shoot me.

How do u feel... u went to the toilet and u found out there are bloodstains on ur pants ...and it is 4pm on a fasting day?? DAMN FRUSTATING!! ugh!!.

few days back were disasterous. no luck at all :( . and i think the miserable-ness(is there such word?) will continue till i finish my finals. altho i can smile now, but i feel soo.. gloomy. i prayed and wish that all these will end. i feel lonely now. totally lonely; being single is not the main reason, but i feel like theres no connection between me and any of my friends. i dun feel any friendzy vibe. hmm... life's sucks!

for anyone who put sum effort to cheer me up lastweek, thank you. i really really appreciate it :) allah will bless ya all.

received offer pack from vic uni of wellington. most probably i'm going there. will be in Malaysia till early February. then im off... chasing my dreams...

i think my social life is zero now.

i realized, i've been focusing A LOT in my studies, struggling to score for my trials and finals.

imagine, failing my exams... and at the same time losing sum important friends... and sitting all alone without anyone to talk to, even fail to find a bf.. that time i know that im a total LOSER. this is my nightmare... and i can feel that it is hunting me... gotta stop it.

and now i know that.. im lost!

better start finishing my econs :S im scared.