassy. A good movie. Nice Cinema. And had a good laugh too. Nana buat lawak die. huhu shes funny.

Had chocolate, and then Nana, Haz, Nonie and I went to the guys' place. Had late supper(sedap :) Thanks to Pojie) and chatted till morning. Some were watching JuOn. Since I ni penakut gile, so I joined their conversation. Then watched NZ's Kuliah Pagi: The Christian Preach. i dunno but I find them pretty weird. Maybe becuz they're very into their religion which is actually good. Went back

Thursday 11/5

And slept in the morning. Woke up at about 12+, went to the classes, with not-a-good-mood. Lost my concentrations in the classes, and LOST MY PENCIL CASE, along with my fave CALCULATOR :(. Had quite a bad day. But Kapahaka practice was fun. heehee. So finished my computer clinic assigment, and slept at 230 am.

Friday 12/5

Woke up at about 8 or 9. Then I realized that it was raining outside, so I stayed in bed until 11. Then woke up and went to the gym with Nana. Had taco shells *yummy*, siap2 then sent my computer clinics assignment. I have so many careless mistakes. huhu. Then followed Haz to the airport to pick up her stuffs. Then unlucky us, she cant take her baggage because takde kastam, and we had to walk in a very cold and hard wind. I feel like flying. lol! Then Abang Ricky passed by and ajak-ed us to go with him. He sent us to Newtown and we took the bus there.. and went back home.

At night we went for the dinner with Richard. Had a good laugh- he's funny. The food were yummy :)

Then went straight to work. Keje best yet tiring. Finished at 0000 hrs.

Saturday 13/5

Jaga WMSO stall @ Kilbirnie Mosque. Gt myself varieties of food *yummy* and henna *happy :D*

Went out for coffee with Ali, Shaz, Daz, Pali, Nana, Haz and Nonie @ Dorothy. Had English Breakfast *bliss*

Sunday 14/5

Gotta have a netball tournament *GO A FLOOR!!* and Kapahaka Practice. Will learn POI!! *whee*

and...

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY IBU!!

Thats all for now. challez

Sleepyhead.

2006-05-02T12:31:00.000+12:45

Weir House had a fire drill around 4am today. Well, everyone was asleep, and knowing me, a girl who's so immune with the Alarm, Theresa had to pull my duvet and called me over and over "its a fire drill lets go".

If theres fire in this house, I'll probably die in the fire. LOL.

Im a sleepyhead. And I can't wake up UNLESS someone woke me up (especially MY MOM). Yeah sometimes alarm clocks does help, but it depends. If I'm immune with the alarm, I won't be bothered with it.

This is dangerous as I always missed Subuh. hmm.

I really need to find new ringtone to replace my old alarm tone. haih.

I should have record my mom's voice or get my mom to wake me up everyday. Like how she used to do it before. Even if she's away with my dad, she'll call me EVERYDAY just to wake me up early in the morning.

hmm.. maybe I should call and asked her to do that for me. LOL.

The OC has introduced me to a new singer, Sufjan Stevens. And his songs rocks. lol! try Chicago, Jacksonville, For the Widows in Paradise, For the Fatherless in Ypsilanti, To be Alone with You. very relaxing ;)

Being different in the Same Way?

2006-05-01T18:13:00.000+12:45

Well, after some tensing weekdays, revising (padahal 1day je study) Econs, and sat for it on thursday, I had a jolly good weekend!!

yeah it was great. We(Haz, Beng and I) went out together on Saturday, had a nice lunch, laugh our heart out, terlajak, tersalah jalan, imagining stupid stuffs, bought some stuffs and came back with ear-to-ear smile of satisfaction on our faces. back to our rooms, we continue chatting with each other at night, describing how happy we were. heehee. And The OC was good.

and from Saturday's trip, I realized that..

I have to work!

I was so ego, saying and telling other people that I dont wanna work this trisem. haha. now shame on me. I really need to work, cuz I wanna do loads of activities and travel in 2 months time, plus I wanna shop things for myself. heehee. *wink wink*

so tomorrow, haz and I gonna check out SJS (student job search) centre and see what we can do. aaaa cant wait!!

definately, I'll gain 2 precious things if I work: Money and Experience. wish me luck people!!

oh yah I've discovered few addictions and obsessions:

1. The OC
2. Fragrances especially Britney Spears' Fantasy and Estee Lauder's Beyond Paradise
3. Any goods with the scent of Lavender (tissues, laundry powder, body lotion, air freshener..etc)
4. Online comics
5. Canon in D Major(I have dled different versions of it. LOL)
6. Paua Shell accessories

and I'm still addicted to Movies, Music, Blogging, and Photo editing

I wonder when I'm gonna be VERY interested with Books and Studies. heh.

My room is clean and thats what makes me much much more happier :D

however, tomorrow I'm gonna do some research on GLOBALIZATION. I have NO idea on what to do regarding this topic.and its due on the 8th(Next Monday). And I have QUAN Assigment dues on the 12th. Hope that I can finish all of em on TIME. haih. risau2.

While I was reading comic strips from Questionable Contents, I came across this sentence:

"Being Different in the Same Way"

it kinda catches my eye. Well, when u're trying to be different but at the same time u followed some other humans ways to change urself, will it be a success to u; to be totally different from others? or is it only around ur clique or people in the same place as u are, or ur own community? hmm I wonder.. can I be totally different from everyone in the world?

ookay this is late-night crap stuffs.

nites ppl

I miss her

2006-04-28T12:10:00.000+12:45

ah its Friday again *sweet*

just had an economics test which was.. well, I'm sure whoever read my previous posts can guess what will I say about the test I took. For whoever who doesnt know, as usual I don't feel good abt it. I flunk.. again. No no i hope not!

Now I'm waiting for Haz to come back from her economics tutorial, then I'm gonna go down and take a stroll along the Lambton Quay, cuz I think I havent been there for quite awhile now.

This week Adrian Slack has been playing Canon in D Major everyday before he starts his lectures. Canon in D is my fave classical song, and now I realized it kinda helps; it keeps me awake while I'm studying. Well, longer than usual. I still fell asleep especially when I read econs. I need a lil noise while I'm studying just to keep me awake, so this song kinda helps. and now I'm downloading more versions of Canon in D, and more classical songs. huhu. Crazy.

Nana posted me a testimonial, and she sounds worried. I dunno bout u nana, but I feel tht way, I mean I think u are. lol!! cuz I've been doing my revisions in front of my lappie. one of the bad habits I have. My mom too has warned me over and over to let my lappie rest while I'm studying.

And I never listen. Obviously cuz I'm stubborn.

and I was being so defensive. lol. So now a very close friend has warned me too. There u go.

that doesnt annoy me okay. Its good. Cool ;)

Number 1 rule to consentrate: NO LAPTOP IN FRONT OF U.
Number 2 rule to consentrate: TRY TO GET ENOUGH SLEEP, and do something to keep u awake.

and now I feel bad; for not listening to my mother.

ooohh, a bad daughter I am.

Dulu asik2 gado. Now shes not here. and I began to miss her. damn

I think at this point, I'm gonna start recalling and remember on what my mom has sed. I'm gonna stop being defensive and stubborn.
a good change?
haha!!

New Skin

2006-04-26T10:43:00.000+12:45

changed to a new skin, again.

i think i better start designing my own skin.

learn Farah, learn.

aaaa i wanna spend a day off, not doing anything oth than designing..

hmm i wonder when will that be.

heehee

The Easter Break adventure

2006-04-24T04:45:00.000+12:45

Easter Hols has ended. Now its time to buck up and strive in our coming 1st Trimester Exam! which will be held in June. Middle June I guess. Can't wait for that cuz then we're gonna have another 2 weeks of break!! And its winter, and another Holiday will be planned soon!!

Well what have I done for the whole Easter Break?
for the 1st week, nothing much happened, other than spending my time with the Pet Scholars, which is actually fun. Oh yah, we had maulidur Rasul & Ali's Hijrah year bday and Montreaux house warming on Tuesday and we made a trip to Queensgate, LowerHutt on the next day. We went to the Westfield Mall *whee* and I bought myself a jacket, a t-shirt, track pants and a throw.

On Friday, Haz, Shaz, Sufya and Afiqah left us for Auckland.

So Ali, Nana and I spent the weekend together with Daz and Anne (LOTR Exhibition Trip), Ali's cuzzie and his friend (They're from Auckland.. but I didnt spend much time with em. huhu), And Nonie, Beng and Husna (dinner at daawat, coffee with Beng). And during the weekend too, Ali, Nana and I were planning to make a trip downsouth; Just to experience the luxurious ferry ride, The Interislander and we invited Nonie, Beng and Husna to join. They invited Pae, so altogether, seven of us hit the south island :D on the 18th April.

We had a JOLLY GOOD TIME together on board (watched Casanova for the second time, had breakfast and took a nap on one of the reclining seats after 'photo shooting'). But when we reached Picton, a town at the tip of South Island, we actually have NO IDEA of what to do!! Then suddenly one of us came with the idea to rent a car (Note: The problem was, to rent a car here you have to be 21 years at least). So Nana and her skills, went into Budget Car Rentals and ayat the officer, but the sad part, they failed to convince the officer that Beng is 21. Yeap, Beng looks too young. Kami tak berputus asa, lalu Nana went to another Car Rental office, Bargain Car Rentals and tried for the second time. Then he asked some ppl to follow him to the main office. So, Beng(the driver), Ali(the one who's gonna settle the bayaran and stuff), Husna(for being 21.. back up ah kire) went and Pae too tagged along for a reason which I dunno what(penyibuk la kire. hehe). They went off leaving Nana, Nonie and I at the terminal, snapping some pics to kill the time. And they came back with a silver Oddeyssey(I think I spelt it wrong.. but wth)!! All of us were seriously VERY excited to see that we actually have a vehicle, kenderaan beroda to move about!! So we gt in the car, and again, dengan TIADA hala tujuan! Suddenly Nana suggested to go to Kaikoura, and so the road trip begins.

We got more and more excited when we saw Sheeps everywhere (yeah we dont have sheeps in Welly city, mind you)!! And the scenic view along the way was FaNtaBuLous!. We made a few stops to take pictures with God's gifts, well, it's just simply beautiful! And after about three hours of drive, we reached Kaikoura at about 7pm. Since we're like... half way thru to Christchurch, at that point of time we made another sudden decision; To Go straight to Christchurch and we agreed to miss the ride back to Welly, and we changed the ferry ride to the next day. Giler kan??

The road from Kaikoura to Christchurch is pretty dangerous, cuz of the fact that its night time, and there's no highway lights (jalan pedalaman ah kire), and moreover Beng is tired. Yela drive for hours die sorang je mana tak nye. When u're driving in the south island at night-time, please look up the sky cuz u're gonna see a very nice view of STARS (u can't see stars wud be that nice in welly)!! aaa everything is perfectly beautiful!Okay carry on with the story, we reached Christchurch at about nine pm, and the Christchurch pet scholars brought us to Nandos, and after sembang2 ngan derang agak terkezut with our 'surprise trip', we all went to their house and bermalam kat situ. The girls slept at the girls' house and the guys slept at the guys'. The house is pretty big, yeah again we cant find rumah berderet2 in Welly city cuz Welly is Hilly. Whereby Christchurch is very spread out, and they have to travel around mostly not on foot. By bus lah senang. And we sambung-ed sembang2 with Mun, CheAh(i dunno la eja camana) and one of the Pet Senior, Fida.

The next morning, we woke up at about 5am++, got ready and had breakfast, and drive out of Christchurch at about 7am; cuz we have to get back to Picton at about 1pm to send back the car. Yeah we made it just in time, and then Ali went to get the tix and lucky Ali, he gt 2 tix for the earlier ferry. So he and Husna take the tix for some reasons yang tak boleh dielakkan. and yang tinggal were Nana, Nonie, Beng, Pae and I. Picton has nothing much to see(for sightseeing kurangla.. there are some activities but yeah.. mahal nnt overbudget). The only fast food rest was Subway. And Picton is DARN HOT! well, we've been living in the windy Wellington so tak biasa sangat dahh! lol! But then we found a spot yang agak sedap utk duduk so we spent most of our time there before it gets darker. Yeah dah gelap time tu pon nak kene naik kapal. haha.

But then... there are some technical problems happened yang menyebabkan delay yang sangat tensen. So we gt into the ship, at about 10pm and the ferry departed at 1030pm. All we did in the ship was, tido and sembang. haha.

So actually, the 18 and 19 April South Island Trip ni dikira our very first Road Trip!!! huhu and from this trip we realized that Sudden and Spontaneous Decision we made, and the people who went that made this trip BEST GILA!. But yeah there are some mistakes we make, and we decided that there are some things that we should always carry whenever we go on travel; which are:

1. Passport and Driver's License
2. Extra Clothing(haha yeah, we didnt bring any. lol! memalukan saja)
3. Sleeping Bags
4. Binoculars + CAMERAS
5. Toileteries
6. Pen and Notepad(for budgeting along the way)
7. Chargers and Batteries(for our gadgets)
8. Cash(like..duhh)
9. Cassette or CD(for the car)
10. Beng-->he's a VERY good driver. lol!*
11. Nonie-->so x payah mintak izin die nk bawak Beng. haha. sebok je nih*

*ni optional. hehe. kiddin je eh guys!!!

Yeah I have to admit he is a very good driver and Berhemah! chewah! So to u guys who went with me, I had FUN to the max!! and sorryla for being a loudspeaker & a noisy radio and kalau tersalah kata ke apa ke, SORRY. Muahx to all. Next time kite buat lagi ok.

I watched two movies during the easter break, eh actually 3; the suspense & thrilling When a Stranger Calls, the funny gila Scary Movie 4 and the smart movie Inside Man. Gile lah banyak. lol! all diff types of movies, and I love all of em.

And I had netball practices, and started to go to the Gym with Nana. Yeah I'm on mencantikkan badan plan and menjaga duit plan now. lol! and now I'm learning to like Netball. yeah never played this game before.. and on Sunday we had Mixed Netball tournament! had fun altho I lost haha. Its my 1st tournament ever. lol! altho its not a real big one but yeah its a start kan. The team who won 1st place was Burn Syndicate, and I tell ya they're VERY THE POWER. Yeah the second place goes to team Perasan Bagus and third place goes to Transformers. All these three teams actually mmg sangat terrer! Hail to HAZ! hahahaha!!!

So overall, Easter was spent dengan seronok sekali! haha. At first I dun wan to travel around, save money kunun. And now i rasa macam overspent plak. hahahaha.

And for this winter..
The Next Destination: Queenstown :D

still under planning tho.

And another lesson learnt: YOU HAVE TO TRAVEL AROUND DURING TERM BREAKS. kalau boleh la. cuz there is so much to see here. and there are many activities that you can do here, and now in my list there are Bungee Jump, Sky Diving, Snow boarding, Skiing, and theres some more which I'll add up later. ah I just can't wait!!!

Oh yah another thing, after the trip, and we gather ramai2 and share the adventure, I realized how grateful I should be to study here, in Wellington. I dunno why but I feel very safe here.

I think I better go to sleep now. its 1am and I have class tomorrow.

Nites everyone.

Comments on the Quiz 'How You Are In Love'

2006-04-17T13:13:00.000+12:45

1.You Fall In Love quickly and easily. And very often.

Okay i'm not sure abt this one. but i think its not true. I might haf many crushes- which I think its pretty normal. but how do i define the word 'crush' anyway? hmm.. let see.. according to wikitionary.org,

crush:
1. A violent collision or compression; a crash; destruction; ruin.
2. Violent pressure, as of a crowd; a crowd which produced uncomfortable pressure; as, a crush at a peception.
3. A short-lived and unrequited love or infatuation; the object of this infatuation.
4. A chute or corridor in a cattle yard.

take the third one. A short-lived and unrequited love. based on this definition, i'd say that I don't have many crushes tho. Its actually hard to have a crush on anyone. It'll take some time. Well, there are times where I'm confused; not sure of having a crush on a person or nt, and ended up with a decision that it is actually a false feeling ie I dont have a crush on him. that means? The 1st statement is not true.

You give and take equally in relationship
I have no comment on this one. cuz I think.. it is true. haha!

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
Before this, with my 1st and only bf so far (lol), I don't really keen of seeing him everyday. I dont feel comfortable, maybe its nt really what i call love *sigh*
But theres once I fell for someone, and yeah, seeing him at least once a day wud make my day.. altho theres nothing going on between us.
So I agree with this statement. its true

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
Again, no comment on this one cuz I never thought about making him or anybody to change. I'll try to fit in no matter what.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
I agree with this one. cuz I hardly fall for anybody.. but when I do, eventhough he's not mine, I'll make sure he's happy with his life, try to help him as much and love him. I know it hurts when he doesnt love me back. but what to do. It will take quite a long time for me to find someone else, as a replacement.

Cheers.

Bosan2 buat Quiz

2006-04-14T22:21:00.000+12:45

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Am I an Adult now?

2006-04-07T01:48:00.000+12:45

haa. at last i can sit down, relax.. and blog.

after whatever happened this week, i deserve a very good rest. Life is just too hectic and messed up for now. Especially this week. I'm worried that I might let my parents down, I'm worried that I just cannot stop playing around, not realizing that I'm a grown up lady who needs to focus on my career in the future. Some people said that it's actually too early to think abt all these stuffs, but personally i don't agree- and yet how am I doing in my studies now? I'm screwed.

Sometimes I feel like I need something to boost me up, so that I have the semangat so study and strive excellently. Competition is already here, i dunno why im kinda 'immune' with it. No immune is not the word, maybe i just don't care. Well.. maybe i'm so used to the enviroment without competition last year. And I'm still keeping the old habits with me. Yeap, I am ME. I wonder when I'm gonna change.

Well, I turned 18 last Wednesday(5th April). Its yesterday.. haha! Finally I'm legal to do what other 18++ ppl do. Sounds like I'm very looking foward aye?? haha. Actually the aim is just to experience.. see the places. Nothing more than that *I Hope* huhu. Nothing biggie happened during the 'special day'. Celebrated it with one FCOM 110 Legal Assignment(didnt sleep for the whole nite for this), and revisions for QUAN 102 which was not good- the test was this evening and I SUCKED. FCOM 110 gave me a bad bday present tho *Bad Marks for Journal*, and now I have flu. Things went wrong on a good week. But Thank God I have such an awesome people around me, cuz I received lots of wishes and testimos from people :D Well, to Nana and Haz who were shouting out wishing Happy Birthday in y!m-THANKS YA GIRLS! I LOVE YOU GUYS :D to the rest of the gang; Ali, Vivi, Shaz, Dazriq, Sufya and Afiqah- Thanks for the wishes. and also thanks for the chocs daz ;) To Lukas and the rest of A Floor, Thanks For the CARD!! I really like it ;)Nonie, Beng, Eja and the rest of welly ppl who wished me.. thank you. And to the ppl back in Malaysia; Ibu and ayah thanks for the song, man phyr abg thanks for the wish, azah nuha thanks for the smses, Eliza thanks for wishing me everywhere-Friendster, Myspace, sent adam a testi. lol. and Aamir! Thanks for the effort of showing up at MSN that night. It really means a lot to me. And to all again and again, Thanks.

This morning I was wearing this one brown shirt. I only wore it once before, because the material is not like other shirts. Not suitable for me n my skin I guess. But I still brought it here so that maybe I can wear it on top of a camisole or something. The shirt is very nice; I Like it A LOT. But then.. I wore it, nothing went wrong until.. I stretched a bit and.. lengan terkoyak sikit *sobs* so sad. Its like that shirt was giving me signs:

1. A Sign to cut down my WEIGHT.
2.A sign to buy new clothes.

Shopping? haha. Well, I need new stuffs for myself! Like, a new shirt, a new pair of shoes, a maybe new bag and new beaded accessories too. Haha. I'm always into bags and beaded accessories and I've been eyeing for em for sometime already, while doing all those window shopping. Women and Shopping just cannot be seperated aye? lol!I wanna go to dressmart! and Queensgate. gee..

There are some things that I wanna do while I'm 18. Some new goals has been set... and I hope everything will go on very well.

Amin.

Listening to Lindsay Lohan - A Beautiful Life.

And this is my beautiful life
Only thing sudden is everything changes
Lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it’s still amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life

Life is Beautiful, Farah please hold on.

One Lucky Girl I am :p

2006-03-30T20:43:00.000+12:45

a good news heard from everybody.. and after a confirmation with Corisha (one of the RAs), it is confirmed that

R.O.D who's on duty on Friday and Saturday can finish their job and go out after 9:00!!

Lucky mexx yeah? wee hoo!!

Get Busy

2006-03-28T02:45:00.000+12:45

MP3 Playin: Christina Aguilera - Dirrty

Its been almost 2 months I'm here, in Welly.

*sigh* updating mexx: Week 5 & 6 are gonna be a tiring week, cuz the fact that I have a Law Assignment, another 1500 words of essay to do, and its due next week. Damn. Number one: I don't like essay. and number two: I don't like law either. and I have some revisions to do--> QUAN 102 (Statistics in Business) tests are next week!! since im so lemah with Stats, i think i better do something to make sure i can score the test. well, I need the scholarship. So better work hard from the start.. altho takdela rajin mana *sobs* Nyesal tak mintak JPA last year. isk.

Oh yeah. I'm the ROD(Resident of Duty) for A Floor this Friday, March 31st. As the future-ROD (eheh lebey2), I cant leave Weir from 7pm to 7am, return cockery and cutlery to the kitchen & abandoned sports equipment and/or vaccuum cleaners to outside the office, tour the floor to make sure theres no noise, tidy rubbish on the floor, sort recycables (tui.. eww)and dump them in the Recycle Bins in Top Car Park before 9pm, clean the kitchennette and clear the kitchennette's rubbish bins and report any maintenance problems.

haha. like being the ROD is a big thing. haha.

And then.. i'm gonna be free for 2 weeks *Easter Holiday!* gotta think of some plans to do throughout the holiday :D can't wait.

a normal post

2006-03-23T20:09:00.000+12:45

MP3 Playin: Fall Out Boy - Dead on Arrival

Somehow I don't really like autumn here; it rains everyday, and its darn cold. gee..

Anyhoots, what have I done today?? Well, I changed my fitted bedsheet, Duvet covers and pillowcases :D Did my wooly laundry and now my side is clean. Oh no wait; I havent vaccuum the floor. Darn it.

Went down to Lambton Quay to see Farmers Sale. Its like the 'Farmers Day' where we can get everything for 30% off. Well, almost everything. But didnt manage to find anything tho. *sedey* So I have to walk back up the hill to Uni, in the rain*tired*. But its a good practice for me since I have to cut down some weight; yeah i eat A LOT. Everyone is like warning me, that I will get fat if I dont stop the way I eat now. But I just can't help it. aaa i better stop. I need to exercise.

Gonna have another LONG weekend. But yeah gt plenty of stuffs to do. gee. malas!

I feel like going out.. but im knocked out. Very tired. hmm..

Daz turned 19 on the 21st!

2006-03-22T01:47:00.000+12:45

Celebrated Daz's 19th Birthday last night at Ali's new crib. The celebration was nice, Ali's place is nice too.

Had fun. heehee.

Special Shout out to Dazriq: Happy Birthday dude! May u haf another blissful year full with laughter and happiness :D Nice to know u ;)

Oh yah its raining season. Wet Hilly Windy Welly.

Alhamdulillah

2006-03-21T12:47:00.000+12:45

submitted the assignment.
and the pics and planner are all back on the wall.
i can see my table now :)

everything is back to normal.

ahh sweet :)

*Phew*

TOTAL MESS!

2006-03-20T20:02:00.000+12:45

Tomorrow is the submission for FCOM 110 essay. I'm 70% finish. I can't wait.

Life is just too stressful. My planner with the pics all around em peeled off from the wall. And on the table the notes are all scattered. And I havent tucked in the fitted sheet properly, and I haven't done my laundry for this week. If I am one of The Sims character, I am sure my house cleanliness is zero. And Kid's space is very tidy. I need to do some cleaning, but at the same time I have to make sure I finish my assignments first.

Rimas gile. Serious.

As usual, life turns to loser-ish mode everytime I'm in a rush with assignments:

1. I woke up at 10++am. Late again, and missed ECON130 tutorial.
2. and missed breakfast
3. Woosh doesnt seem to work until lunch. Been worrying cuz I need to access into some sites.
4. The MESSY room really disturbes me
5. makcik Dining Hall wasnt being nice. Main rampas2 cutlery. I dunno whats up with her, but I feel offended. Maybe she tot I just dunno how to differentiate the spoon, fork and knife?
6. Its raining and cold.
7. I can't put my ideas into proper words.

Better get back to work

Saye perlukan ILHAM. help

2006-03-18T16:14:00.000+13:45

woke up at 1315 hrs. Setting up a record time i suppose. lol.

Its 1529 hrs right now, and I haven't started anything for my journal. I'll be dead by tomorrow. haha. But I did went to the National Library with Nana yesterday, sadly most of the 'useful' books all are on loan. I'm late didnt I??

it seems like everyone wants to see how creativity can lead to success i suppose.

...is it a very common topic??

tak bestnye :( im nt different anymore. haha. how to attract the reader... gotta think of something. cuz I know my writing is actually suck. wahahhaa.

suppose to go to the town for awhile.. to buy something obviously. for what reason i'm just gonna keep my mouth shut. But then I woke up late, so... NO TRIP downtown. ahax.

Missed lunch(hah bangun lambat lagi), but then Kid the Baker has made choc muffins. So I ate hers! hehe *yummy*. Shes into baking now, cuz last nite she was baking brownies. Thanks kid, they were all good :D and yeah I LOVE CHOCOLATES!

The petro scholars (some of em) are moving to Montreaux. I'm so gonna go and do cam whoring with Nana, Kid and Haz; to make the Mean Girls new poster. lol! Weirdos is now Mean Girls!

later this evening, im planning to go crash Nonie's crib, to watch The OC. I hope she doesnt mind. heehee.

So the "blending with Welly" project has started. Went down at 2330 hrs and lepak-ed with Nonie and her gang at Espressoholic until about.. 0000++ hrs. Then on the way back to Weir House, the weirdos(Nana, Haz and I) stopped by at Flat's(his nickname is Flat, his name is Azmil..err i can't remember) crib. Well, he's the one who ajak cuz we passed his house.

Its a start, and its pretty hard tho. I mean to blend with em all. Maybe i'm more like an alien? lol i dunno. I'll try my best ;)

And gt back home at 0200++hrs. Then continue chatting with Adam, Icam- the long lost friend :D, and Juju. Adam showed 2 clips; Napoleon Dynamite and Green Armadillo's Samseng. Btw Green Armadillo is Addam n his frieds production team. Someone put up their v.clip in youtube. I was VERY excited cuz I like that v.clip. Not becuz its full with bangians, its becuz i like the idea... the whole thing lawa. Anyhoots those who wanna see both clips, heres the link:

Samseng Clip
Napoleon Dynamite at David Letterman Show

and I slept at 0530 hrs.

Now u know why I woke up late aye? lol!!

*evil laughs*

Ibu's Bday Celebration.

2006-03-17T15:16:00.000+13:45

Forgot to wish IBU Happy 54th Bday!!! here. Her b'day is on the 15th. Called her tho. huhu.

And I heard that last night she had her surprised bday Makan2 with Juju and Family, Aunt Raudhah, Taty and Arry, and Komeng and fam.*sigh*I'm soo jealous right now; esp when the whole lot of em were there. Wishin that I was there, to celebrate with her.

*sobs*

I wanna see pictures!!

Farm

2006-03-17T12:35:00.000+13:45

Ma'Ngah sent me some pictures; Atok at his farm.

I'm SO wanna go to his farm!!

but im here.

*damn*

Hello Weekends!

2006-03-17T00:19:00.000+13:45

Tentang Seseorang - Cinta(AADC Soundtrack)

Its good if u don't have classes on Friday; That means u're gonna have a LONG weekend. weehoo! No more waiting for Fridays! argh talking abt fridays, I miss the TGI Fridays with Nuha, Sarah, Adibah and Eliza. I miss sticker photo booths and GSC OU. damn. I miss the "TGI Friday" I had where Alvin, Nuha and I drove to Burger King to buy our lunch and ate em at Tesco Carpark in the fasting month.

Oh yah, and I'm not totally free for this weekend. Haf an assignment to do. And I havent start anything yet. So gotta work hard and finish it a.s.a.p. But at least now I haf some ideas on what to do, but still looking for an angle to start with. All I know is I wanna relate Creativity and Business. Maybe I can do some research on how successful businessman/woman can be if he/she uses creativity in Business? or maybe I can relate to Taking Risks. How far can they go? Which one is better and more likely to be successful, the one who's thinking out of the box, or the one who play safe and stick to only rules? Does a man/woman needs creativity in order to go further? Is Being Creative a key to success? Gotta do some research on this. Quick research. Library, I'll be visiting u tomorrow!! hehe. And its 4 pages long; the output from the research plus the experience of doing this journal. Should be easy, dont u think so? haha.

I need to leave my habits of doing last minute work and "Half pai"(not sure whether this is right or not. lol. btw it means do something not to the fullest. learnt it just now.. lol). I realized, Last Minute Job always work for me. Maybe because at that time, our brain is working fast, its at Beta phase. So everything will like popped out of my head that time, and the ideas will keep on coming in. But the cons of doing last minute work, you won't have the time to do proof reading and maybe you can get better ideas and u can modify ur work. The output will be better.

Just had Kiwiana Supper where we had an overseas residents gathering for the first time. Had a quiz, and my group won the 2nd place *cool* hehe. Learnt some new Maori's language... and I think I should be starting to learn the language, and the culture. Its like.. I KNOW NOTHING ABT IT! I'm a total loser. Seriously. I wonder whats the first impression of people towards me? especially in here, Aotearoa aka New Zealand *eccey gedik lak rase*. I feel so kekok here. As usual, blame my low self esteem. I need to brush up and communicate better. And I know I left a bad impression on people; well it happens all the time. They'll need time to actually know me. I dunno why, sometimes I just act stupid. Acting stupid is not cool, and not cute too. Not good. But then, I still do it.

Alhamdulillah, so far the Pet Scholars can accept me for what I am. Thanks guys. They rock my world I tell u. They're like.. very happening and wicked ppl. I can say they're the best so far. The closest I can find; closest to the perangai of my crazy friends back in Malaysia. Damn. I miss alevelers, march of machines, smkj3; the arab and non-arab clans. I miss the crazies who walk with me almost every saturday morning. I miss Juju. I miss Ika. I miss Qeela. I miss Azah. I miss Aamir, Nuha, Syaril, Eliza. I miss the poyoronos aka the 4 bros; we always had fun together kan? altho we always fight like we hate each other so much. well yah, thts the nature of siblings. haha. but I still need to hang out with other people. Yeah, I need to do like what I always do at home; jadi a social butterfly-- terbang and hinggap at other cliques. Whether I can blend with em or not.. thts another story. gotta kembangkan my circle of friends. Be friendly farah, be friendly :) go around and talk...

and look for the true friend.

wonder who will that be?

Spread the LOVE

2006-03-14T18:52:00.000+13:45

Got this from LV Valentine's Catalog.

There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness
Friedrich Nietzsche

There is no remedy for love but to love more
Henry David Thoreau

Don't say 'later' to love
William Shakespeare

Love is not just a feeling, It's an art
Paul Morand

Love is the only dream that is not a dream
Paul Fort

Love is the reason for love
Antoine De Saint-Exupery

The measure of love is when you love without measure
Saint Augustin

Wherever there is love, there is never darkness
African Proverb

The world is little when love is great.
Jose Maria Escriva de Balaguer

I have been loving a little more all the time that has passed since this morning
Victor Hugo

Wisdom is not found in reason, but in love
Andre Gide

Words are the voice of the heart
Chinese Proverb

A simple brush of sleeves, and love is born
Japanese Proverb

The loving are the daring
Bayard Taylor

Reason Speaks, But love sings.
Alfred de Vigny

I dunno. Somehow I find this interesting. heh.